Eiyyy sorry for the late update!!

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When Feitan was sleeping with his past, I on the other hand was blushing, feeling the grip at my back tightened, and unexpectedly when I were enjoying the scenery above York New City, I heard someone crying behind me, and for once the pain in my heart ached.

I felt really sorry for the emo boy. It looks like even the toughest criminals have the softest and the most painful memories.

Not like they're the only ones, I can tell.

Little did I know, when I get carried away with my emotions, my body tends to get sort of a reaction hormone,

and now I am in my shadow form.

Poor Feitan having trouble falling a bit  because of that, and when he release the grip, he scowled. "Are you really going to kill me that bad, Y/N?" he spoke between sobs.

"Oops."

「✨😍Timeskip By Phinks' abs😍✨」

After you and others landed to precious ground you kissed it, making Pakunoda chuckled lightly and Feitan rolled his eyes muttering the words in the lines of 'cozy' and 'brat'.

You grinned and playfully punched his arm, making him winced and glared with his cold, unwelcoming grey eyes and you laughed at his reaction, masking your sense of fear towards the teen.

"Here we are." Chrollo said as he jumped from the levitating carpet. "The Karasuma Mansion!"

You looked at his direction and saw a proper traditional Japanese house, its view made you gape with awe.

The light that was covered by the lantern emits a friendly light towards the atmosphere. The smell of strong cinnamon and carpets on the floor were milky white, lamps gently swayed side to side as Uvo stomped inside the house.

Feitan rolled his onyx eyes as he pressed his fingers on his forehead. "Uvo don't go stomping to whe-"

"I need the toilet!" he whined as he held his pants tightly. You giggled at the sight and feast your eyes to the house more, awaiting of what secrets it held in the past.
You tugged at Phinks' shirt. "Hey," you grinned from ear to ear, "Do you wanna explore the rest of the house together?"
He raised an eyebrow while maintaining his frown. "Why don't you ask the others?"
"'Cause I think they are tired." You whined and pointed at some of the members who were still snoring on the carpet, unaware of what was going on to them.

"Jetlag, I s'ppose." He shrugged it off with a hand gesture.

"Still." You have him an irresistible puppy face. "Please."

The tone of your voice has already made Phinks rolled his eyes and slowly nodded.

"Okay okay. But make it quick."

You laughed. "This is our house. There's no need to rush, remember?" And with your frail hands you took the blonde towards the house.

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"Okay, Y/N. First, have you heard something called nen?"

I frowned. "Ah, yes. My stepmom and sisters used that to toture me. Isn't that the glowy thing that appears when you focus it at your hand?" I raised my eyebrow while focusing my nen on my left hand.

Pakunoda nodded. "Yes, it is. But actually, since you've mastered focusing on your hand you can apply that to any other body parts like your leg or head."

With those past three years of training in the Karasuma Mansion to take control of my ability now Pakunoda is teaching me about nen. Finally. You have no idea how much bullshit I have to endure.

And when I mean by the term of shit of course I mean physical training, diets, and the urge to even try using nen, but NO they said so.

Like for instance, whenever Feitan caught me doing some nen work he would snatch it from my arms and made an intimidating face.

"You can't even control yourself, so why bother control something else?"

And Nobunaga.

"Now now y/n. You are a bit too young for this."

But that was a long time ago. Now I don't have to hold on anymore.
True, when I was little I called them informally, but since I went to school my formalities around the Phantom Troupe increased. They did missed my nicknames for them,

So sometimes when I am in a good vibe I just call them freely. And I still called Feitan Fei. 😏

With a shrug I punched the wall lazily, only to earn loud cracks from it, which made Phinks took a step back beside Pakunoda. At first I thought he was just taking precautions.

"Erm that," Phinks pointed out at me, "Is Ko."

"So what is that?" I asked, tilting my head sideways.

"A type of offensive move that uses 100% of your Nen from your body, which could make the rest of your body defenseless from any types of attacks that uses Nen."

"Why are you teaching me this now? Why not 3 years ago?"

"Because we're afraid that once 6 year-olds uses Nen," Uvo grabbed an apple from a tree, "They can't control it." and suppress it in his hands, making the apple turned into moulds of yellow and red. I remained silent at the rest of his statement, wordless of his fact. I have to say, it is true I almost fainted when I used my shadow powers to my step family.

I chuckled lowly, looking darkly at Phinks. "Well now I have changed, am I?"

= I recommend hearing the song while reading below=

https://youtu.be/R6WE8QjfaFg

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My first session is with Feitan. And now he is teaching me how to use the four principles.

whoa oh oh X4

"Okay y/n. First sit in front of me like this," his legs were crossed on the floor. I followed and he connects his thumb with his index finger. I copied his actions and he said calmly, "Let your mind flow, and transfer it around your body."

whoa oh oh X4

I closed my eye and clear my thoughts, but somehow the person in front of me was distracting me for some reasons. I smirked. "That's some nice grammar."

  Be careful making wishes in the dark 

Can't be sure when they've hit their mark 

"That's not enough nen there" he changed the topic quite quickly. I glared at him for doing so and concentrated more, pressing my fingers harder. In return, the nen flowing around me became lesser than before. I scowled.

And besides in the meantime I'm just dreaming of tearing you apart

"No, y/n. calm your thoughts." His eyes are still closed.

I'm in the details with the devil 

So now the world can never get me on my level 

Yes stupid y/n. There's no rush, anyways, just.. think of nature.. I imagined flowers blooming at morning's call, their leaves heavy with fresh dew and the trees sparkled from the reflection of sunlight to the dew on its leaves.

I just got to get you out of the cage

  I'm a young lovers rage

Gonna need a spark to ignite 

My songs know what you did in the dark

I opened my eyes, if I can do more than Ten..

So light em up up up

light em up up up X2

I'm on FIRE!

The aura around me intensifies. Adrenaline courses through my veins. So this is Ren. I gritted my teeth as the aura is leaking away from me fast. Feitan was shocked and stumbled backwards away from me. I looked the aura around me. It gushes out like a really big fountain, but only in a higher speed and unlike a second ago, I feel much refreshed, as if I've just took a quick shower.

I looked at Feitan, who looked back, clearly impressed at what he saw.

"You are prepared."

Ooh oh oh oh (In the dark, in the dark)
Ooh oh oh oh (In the dark, in the dark)

***
Ah the second session is with Phinks, my favourite member from the troupe. Why? Because he gives me easy training like twisting something 360 degrees with your bare hands etc.

All the writers keep writing what they write
Somewhere another pretty vein just dies

But there is something I do not expect this to happen.

Using that to a person. An innocent person. But he would say an 'innocent bystander' that witnessed us doing something bad. As far as I am concern I only attack people when they attack me first..

I've got the scars from tomorrow and I wish you could see

That you're the antidote to everything except for me

At first I tried to decline his way of teaching things (you know, like killing innocent people) but there was one time when he was giving me a murderous look that made the bile in my mouth turned bitter.

"Jeez you're nine already. Just suck it up and kill. It's not that hard, right?"

A constellation of tears on your

Once he used a middle-aged woman as a victim of my first killing. Yes, unfortunately he knows that when it comes to killing people I am a virgin.

lashes

Oh do you have any idea how hard it takes to lift your hand and grab someone's head, and mustering your strength you rotate the head upside down? I tried that on the woman Phinks kidnapped in tears,

Burn everything you love

Then burn the

And her eyes tells you everything they felt; her blue eyes did not show fear of anger but showed peace and acceptance. The way that her eyes were still opened still stained my memories.

ashes

A maniacal laugh came from behind me. When I saw Phinks I hid my tears but unfortunately he saw right through me and sighed.

"Of course, you always have a choice whether to kill your opponents or not. Like, it's your decision whether to kill or not. Today I am just showing you how to use it on innocent people like her." He shrugged it off, as if the corpse in front of me is just a normal thing in his daily life basis..

In the end everything collides

My childhood spat back the monster that you see

***

Of course, now it's been 7 years since I've done my first kill. I looked at my blood soaked hands, grinning manically.

My songs know what you did in the dark

I opened my eyes, only to reveal full pitch black ones.

So light em up up up, light em up up up,
light em up up up, I'm on fire

I rampaged through the city like a shadow chasing light. My legs halted on a particular building and I look below and saw my client. Too bad I have to kill him since he doesn't pay me very well. Oh! It looks like he came out of the hotel. I took a step from the building and jumped, never care about the fear surging through my eyes.

As my feet landed with a soft 'thud' on the ground the guards looked baffled to see me in my dark hoodie and ripped jeans. I looked at my cheating client who was looking at me wide-eyed with a cigar on his mouth and with a transparent hand I thrust it to his heart, squeezing it with all of my might. The man stayed still and collapsed on the floor, and the guards looked at me with anger.

Luckily I did not do this mission alone.

Phinks who was a guard in disguise for the whole time twisted the other guard's necks which made me grinned with delight.

So light em up up up, light em up up up,
light em up up up, I'm on fire

I raised an eyebrow. "So is this good enough?"

"Nah, you are ready to kill." He gave a thumbs up with a malicious smirk.

Ooh oh oh oh (In the dark, in the dark)
Ooh oh oh oh (In the dark, in the dark)

My third and final lesson is with Danchou-San.

My songs know what you did in the dark

"Remember Y/N. When confront with your enemies give them one of the best smiles."

I gave him a shy smile.

"Preferably with closed eyes."

And closed my eyes.

My songs know what you did in the dark

"The best time to strike your enemies is when they are at their weakest."

"You mean, when they are unable to," I beheaded the dummy in front of me, "Do anything at all?" I asked innocently.

He sighed and chuckled. "Yeah, you can say that."

So light em up up up, light em up up up,

light em up up up, I'm on fire
So light em up up up, light em up up up,
light em up up up, I'm on fire

Basically he teaches me the elementary subjects like detecting what type of harmful stuff this chicken wings have in it and of course, educational learning (maths, literature, etc).

Ooh oh oh oh (In the dark, in the dark)

I looked at the hair pin Machi chose for me with relief.

Since Danchou-San insisted someone to buy an accessory to fit for my prom outfit almost everyone bought one for me with their own money. And I have to say, although the Troupe seems to be a very strong group they sure have the worst sense of fashion.

Well, at least Pakunoda-san chose the perfect prom dress for me.

Like for instance, this is what Uvo-Chan gave me. That made me wondering, was he an emo back then?

If you think Shalnark's any better than you are dead wrong..

I have no idea how the hell Phinks think that the glasses below looks 'normal' and 'sensible'.

At the end of the day, I gritted my teeth in desperation. If I wear any of these in my next mission I would most likely be fed to sharks right now.

Ooh oh oh oh (In the dark, in the dark)
Ooh oh oh

And worst of all, this is what Nobunaga chose to fit with my outfit.

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I think I am Phinks biased..