I was 1st college when i have boyfriends , yes! BOYFRIENDS. Halos lahat ng lalaki na dumating sa buhay ko ay ginawa ko lng "Laro". Takot. Isang dahilan kung bakit ginawa ko silang Laro, takot kac iniisip ko na ako ang mahuhuling hulaan pagbinigay ko ang buong pagmamahal ko. Then isang araw, binago nya lahat. Binago nya kung pano ko itrato ang kapwa nya lalaki, binago nya ang takot ko sa saya . In short binago nya ako. Ang buong pagkatao ko

1year and 4 months rin syang nanligaw. Mga jokes nya na nakapagpapatawa sa akin, mga kaliti namin, mga tawanan at mga panahon na kasama sya. I said to myself that, I think he is the one for me, and 2 weeks later I answer him with my Big YES! Tawa ako ng tawa dahil umiyak sya sa harapan ko. Na parang ako na ang mundo nya. Binuhat nya ako na sabi nya "GIRLFRIEND KO TOH! habang kiniss ang noo. I was really happy that time, 3, 4 years ay naging kami. Ang tagal noh?

Then one day , isang kaibigan nya ang lumapit sa akin, sabi nya, HINDI MO PA BA NABABALITAAN? that time wala akobg kaalam alam na , pinakita nya yung pictures. Pictures nang boyfriend ko habang may ibang kasamang babae. Ang sabi nya, Nagaalala ako lng ako sayo, they've living for 5 years and counting. I'm sorry. Tapos bigla syang umalis. Wala akobg ginawa magdamag kundi umiyak. Umiyak dahil anong kasalanan ang nagawa ko para mangyari to sa akin. 4 weeks, 5 weeks hanggang sa maging 7 months walang paramdam ng boyfriend ko . I'm really having a hard time when ever i think of him. May, 17, **** he comeback to me. He say, I'm sorry , i was just busy in my work baby, please? I'm really sorry, that day i have no feelings even he cry infront of me. Mas pinili ko parin na bigyan sya ng kapatawaran because why? I LOVE HIM na kahit maging tanga na ako ay gagawin ko lahat para lngmagstay sya sa akin

Lately his been cold towards to me, i ask him why? Stress ka ba? Masama ba pakiramdam mo? Pero biglang tumulo ang luha ko sa kanya sagot. Sagot na hindi ko inaasahan na marinig sa mula sa kanya." Ayaw ko na" ang sabi nya. Umiyak ako , iyak ng iyak, then i meet his eyes, his eyes that was full of loved before but now? Full of coldness, full of angry. Nagmakaawa ako na wag nya akong iwanan dahil mahal na mahal ko sya. Pero hindi, Sumigaw sya , BAKIT? NUNG NAGGANYAN BA ANG KAPATID KO SAYO? ANONG GINAWA MO? INIWAN MO RIN SYANG LUHAAN! NANG DAHIL SAYO! NAMATAY SYA! NG DAHIL SA UGALI MO! LAHAT NG GINAWA MO! then umiiyak na sya. Whos that guy? I ask my self. Then i just feel myself going back from the past i did to my boyfriends. And one boy came in my mind, Vince, vince was the guy who will do everything to get me. He courted me and i say yes, i've been with other guy too when i was with him. And i lately been cold and say i dont this kind of relationship. And as far i know that was the last one i see him. I really cried hard when i remember him, and now i know why the GUY that i LOVE most was angry." I'm really sorry". That i say to him, i'm sorry for all my mistakes for what i did to him. My Own Pain that i never wish for to happen, happen in my life.