She continues to sit with the ladies as they speak. The only other who was as quiet as her was Romaisa who kept looking at her.

She tried to assure Romaisa that everything was ok and she was actually enjoying the dinner. But, maybe, it was something she was doing. Like shaking her legs, and fingers, looking around and over people for threats.

She was paranoid.

After serving with the army for a few months she was paranoid of life even more. She was always scared of the unthinkable. The trauma from a young age was living with her forever. This new trauma from the army had taken the small peace she once had.

She shivers as she looks around to find his eyes narrowing at her. There was a frown on his face (a very bruised face). She ignored his eyes as she pretends to be involved in the woman's talks. But, her mind kept playing some old memories that surface because of the drama from the day. She clenches her hand to surpass the panic building inside her.

Her eyes caught Kabir's who was silently looking at the man who was speaking to him. Her heart clench as she wish she was young again, in his arms where she felt safe. She wished she was young again where she could ask for his comfort even when he would simply hold her and say no words to her.

She had spent a good amount of time panicking and finding comfort in his arms when she was young (a child). Then she realized that he had his family and a little girl who requires his attention. She realized that when she had her first ever panic attack alone in the room while he was with his daughter who was in the hospital due to some issue with her heart.

The day she was alone in the darkness, she started to find her way out of Kabir's life. Slowly and surely she started to put distance between them. Because even if she craved love and affection from him, she didn't deserve it. She didn't deserve to ask or even beg for him. He belonged to someone else and she accepted that pretty quickly.

Maybe it was because the men in her life who were actually supposed to provide for her needs, never did, so she realized that every other man will someday leave her too.

No one stays. No one cares.

It was pretty clear as she grew up and in the place that she grew up in. She clenched her jaw as the ladies went on and on about something.

"Hey". She heard someone nudge her as she looked at Aaira, "Do you want to get some ice cream?"

"Ice cream?" She was confused because her brain was still foggy

"Yes. Come on". Aaira said as she takes her hand dragging her toward the ice cream stand

She looks at the ice cream stand amused because it didn't match the vibe of the event. The event was sophisticated and this stand looks like it was from the street.

"Looks good?" Aaira asked grinning at her and she chuckles

"It looks good". She agreed as she orders vanilla and chocolate while Aaira something fancy

She starts to enjoy the flavor when Aaira says, "I know it can be too much sometimes".

She frowns at her words so Aaira added, "These events. With B5".

"B5?"

Aaira gasped, "You don't know about them? I heard you are one of Kabir's favorites".

"One of?" She felt her heart drops as her suspicion of years that she was just another charity case to him was starting to come true

Maybe she was an actual burden to him. Maybe that's why Ehan hates her too. She didn't deserve to use the resources that belong to someone. If she was one of Kabir's children or family members, she would be pissed. She would hate that he was investing his time in something useless. She wonders how many times she unintentionally took from Kabir and his family.

She was such a mess. She shouldn't have come here. She shouldn't have acted as if she belongs with them. She shouldn't have even come to this country where he stays. She should've stayed in the army even if it kills her.

"Ziva?" Aaira asked with concern lingering in her eyes, "Did I say something wrong? You look pale".

She handed the ice cream to one of the servers as she clears her throat, "It's been a very long day. I will leave now".

Aaira frown, "You didn't even eat anything. And it's been only an hour".

She attach a fake smile on her lips, "I know. I ate something on the way which is why I couldn't eat even the starters. I appreciate that you asked me to join this event. However, I have work tomorrow and I need rest".

Before Aaira could argue more, she started to head towards the table to grab her things and provide more fake excuses to the ladies. She saw his eyes narrowing at her and he starts to move towards their table. She didn't care about anything besides leaving the event.

She starts to walk out of the hall when she heard someone calling her name. She ignores the call as she exits the hotel.

"Ziva!". She heard a yell over her panic and she turns around to find a very angry Ehan

He crosses the distance between them in a second and she raises her hand to prevent her from the oncoming abuse. She held her breath and closes her eyes tightly hoping for whatever abuse he was going to go for passes by quickly.

She waited for a beat or two before she lower her hand and her eyes looked directly into his darkened gaze.

He was actually gazing at her.

He was looking at her like some girl he hates. He was looking at her with anger or hate.

He was gazing at her.

She blinks before she took a deep breath, "I just panicked".

"That's not what I want to know right now, Ziva". She hates that she tried explaining anything to him because he doesn't care, "I want to know who".

She snaps her head towards him, "Excuse me?"

He steps closer to her as he bends a little to be at the same height, "Who hurt you, Ziva? Name. I need a name".

She took a step back, "No one. It was just something I do".

"No one does that for no reason, Ziva. I am a trauma surgeon, you think you can lie to my face and I will believe it". He snapped and his anger rose by the minute, "Give me a damn name".

"Why do you care?" She snapped as she heard the thunder going on above her, "Just leave me alone".

"I will". He looks at her, "When I want to".

She growled. She turns around calling for a taxi when he steps in front of her.

"What do you want?" She said frustrated because she was too tired and irritated right now

"I will find whoever this is, Ziva, and, when I am done with whoever this may be they will wish they never hurt you".

"What about you?"

"What about me?"

"Who will avenge for the hurt you caused me?"

He gazes at her for a moment before he steps away from her. She took a deep breath as she rushes inside the taxi without another glance.

The next day at work she didn't find him anywhere. She did see him. She can still feel him around. But he didn't come after her. It scares her more when everyone in the hospital was now pushing her around. Some of them mumbling things under their breath.

She needed this job. She needs to pay back Kabir. But, the week Ehan ignores her, this place became a little more shitty.

"The storage is in the basement. I will access the lift for you". The nurse said as she was supposed to bring medicine from the storage

Usually, someone is assigned to the task but now most days they are short staffed especially when they found another two traitors.

She nodded absentmindedly as she enters the elevator and the nurse scans her ID pressing basement. Just as the door closes she saw the smirk on the nurse's face and her heart dropped.

Something was wrong. Something was very wrong. She could feel it when her heart started to drop. The sweat gathers as she tries to push the other button to either stop the lift or go to another floor. None of them worked. Each time, they asked to scan her ID and she didn't have her ID.

She tried to think where she kept her ID since they are supposed to always have it on them. That was until she figured out that the nurse must have taken it from her when she wasn't paying attention. She was busy reading a case file when she was assigned this task.

The fear grew bigger and the elevator started to look smaller by the second. She tried banging on the door as she felt her oxygen levels dropping. She screams in pain and despair for someone to help her.

Just as the lift finally stops she leans back in the lift to hide and the door opens to the dark empty broken room. She knows some of the places in this hospital are still under construction since it hadn't been open that long ago.

She held her breath pressing harder on the button to get it to work. The lift door remains open and her panic starts kicking in as she screams again. She took a step out of the elevator and the door starts to close before she could go back in.

Now, she was alone in the dark empty basement without any help and without anyone to care enough to find her.