Epilogue
Even though days had passed, Katsuki didn't stop walking. He didn't stop to sleep, to eat, to take a breather. It was like his body was under the light's control, dragging him to his final destination.
When the light finally went out, he found himself alone in a field, beneath a giant tree.
He remembered this place.
"Ei..." He circled the tree, finding the tall, polished headstone planted between the roots. "Ei, I did it."
He fell to his knees, fatigue finally catching up to him.
"You certainly did." Eijirou said. "And how do you feel?"
Katsuki swallowed. "Empty. Lost. I just don't see any point in living when you're not around."
"I've always been with you, Katsuki. I'm a part of you."
"You're not real, Ei. You're just something I made up to cope with your death."
"That doesn't matter."
"What are you trying to do? Haven't I been through enough?"
"I'm trying to take you where you belong."
Katsuki took a deep breath. He placed his hand on Eijirou's tombstone. It was spotlessly shiny. Somebody had been cleaning it for him. He let out a strong breath from his nose. It should have been HIM cleaning the tombstone. Not a servant on his behalf. Him.
"Eijirou...I just wanna go home."
"But where is home?"
"Not in that fucking castle, that's for sure."
"Then where?"
"God, Ei. I don't know."
Eijirou's laugh rang through his ears, loud and unashamed.
"Nothing is ever straightforward with you."
"What are you talking about. I'm always straightforward."
"Are not. It's been two decades and you still haven't said how you really feel."
"So what, you want me to say it? It won't do much good since you're dead."
"You don't have to say it to me. Say it to yourself. Admit it out loud so you can move on."
Katsuki felt warm tears dripping down his face. They stung the scratches he had achieved from stumbling through the forests on his way here.
"I can't move on. No matter how much time passes, I won't be able to live without you. You're my best friend."
"And?"
"What do you mean 'and'?"
"And?"
"And I love you, dumbass. I always have. You're like another half of me that nobody will ever understand." Katsuki let out a choked sob. "I lost a whole half of myself that day, and I'll never get it back."
"For what it's worth, I love you too."
"The real you never said that. You're just my imagination."
"The real me said it all the time, Katsuki. He just didn't use words to do it."
He was right. Eijirou showed his love in everything he did. Katsuki had just been to dense to see it before.
"Am I dying?" He asked, looking up at Eijirou, really looking at him. This Eijirou wasn't real, but Katsuki wanted to pretend it was, just to make this easier on himself.
"You haven't eaten or slept or had any water for days. I'm surprised you lasted this long."
It was then that Katsuki really started to feel the weight of what he had allowed his body to go through. He was in pain and he was tired and filthy. He just wanted peace.
"I...had a goal."
"And you've reached it."
"So now what?"
Eijirou smiled, more soft and eerie than he usually did.
"I'll take you to him."
"The real him?"
"The real him."
Katsuki smiled, his body collapsing to the ground. But he didn't collapse with it. He was no longer a part of it.
"Home." He whispered to the Eijirou floating above the headstone. "I'm coming home."
I'm sorry I got so slow with the updates. I've been having a rough time because my cat died. She'd been slowly getting worse over the past year and she finally gave up on the 19th after two days of shutting down. At least she's no longer in pain and at least she made it to her birthday.
I miss her so much and I don't know when I'm getting another cat so it's a tough process for me.
The next fanfic I do will not be posted regularly. Next week is the last one I'll have consistent internet access until September so I'll try to get a chapter up every time I'm online, but I doubt that'll be very often. I'll try my best as always.
-shick
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