I'm the one with the ghosts in my bed, but they

Only come alive at night

You left Ponyboy because he was way too pushy and you just couldn't make time for each other.

Stuck in my sheets an accustomed coffin,

I swear that I'll be fine I'll be fine in the

daylight.

He doesn't think about letting you go or the thought of you gone when he's awake. He pretends he doesn't care about you, but deep down, he'll always care about you.

If I change, I'll start to fade

If he was someone else, he would lose his sanity. He doesn't want to change and he can't.
That's just not him. He can't pretend to think things that he knows aren't true and he won't pretend to just to lose himself completely.

And all the green in my eyes desaturate.

Sodapop was the first to notice a change. He remembered how his face looked so gaunt. He had dark circles under his eyes and his eyes were dark. They didn't have the same vibrant
green glow to them.

I'm sorry I keep pushing you away

Ever since Johnny and Dallas died, he's been really distant and didn't talk much. You tried calling him and saying anything to help him but it didn't work. He didn't want anyone.

Using words as a comfort you said, "I don't

Wanna fight

Every time you tried to help him with school work and Darry yelling and his friends dying, you sit him down and try not to pick a fight but just help him. That didn't work he was just too damn depressed!

They sank into my skin, pushing you out just

To make their way in

"Ponyboy, I'm just trying to help."

"No, Y/N you can't help me you don't understand! I don't need you to help me! God, you're so annoying!"

"Fine! I'll just leave then!"

Why can't you stay?

He goes to sleep at night and the last things you said to each other ran through his mind.

I'm up against these things I can't see

The voices in his head and the demons he's grown so attached to have been his only friends.

Make me believe

He wanted you to know that he loved you. He wanted you to come back and fight off those invisible monsters.