Family.

I don't know exactly how to start, my life, my path it's had a rocky part.
Maybe I should begin with my mother? Would that be satisfying?
Okay, I guess we can let's start with her and her "man friends" .

My mother I thought at the time had a good piece of mind, I thought she was a pretty good mum even when she called me "dumb".
I stayed with her for many years, counted all my fears then took it to the top grabbed my stuff and said bye to the wicked witch who I seriously wanted to call a *****!

Got myself better after a while, thought maybe I should find my father.
Never understood why he was kept away then I found out, it was her doing it's okay!
My father and I connected like two stars in the night sky, I knew instantly where I belonged right there and then.
I was welcomed by the whole of my dads family, we had a massive party just to celebrate me!

Now I'm living with my dad, don't think about my mum, don't call her that now I call her by her name Krystal don't play in her game anymore, I always felt different from her.
I found out who my real family was, the ones who cared, protected and loved me for being me.

I was never a "James" I was always a "Grant" no matter what anyone says I've found a place where I can stand.
Now I'll never get used to the massive parties on birthdays especially now I have so much family, I'll never get used to the area around me until I explore it firsthand and second degree.

But I know that in time eventually, I'll get more comfortable then I ever could be. I have plenty of cousins who never spurn me, love little Mia and Lewis they will always be my favourites, now the cousins from my mothers side can go be degenerates.

Rihanna who constantly screams at me "I WISH YOU'D LEAVE AND I CAN'T WAIT TILL YOU DIE!"
I don't care for her anymore she's not my family she's a "Duffy".

Frankie junior who I was very close to as a little girl has decided to pretend I don't exist, won't even look at me, what did I ever do to him? I try smiling at him he looks away, why did I try anyway?

Now I notice I can only count on 3 who I know will always be there for me;
My father, my step mother
And a boy I love who loves me.