My soul my body it's in a strange down struck pain. It hurts and it feels as if life is leaving my body, why? No-I know why. I am walking around endlessly in the hallways of my glorious home and yet my duty as a wife feels shattered and-I should speak to my sister's,but am not ready. Am not ready. Maybe what Terry said was a lie? Or maybe what he said was true,but maybe he would find me and say change of plans there is no need for a new wife, because all he needs is me. Such a unfaithful thoughts for a wife to have.

I don't have a doctor's appointment today,but I most see my doctor. Behind the glorious house garden hidden by all of the large cipres trees was a small house. The house was neither to big or to small it was the perfect size to escape a wife's duty's and yes my doctor lives here and his my father.

Before I can even reach the door handle the door it's open standing on the other side of the door was a man who had a kind small smile on his face. My father most have seen me through one of the windows or maybe he did feel my coming. I think my father most have sense something wrong for he did not greet me he's kind smile turn into a sad smile and he lifted he's arms out to me. I couldn't hold back my tear's I let the tear's fall down as I ran to he's embrace.

Doctor Thomas Torres is my father and once my father was not just my doctor,but the doctor to many other women who's husband at the time fought to have him as their wife's doctor,but the scandal thank the gods that it wasn't a harmful scandal....but to the eye's of many my father was a shame for the scandal was a legal matter.

When father married mother I suppose was a time that they were both once happy. Mother gave birth to my eldest brother Lucas and not to long I was born. I don't have a good memory of what had happened,but once I was born father instead on no longer having any more children's. This of course mother was against,she believed that it was her duty as a wife to bare many children's to my father. Mother's thought that maybe father had no interest in having more children's with her that he was tierd of her and mother decided to bring another wife to my father. This is were everything begun to go wrong. My father was one of the first men to bealive that a man should have one wife and one wife only and bare not a legacy in having many children's to carry on his name.

Why was he not trying to bare so many children's well he is a doctor and his studies in medicine keep him away from his duties as a man and mother I suppose hated father for that.

" If only your father payed more attention to his duties then to his studies then I would still be head wife" , are the words she would tell me. She is now married to a Duke and is not a head wife,but the fifth wife of  this Duke and has given him son's and daughters.

Deep down I know why she said those words she loved my father and wanted to be his wife only,but she believed in the duties of the law and of a wife that she chose to leave him.

Now father is know as the, "Dead Breeds", those who carry the name Dead Breeds are given this name for someone who will not follow the laws and chose to not have wife's or children's, to the eyes of many their bloodline is dead. By law these Dead Breeds are stripped from their privilege and are treated as if they were the low class and people out side of the wall.

I was never close to my mother or brother that I begged Terry to help my father am sure Terry would of objected to my request,but the day I ran to Terry to help my father was also the day that an old wound was healed.

Thanks to Terry father lives in this small home behind the home that I cherish and is of course my doctor.

" I see, you should have spoke out what you felt my dear child" ,spoke father as he injected a needle in my arm to take blood out of me.

I look away when I see my blood traveling from the needle to a tube and into some hospital bags made me want to release last night's meal!When father is not being my doctor he stays in his small office researching medicine. Since the war it is said medical research has been lost and many have to start over again studying medicine and the human body.

"Father please, try to understand it is not my place to speak"

"Nonsense! I gave your mother the right to speak and allowed her to speak up her wind when she was troubled"

" And the results were not rewarding, father"

Father looks away letting out a tierd sigh. I let out a frustrated sigh this is not how I want to behave with my father. I know I have Terry and the other girls,but my father is family. My older brother won't speak to me sense he feels his above me only because he was born a man and my mother- I love my mother,but she's always lecturing on how I should be as a wife. Feels as if she's more of a teacher then a mother. With my father I can be different be myself.

"I know your mother and I never saw eye to eye,but I had full respect for and it was that respect that I and for her allowed me to let her be her own person"

Respect, respect is to show gratitude to someone that you feel a huge weight of admiration towards and in turn they will respond to it, I just feel that father ways are not the right way of showing it.

"Forgive me father I did not mean to speak such words"

"We may see things differently, but I feel a man should let a women speak what she truly wants and that a man should respect the words that are spoken. I understand you have a world over your shoulder one that I don't fit in,but try to understand that this is the life you wanted, yet it could be different"

Is this the life I wanted? When I was six I was send to the academy and I had visits from my father more often then my own mother. When ever she did visit it was to make sure I was following the rules and if didn't know them she would make sure I knew the laws and duties of a wife till I knew them by heart. I was told and send to be wife and I accepted it-is this what I want? Yes am sure this is what I want I love Terry and nothing will make me more happy then to have him pleased.

"Father this is the life I wanted and for that I should embrace this and continue to live in my duties as a wife", I said with a small smile.

My father's eye's...his struggling to not cry as if afraid to fall apart in front of me, if so why? He reaches out and holds my had looking at my small fingers as if trying to figure out why the small infant hands that he wants knew had to grow?Am not a infant,but am still me.

"Your still so young" are the words that he chose to speak.

"And it is my duty as a wife to accept my husband's wishes for in the end it will be what's right for everyone"

That night I had gathered all of my sister's in Daisy's room and told them that tomorrow we will be having another sister. To my surprised none seemed to be troubled by the fact that Terry will be bringing in a new wife except dear Daisy. She commented that she hopes he won't be to distracted by this new bride, because she and the baby will be needing him  and I completely agreed and will make sure to note that to Terry. Emily  made it clear that all she wants is children's in her life that Terry can have as many wife's and children's as he wants so long as she has five of her own. Edora seems quite trilled to have a new sister coming to live with us a new friend made her happy. As for Marian she hope the wedding won't be at the time of her morning walks that's her alone time before she has to watch over her children's.

This is the night that Terry will share my room with me every week Terry shares a room with one of us as his duty as a husband and I feel a trilled of excited. Sure we might try to have a child tonight,but all I want is to fall asleep next to the man I love.

  As I walk closer to the door to my room I can smell the sweet,but strong colon that Terry wears and I feel the butterflies in my stomach and my cheeks warming up in delight. Yet as I enter the room with a smile in my face I find the room to be empty. I know none is here,but I couldn't help,but to call out Terry's name even though I know there will be no response.

I let out a unhappy sigh and slowly walk to the edge of my bed. Today was my day, my day to have my husband by my side-my day! My day.....oh Terry will you ever truly be only mine.

I then noticed from the corner of my eye's a small envelope. All my thoughts vanished into tin air as I quickly open the envelope and yes in there was a message from Terry.

"My dearest Bell am sorry for not being here tonight. I know it is my duty as your husband to be here,but I have to make arrangements and preparations for tomorrow's wedding. Please don't wait up for me.
Love your devoted husband Terry"

The note slipped out of my fingers as I sat on the end of the bed. That's right a new wife tomorrow....today is not about me it's about this mystery women who will soon be a wife to my husband. Father...what is respect and why is it now I want it from my husband?