Marian's POV

They looked so cute together. Ang mag-ama ko. Nakadapa si Pio sa ibabaw ng dibdib ni Seth at pareho silang mahimbing na natutulog. I got kind of teary-eyed just watching them together. Hindi ako makapaniwala na dadating pa ang panahon na ito. Na magkakaroon ako ng buong pamilya.

I stared down at the diamond ring I had on my finger. I couldn't believe he proposed to me. Mabibigay ko na ang anak ko ng isang buong pamilya at pakakasalan ko ang lalaking mahal ko. I was going to be Mrs. Seth Timothy Fonacier.

I dropped a kiss on Pio's cheek and then, after the briefest of hesitations, one on Seth's cheek. A smile broke into his lips, his eyes fluttering open.

"Why are you still awake?" He asked, looking at me with hooded eyes.

"Wala lang. Ang sarap niyo kasing panoorin." I answered.

"Why don't you join us?" He said, extending his arm to me.

Humiga ako sa tabi nila at sumiksik sa tagiliran ni Seth. He wrapped an arm around me as I snuggled against his side, laying my head on his chest. I looked at Pio, his face was just a few inches away from me. His angel face and cherub cheeks made me feel mushy inside.

"Bakit hindi mo sinabi, Marian?" He asked in a serious tone as he stroked my hair.

"Huh?"

"Bakit hindi mo sinabi ang totoo noong nagbubuntis ka pa lang sa kanya?"

"Maniniwala ka ba sa akin kung sinabi ko sa'yo ang totoo noon?"

"Yes, I've always felt that he was mine."

"I got scared." I bit my bottom lip. "I'm sorry."

"Pakiramdam ko nasayang lahat ng panahon na inakala kong anak ng ibang lalaki si Pio. Yung mga panahon na natakot ako na baka bumalik sa buhay niyo ang totoong ama niya at palitan niya ang pwesto ko... I've lived in fear that one day that would happen. Gayong wala naman pala talaga akong dapat katakutan. I wanted to hate you but try as I might, I can't. I love you too much."

I felt him his lips on my forehead. I closed my eyes and sighed. I couldn't help but feel regret. I regret the amount of time that I had wasted, I could've had all these before, I was just glad I have him now.

"Isa pa, ayaw ko naman na isantabi mo yung buhay mo para sa amin. I knew how afraid you are of responsibilities and giving up your freedom."

"I'd be willing to give up everything for the both of you and do everything you ask me to. If you say it, I will do it. That's how much I love you."

"I love you too." I smiled.

"It's really funny you know?" He chuckled. "This little man right here has been conceived without us having sex. And he came from a used condom. What do you think he's reaction would be like when someday he finds out how he was made?"

"Bakit naman niya malalaman? Siraulo ka talaga!" I laughed. "Kaya nga you shouldn't waste your... um, man essence. Those are your potential children. Think about your son. If I hadn't injected your semen in me, Pio would just be one of those sperms rotting in a piece of plastic."

"That's kind of sick to think about." He grimaced. "But for the record, Marian, I have been celibate since I moved in with you. That's the longest I have ever been celibate. Kung hindi ka lang bagong panganak, I would've taken you right now."

"Seth!" I scolded him, my cheeks heating up. "Really? In front of your son?!"

"What? He's asleep." Natatawang sabi niya.

I rolled my eyes at him but couldn't help but smile. I couldn't thank God enough for all these things I'd been blessed with. My eyes felt heavy. I yawned, closing my eyes and quickly drifting to sleep.

Isinabay na namin ang binyag ni Pio sa engagement party namin. It was just a small, intimate party. The reception was at a restaurant in a hotel. Ang mga taong malalapit lang sa amin ang inimbitahan namin. Seth was the kind of father any woman could ever hope and wish for. He was so hand-on and involved with our son. Siya ang nagpapaaraw kay Pio sa umaga, he walks outside with the baby in the stroller every morning. Sa tuwing umuuwi siya galing trabaho, si Pio na agad ang hawak niya. Kapag hawak niya na ang bata, hindi niya na ito mabitawan.

Isang beses sinabi ko sa kanya na hindi pa ako nakakaranas na ligawan niya. We were soon going to get married at wala pang ligawan na nagaganap. From friends nag level up agad sa pagiging mag-asawa. Since then, palagi niyang ipinararamdam sa akin na nililigawan niya ako. He'd bring me flowers everyday when he comes home from work pero nakalimutan niya yatang may flowershop ako at sawang-sawa na ako sa bulaklak. And then he started bringing me something else, emerald pendant necklace, diamond studded earrings... but I never really had the taste for luxurious things such as that. Sabi ko sa kanya tama na yung maramdaman kong mahal niya ako. His weekends were ours, he'd always take me out on a date at a restaurant and we'd end the day with watching a good chick flick movie, cuddled up on the couch.

Apat ang ninong ni Pio. Seth's four good old friends, Axel, Phoenix, Wayne and Tristan. They were all like brothers. Mga limang mala-Adonis na magkakapatid na bumaba sa lupa. Pero syempre ang future husband ko ang pinaka-gwapo sa kanilang lahat.

Tatlo naman ang ninang niya which were my three bestfriends. Andrea, Rose, and Betsy. The ninongs and ninang were all over our baby. Pinagpasa-pasahan nila ang anak ko. Pio was loving all the attention he was getting.

"Buti naman at naisipan niyo na magpakasal." Tita Liza said as she was holding our sleeping son in her arms. Napagod siguro ang bata sa kaka-entertain sa mga ninong at ninang niya. "You already have a child. Responsibilidad niyo bilang magulang ang bigyan siya ng isang buong pamilya."

"I'll be expecting another grandchild after the wedding." Tito Nelson said.

"Don't worry about it, dad. We're going to work on it as soon as possible." Nakangising sagot ni Seth at ipinulupot ang bisig sa balikat ko.

Embarrassed, I elbowed him on his side. He just laughed, pulling me closer to him and kissing the side of my head.

"You should have more kids, Marian." Sabi naman ni tita Liza. "Alam mo maganda ang malaking pamilya ngayon ko lang na realize yan. Para kahit bihira ka lang bisitahin ng isang anak mo." She said and gave Seth a sharp look. "Marami ka pang anak na bibisita sa'yo."

"I'm sorry, mom. Naging busy lang kami kay Pio." Sabi ni Seth.

"Don't worry, tita. Palagi po kaming bibisita sa inyo." I said.

"I don't ever want to hear you call me tita again. Just call me mom, okay? Parte ka na ng pamilya namin." Tita Liza smiled.

"Okay po." I smiled back at her. It felt so nice being accepted as a part of the Fonacier family even though we weren't married yet.

"And you young man, don't ever be like your father." Sabi ni tito Nelson habang nakatingin sa natutulog na sanggol. "I don't want to slap the back of your head when you grow up."

The party ended well. We decided to check in with their parents into the hotel where the party was held. Hindi na kasi makakauwi ang mga magulang ni Seth, they're house was a few hour drive away from here and it was already late. Kung uuwi kami sa bahay, wala din naman silang matutulugan. The only room with a bed in my house was my bedroom. The nursery room didn't have a bed.

Dalawang kwarto ang kinuha namin at katabi ng kwarto namin ang kwarto ng mga magulang ni Seth.

"Can we spend the night our grandson?" Seth's mom asked as we were heading to our rooms. "Gusto ko lang makasama ang apo ko kahit ngayon lang. Bukas uuwi na kami. I'm going to miss him."

Seth and I looked at each. Bumalik ang tingin ko sa mommy ni Seth bago ako ngumiti at tumango. I knew Pio would be in good hands.

"You want to spend the night with Poppop and grandma, little guy?" Tanong ni Seth sa anak niya. Pio cooed and let out a small laugh.

"See, he likes being with us." Sabi naman ng daddy ni Seth.

Kinuha ko ang diaper bag ni Pio kung saan nakalagay ang mga gatas, extra clothes at diapers niya. This was the first night I'd spend without him by my side since leaving the hospital. Pero naisip kong maganda din iyon ng makapagpahinga naman kami pareho ni Seth. It would be nice to have a full uninterrupted sleep. Sleep becomes a luxury when you're a parent.

Pumasok na kami sa kwarto namin pagkatapos namin ihatid ang mga gamit ni Pio. Umupo ako sa gild ng kama pagpasok sa kwarto. I was exhausted from the party.

Seth began to take his shirt off. Doon ko lang na realize na kaming dalawa na lang ang nasa loob ng kwarto. I swallowed as I stared at his body, his perfectly sculped torso, his wide chest and his ridged abdominal muscles. I felt the air and the atmosphere in the room growing thick.

I'd seen him topless and shortless but it's different when you have a baby in the room, you're more of a mother than a woman. Now I was a woman. A full blooded woman with needs and desires.

My gaze lifted up to his face and I saw him looking at me. He gave me a smug smile and winked at me. My cheeks heated up in embarrassment.

"Come on, let's go to bed." Aya niya. Pinanood ko siyang maglakad papunta sa right side ng kama at humiga doon.

My heart was thumping really fast.I was excited and nervous at the same time. May anak na kami pero bakit ganito pa din ang nararamdaman ko ngayon.

Dahan-dahan akong humiga sa tabi niya. The light in the room was dim, adding to the romantic atmosphere of it.

He wrapped an arm around my waist and pulled me against him. He buried his face in the crook of my neck. I could his hot breath tickling my skin.

"Seth... ano ba? Nakikiliti ako..." I said, half-laughing when he started leaving small kisses on my neck.

He held me still as his kisses ran down my neck. My breath began to hitch when his hand crawled up my breast. Kahit na may telang nakaharang, ramdam ko pa rin ang init ng mga palad niya. I closed my eyes. Pinakiramdaman ko lang ang lahat ng ginagawa niya sa akin. I was liking sensation of his hot lips against my skin and his hand playing with my breast.

Dumilat lang ako ng maramdaman kong huminto siya. I wanted to protest. But then he shifted and got on top of me. Sinalubong niya ang labi ko ng isang mainit na halik. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him back. Ginaya ko ang ginagawa ng mga labi niya. His tongue slid in between my lips and I accepted it boldly and with full abandon.

I moaned into his mouth as my body began to ache for him, needing him more. His hands explored my body as if he was trying to memorize every inch. Pumasok ang isang kamay niya sa loob ng suot kong pang-itaas at agad niyang ibinaba ang cup ng suot kong bra sa loob nito. He played with my breast, he caught my nipples between his fingers and fiddled with them.

My head felt dizzy and my skin tingled. Naghiwalay ang mga labi namin ng itaas niya ang suot kong pang-itaas at hinubad iyon at sinunod niya naman ang bra ko. I lifted my torso up so he could unhook my bra and then he threw it on the floor.

He bent his head down and gave my breast a feather light kiss. Without warning he took it in his mouth. He rolled his tongue over and over my nipple and gave it a few flick while his hand played with my other breast. I gasped when he suckled on it and I lactated milk from my breast, he drank from my breast and he swallowed what my body gave to him. I pushed his head away. It felt very different with Seth doing it. It felt really good but weird. My milk was just for the the baby.

"Seth!" Nanlalaki ang mga matang tinitigan ko siya.

"What?" He asked.

"Ano'ng ginagawa mo? Para yan sa baby."

"I just wanted a taste of it." He said with a playful smile on his lips. He closed his fingers around my breast, more milk spilling out of my nipple. He bent over and licked it off, I felt a tickle down my spine at what he did. "And God, it taste delicious."

"Seth!" Saway ko sa kanya.

"Okay, okay..." He sighed. "But after your through with breastfeeding him, these will be mine."

"But at least this is mine." He grinned. Ibinaba niya ang suot kong skirt kasama ang underwear ko. I felt the sudden urge to cover myself up. And I couldn't resist that urge. Tinakpan ko ang kaselanan ko gamit ang dalawang kamay ko.

My heart rate was going insane. He looked up at me, his eyes were burning with desire. I watched nervously as he bent his head down in between my legs.

He gently kissed the hands that was covering my most intimate part. I moaned as my body began to ache. It was an ache I'd never felt before.

Dahan-dahan niyang tinanggal ang mga kamay ko doon. I felt his mouth covering my womanhood. Napasinghap ako sa kakaibang sensasyon na hatid ng mainit niyang mga labi. I squirmed when his tongue tracing the line of my feminity. It sent bolts throughout my body. A moan escaped my throat when he slid his tongue in between my folds, his licks becoming more rough. 

Every movement he does made my ache stronger. My head felt dizzy and my nerves tingled everywhere. I didn't know what was going on with my body but whatever it was, it felt good. The strange sensation felt wonderful. I couldn't catch my breath as I moaned his name over and over. I felt a sudden warmth in my stomach. My heart was leaping with each passing second. My toes started to curl as the muscles in my legs clenched. I felt the warmth rushing out of me. It was so intense that it made my hips buck up. 

My body limped against the bed. My chest heaving up and down. I felt so drained. 

I closed my eyes as I tried to catch my breath.

 Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the marriage bed be undefiled, for God will judge the sexually immoral.

My mother's voice started ringing in my head.

My eyes snapped open. Seth was now kneeling in between my legs pulling down the last piece of cloth he had on.

"Seth..." Tawag ko sa kanya.

Nag-angat siya ng tingin sa akin. "Hmm?"

"We shouldn't..." I bit my bottom lip, not knowing the right words to say. "I want do this after we get wedding." I said as I closed my legs and pulling a blanket over my body.

"You're kidding, right?" He said, amused.

I shook my head. "Gusto kong maging special ang wedding night natin. Let's save it for the wedding night."

He let out an exasperated groan. 

"Really? After I just made you come? You're so unfair" He muttered breathlessly. Bumagsak siya sa tabi ko at isinubsob ang mukha niya sa leeg ko. "You're going to be the death of me, woman."