I was scared to death I was losing my mind

Ever since all of these deaths, I haven't been the same. I haven't been eating, sleeping, doing work and being lazy. I kept telling myself that it was me who killed Bob, not Johnny. I knew it wasn't true.

I think I found the light at the end of the tunnel

Things are looking up. I'm finally getting my life back together. I have brought up my grades, started eating again. I started sleeping too. I even made the track team.

I couldn't find the truth I was going under

I finally came to terms that it was Johnny who killed Bob. Not me. I just wish none of this happened. Not to mention, it was my bright idea to go into the church. Hell, if I didn't go in, my 2 friends would still be alive.

But I won't hide inside I gotta get out, gotta get out

After years of being trapped in my own mind, I realized something. I can either let this eat me alive, or I can accept it and move on. I chose the latter.

Lonely inside, and light the fuse, light it now, light it now

I'm gonna ignite the spark in me and come alive. I felt like I had been dead for so long. It was finally time for me to find myself again.

And now I will start living today, today

It's time for me to start being me again. I'm gonna choose to be happy. It feels like I'm finally reuniting  my long lost friend.

I got this new beginning and I, I'll fly, I'll fly like a cannonball

After this shell that held me down for 6 months, it was time for me to break it.
All of those times those voices in my head tormented me, I'm finally broken free. I finally stopped listenting. Everytime I hear them, I say, "No! You're wrong!" Or, "No, I didn't kill them." Now I smile like I used to.

Freedom, I  let go of fear and peace came quickly

I liked how I saw the world now.  I no longer hid from the metaphorical shadows deep down in my head. It was like my hope was a sword. Tearing through the veil of the madness.

I was in the dark and then it hit me, I chose suffering and pain

I chose to let it drag me down by the ankle and then break every rib in my body. When everyone of those monsters told me to die or I'm worthless, or it's my fault, I listened. But one thing's changed.

That was then, this is now.

A/N: I loved that book btw.