BTS's POV

We all wake up terrified. As if we just experienced to worst of all scenarios, our heart breaking and shattering into pieces, thousands and thousands of shards lost forever. Jin and Namjoon jump up from their bed to barge into every single rooms to find out who's feeling like that. But when we all gather in the living room to find out that we're all fine, we realize that it's coming from Y/N.

Yoongi doesn't waste any time in trying to connect with her, but he starts freaking out when her mind is closed off, out of reach, like she's so far away. The terror that keeps seeping into the bond makes the three youngest crawl in each other's arms crying and the sight is distressing. Hoseok and Namjoon call a few numbers, until it's Eunwoo who calls back with an anxious voice like we never thought possible to hear from him.

"Eunwoo, tell me, what's happening? Where is she?" Jin asks in a panicked voice, unable to keep calm under the situation while Hoseok falls into Namjoon's arms with tears in his eyes. Yoongi is pacing around the room, fists and jaw clenched, face white as snow, eyes darting around the room. We know he's still trying to get in contact with her, trying to find her somewhere in the labyrinth of her soul.

But when he starts shaking, lips trembling as he starts sobbing, Jimin is quick to jump up on his feet and take his hyung in his arms, putting aside his own fear to take care of our soulmate. This seems to wake Taehyung and Jungkook out of their trance, they jump up too and run to the front door, putting on their shoes and opening the door, not waiting for any of us. We all hurry outside after them, because that means Taehyung used his ability to know where she is and he will stop at nothing to get to her.

The streets outside are empty, the moon high in the sky, it seems bigger than usual, as if it's trying to help us reach our destination safely. Taehyung stops in front of a door and knocks as fast and strong as possible. It opens quickly and we all run inside, stopping in front of an open door from where we can hear her.

Hear her screams and cries of agony, lost in a world from which she cannot escape. The others are crying, eyes red and lost as they watch over their dear little sister's curled up body, like she's fighting against herself.

When they turn to look at us, they clear the space around her, desperation in their eyes as they urge us to help her, begging us to get her out of the memory. We understand right away that it has never been that bad, this is a whole new level they haven't experimented yet.

We all sit around her, making sure there's space for all of us. Namjoon takes her small body in his lap and we close the circle, hiding her from view as she keeps crying and begging to let her die too.

We all break down, not able to imagine her life without her already, so to hear her asking for death in her broken voice, it destroys us all. Jin and Jimin are trying their best to give her comfort through her agony, to send her all of our love at once, to make her feel us even if just a little.

Yoongi has never cried that hard in all of his life as he keeps trying to find her, the idea of her being so far away in her own soul a notion of danger we didn't even know possible. But we can feel her pain so deep in ourselves that we know she's still there somewhere, so we cling onto her body, warming her frozen body.

And then suddenly, she just stops crying, stops screaming. Nothing anymore. And that's when we discover a whole new world of fear, because her soul feels like it's not there anymore, the space she takes in ours almost nonexistent.

Jin's hands are cupping her face, stroking her cheeks to warm her up, in the hopes to get her to open her eyes, but there's nothing. He massages between her eyebrows, temples, everything he can to ease the tension that's still there.

Taehyung freaks out, because it's like he can't find her anymore even though she's in front of him. He puts one of her hands on his cheek, eyes closed, like he's trying to concentrate on her warmth, feel her pulse in the deep of her palm.

Jungkook is trying to concentrate his healing ability to give it all to her, giving to her body all of the energy it needs to not shut down, because he feels her pulse slow down, as if it would stop beating if not for him.

Hoseok is massaging her feet, trying to help as much as possible to activate the healing properties he learned from Namjoon. He keeps weeping while doing so, but his eyes are focused on his hands, giving it his all.

Yoongi has his head on her stomach, her slow breathing the only thing allowing him to not lose himself. He sobs, arms wrapped around her waist, holding for dear life because all he feels is darkness, her whole soul dark and out of reach.

Jimin is holding her other hand, eyes closed, deep whimpers breaking out of him as he tries to send her all of him through the contact, everything that makes him Jimin, the kind and loving boy that he is so she can feel him as if he were there in person in her soul.

Namjoon's face is blank, white as snow, eyes open but not seeing anything. His hold on her is strong and unbreakable, daring anyone to try and take her away from him. His mind is searching for anything, anything that could help, his eyes opening books and going through every single pages to find a situation that could explain the situation.

Nothing else exists outside of her as we stay there, eyes watching over her for any sign of life. We don't know how long we stay like that, our bodies aching but hearts not able to part from her.

Jungkook especially, his tired state, something he usually cares about, his last priority as he keeps helping her body to function. But when he starts sweating heavily, he turns to Y/N's friends with half closed eyes.

"Anyone here a healer?" he asks in a shaky voice, everything asking him for too much energy. Eunwoo takes quick steps forward but doesn't dare to break the circle. He too looks like he'll pass out anytime, they all do, the nerves too much to handle. "Can you give me of your energy please" Jungkook almost begs, eyes focused on her frail body.

Eunwoo nods and sets both hands on the back of his neck and starts giving him as much energy as he can, his source an endless pit of energy that just waits to be transferred to help his best friend, his first family.

It goes on for hours, no one ever taking a break, until Yoongi falls asleep from exhaustion, still glued to her. Jimin is leaning on Jin's body, unable to sit straight anymore. Hoseok is bent over her legs, uncomfortable, but passed out too. Namjoon has his chin in the crook of her neck, mouth whispering words in her ears that no one else can hear. Taehyung still has her hand on his cheek, his only source of comfort, kissing her palm from time to time, eyes tearing up and sobs leaving his throat when he begs for her to wake up so he can feel her fully again in the bond.

It's a heartbreaking sight for everyone that looks at the scene, the feeling of being useless creeping into their hearts and making them feel so guilty. Instead of watching, they decide to get some food ready for Y/N's soulmates and themselves, making a drink that can give energy to Eunwoo and Jungkook especially since they're unrelenting in working on her, not daring to take a break even for a second.

Jin is trying to create a blanket of hope and resting soothing waves on the group, especially on Yoongi and Hoseok, trying to make sure they at least get some sleep. JinJin adds her favorite smell, thinking that maybe it can ease her from the depths of herself, calming the others at the same time from being surrounded by something that she loves, that screams her.

It ends up soothing them so much that Namjoon and Taehyung fall asleep too, Jin and Jimin dozing off as their waves come and go from lack of sleep. Jungkook is the only one still focused, his head starts to hurt but he couldn't care less. Eunwoo does too, but they push their hurt aside, still waiting for her body to start working by itself.

When Moonbin comes back with the drinks for the healers, Jin takes care of holding it for Jungkook while Moonbin helps Eunwoo. Rocky comes to see who would like to eat a little something and earns a small nod from Jin, Jimin and Yoongi who wakes up from the noise.

That's when Yoongi's eyes widen, straightening himself and taking her face between his hands, eyes searching for something only him can see and feel. "I can feel her again, although she's not within reach just yet" he exclaims and that wakes the ones sleeping quickly. We all start crying again when her soul is felt again within the bond, still weak, but there.

And the day keeps going, the sun now lighting the room from the window, but we stay around her. Jungkook is now passed out from overworking his body, Taehyung wrapping him in his arms so he can rest, appeased that her heart is now working again by itself.

Sanha is still at the same place since the beginning, eyes on her, face emotionless but his heart a frantic mess. He just wants to see her open her eyes again. The way he woke up this morning still echoing in his mind. So much that MJ takes his youngest soulmate away, forcing him to go through a happy memories session to make sure he doesn't create a trauma, not their baby.

Jin frowns when he touches her forehead. "It feels warmer, but too warm. Her body is trying to counter the cold but now it's doing too much". Rocky hurries out of the room to get a cold cloth, handing it to Jin so he can wipe her forming sweat from her face and neck.

Anxiety comes back through the bond when we feel her body starting to shake, her mouth shivering. And we realize, it's not over yet. Jungkook wakes up from feeling the discomfort and his eyes open wide when he sees her states.

"What happened?!" he exclaims with panic and takes her hand in his to analyze her state. He hisses, eyes betraying his thoughts. "That's not something I can help with". Since this is more in Namjoon's domain, he takes control of the situation and we follow what he says to make sure she can recover.

Y/N's family is there to help every step of the way and we work through her sweat and body warmth to stabilize her. We're so focused that we don't realize how fast time passes and soon night comes again.

But then a miracle happens.

"Wh-where... soul...mates?" we hear as a soft whisper and when we turn to look at her, eyes widened and shocked, we see her open eyes staring at the ceiling.

Hoseok hurries to kiss her cheeks as we all start crying again, happy to finally hear her voice, that she's asking for us.

"We're here, Berry, we're here" he says to her and her eyes close as tears fall down her cheeks.

"We're all here, Bun, we were so anxious" Namjoon whispers in her ear, her body still on his.

We all tighten our circle around her and shower her with soft kisses and hugs, telling her how glad we are that she's finally awake.

And when she's able to think again, MJ cries in panic and hurries into the room with wide eyes.

But it's too late. She starts screaming, images and memories flowing in again, the feelings and emotions of the fateful day.

And it's to start over, exactly the same thing, again.

Yoongi's cries of lamentation fill the air along with hers, Taehyung a sobbing mess as he plays with her hair desperately, Jimin rolling into a ball with her hand against his chest, Jungkook frozen in place, eyes glazed and lips trembling as tears fall down his cheeks, Namjoon breaks down and wails loudly, her body against his chest, Jin unresponsive and eyes fixed on her exhausted and terrified face and Hoseok wraps his arms around us, bringing everyone closer as he cries with us.

And we pray that night, we pray for her to recover, because we don't know how to get her out of this endless circle.

Nor how do we know how we'll get through it.

Me is a sobbing mess too. I need a hug...