Kim Taehyung POV

Now almost all of them know. I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling. Every time. Every time this happened, I always asked myself why did this happened to me? Why did this cancer come again?

Why did I need to hurt them every time? Why? I can't do anything. I feel so helpless.

I look at both members that are crying in front of me. They are crying because of me. When I'm about to say something, suddenly my head was consumed by the pain that is so familiar. Is this the sign my body can't hold it anymore? Should I just give up?

"Hyung... I'm so sorry." I said for the last time before I passed out. The last thing I heard is my name being called.

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Jeon Jungkook pov

"Taetae hyung? Wake up! Please. Jin Hyung do something!" I said with a panic voice while shaking Taetae hyung's body. He need to wake up.

When he said that the... Cancer come back, I just too shock. This is not supposed to happen. Its should be a happy story for all the members.

"Namjoon!" Jin hyung shout calling Namjoon hyung. From what I see only Namjoon hyung that know about this. Since when?

With the loud shout, of course, not just Namjoon hyung but the rest of the members come to us. All of them, just stand there look at us with a shock with a clueless face. Except for Joon hyung.

"What happened to him? Call ambulance!" Joon hyung said and check on Tae hyung. He look panic just like me and Jin hyung. The other members look confuse as why we are too panic.

"I will call the ambulance. All of you get ready!" Jin hyung said and take out his phone. He look so serious that all members start to move. At this point, I still stay beside Tae-hyung. I don't want to leave him. What if anything happened when I leave him.

"Hyung, why is he like this? What if anything happened to him? I will not live through that, hyung." I said through my sobs. Even in that chaotic situation, Namjoon hyung look at me and hold my shoulder.

"He will be fine. Remember that, Jungkook."

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While waiting for Tae-hyung outside of the emergency room, we are left in silent. Not even one voice or sound. Except for my sobs.

"Since when you know, Namjoon-ah?" Jin hyung suddenly asked. That break the silent and all the members were focus on both of them. Me knowing what exactly Jin hyung said just look at Namjoon hyung for the answer.

I need to know since when He know about it.

"Since the night where we discussed with Tae and Hoseok assumed he wanted a revenge. After you guys leave I went to his room. Since that." He said looking at his own hand. He look so guilty to keep the secret from us.

"Why don't you tell us?! We deserve to know!" Jin hyung suddenly shout and that make all of us shock. But, I agree with what he said. I mean, we are his members we deserve to know about his health.

"You don't have the right to be mad at me. Tae also take time to tell me. Also, He don't want me to tell any of you!" Namjoon hyung said frustratedly. One line catch my attention though.

"H-hyung, what do you mean by he also t-take time to tell you? S-since when he know about it?" I said still sobbing. But I'm getting calmer now. Crying will not help anyone.

"I don't know. He don't tell me. But I think he know since he start ignoring us. He said he did it because he want us to hate him. He... He said if we hate him, we will not be hurt when he..." He stop there. Tears already flowing on his cheeks.

"It must be hard for him. He suffer alone. I even ignore him, hyung. W-what should I do?" I said and covered my face with my own hands.

My tears keep flowing represent my regrets. I regret everything. I should not ignore him when he talk to me. I should not leave him. I should go to him. He suffer from all of this alone because of us.

He think about us, even when it's about his life.

"Hold up. Can some someone explain what happened? Is he okay? Why are you guys so panic?" From the voice I can tell its Jimin hyung. He sound curious and worried at the same time. I look at them one by one.

From their face I can already see, they can guess it. I mean, yoongi hyung look like he was about to cry. His eyes already red. Hoseok just look at us with a shock face.

"His c-cancer come back." Namjoon hyung said without looking at them. That enough to confirm what they thought.

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Note

Sorry if this update is not good. I just can't think straight cause tomorrow I will get my exam result. Chemist, languages, math and physic result more specifically.😿

Sorry again. And my work still not done. So I did this in rush.

👆this is my condition right now😂 a mess.

I also need to meet dentist tomorrow😒 tomorrow will be a busy day. Wish me luck!

Stay positive, stay happy and please stay happy!!!

Thank you for reading!