🔞🔞🔞 I don't know if I did well on this. hehe. anyway. 

Third Person POV

Hua Cheng's day, as he told Xie Lian, wasn't the best. But coming home to his bambi wearing his shirt that barely covered his ass, exposing his thick and soft thighs, and with his collar bones exposed for him, washed away a day's worth of exhaustion and anger. 

But now, all his energy would be redirected to this poor man. Hua Cheng knew how much self-control he had for Xie Lian. It was tested and proven time and again. But a lion wouldn't say no to the meat presented to him. Hua Cheng would take what was offered to him. 

Xie Lian offered himself. Who was he to say no?

He gently threw Xie Lian on the bed. His man looked so fuckable with his cheeks and neck so red. "Are you sure, gege? I don't know how I can stop midway." 

It wasn't a warning. It was a promise. 

His cock was painfully hard inside his pants.

"San Lang, I'm sure." Xie Lian extended his hand to Hua Cheng. He badly wanted this. He wanted nothing more that time than be one with Hua Cheng. He was going crazy if Hua Cheng wouldn't fuck him that night. 

Xie Lian was desperate. 

"Fuck it." Hua Cheng took off his own shirt and joined Xie Lian on the bed where he hurriedly captured the other's plump lips. He was greedily and aggressively sucking his lips. It was soft and plush against his. His. 

Mine. Mine. Hua Cheng kept chanting in his head. 

Hua Cheng's hand traveled from Xie Lian's thigh to his side to his chest and pinched his nipples. This caused Xie Lian to arch his back and release a moan. Fuck. Fuck. Hua Cheng couldn't help but groan through the kiss. 

Pleasing Xie Lian in this way, in whatever way, was a dream come true. If it were a dream indeed, he wished to never wake up. 

Xie Lian's mind was in haze. Hua Cheng's warm touches were pushing him to his limits. They barely started but he could feel his cock leaking. It was embarrassing but he was badly craving it. 

Then, Hua Cheng suddenly pulled away. But before that could even register in Xie Lian's mind, he heard the fabric being ripped and he suddenly felt cold. "San Lang!"

Hua Cheng just smirked, enjoying the look on Xie Lian's face. "What?" He moved his gaze down to Xie Lian's body, his hands tracing Xie Lian's sides. "Mine. Tell me you're mine."

"San Laaang~" Xie Lian whined, feeling self-conscious under Hua Cheng's heavy gaze. He dared not to look at his own body. 

"Say you're mine." His two fingers found Xie Lian's nipple again and twisted it gently. His heart was soaring at the sight of his naked boyfriend, naked for his taking. His to claim. His to devour. No matter how much he was trying to temper his urge, he couldn't.

He trusts me so much. He could see his Xie Lian's cock red with a tip leaking with pre-cum. It's so cute! Not the size but yes, Hua Cheng found him cute. 

Xie Lian was cute and beautiful. Damn, if he had all the time, he'd cry first.

But he knew that at that moment, they needed this. 

"Yours! You know I'm yours," Xie Lian whimpered. "I'm San Lang's." Xie Lian could feel his blood rushing to his face. It was making him conscious. Hua Cheng was making him conscious of his body, of everything. 

He cupped Xie Lian's cheek. "Aren't you so good for me?" 

Xie Lian nodded. Despite being conscious, he was happy that Hua Cheng found him good, found him enough. That Hua Cheng wanted him as much as he wanted the younger. 

Hua Cheng kissed him again and allowed his hands to touch Xie Lian everywhere, literally everywhere all the while Xie Lian was gripping his shoulders. His little bunny was still hesitant, didn't know what to do, huh? Yet he dared to seduce him. 

He licked Xie Lian's jaw down to his neck, lapping the skin, marking him as his. He even took a part of Xie Lian's skin between his teeth and gently nibbled it. He didn't care how much Bai Wuxiang tried to mark Xie Lian. 

That man never really got Xie Lian. He was Hua Cheng's. He was meant to be his after all this time. 

"Mine," he couldn't help but say. 

"San Lang~ Mhhmmn~" 

Hua Cheng continued biting and sucking Xie Lian's neck. It would look beautiful later. He was sure of that. Xie Lian smelled like he had just got out of the shower - fresh and floral. His kisses traveled down until he reached his chest. 

Giving Xie Lian's perky nipple a lick, Hua Cheng glanced up to see his gege's pleasure-stricken face. He looked so beautiful and Hua Cheng couldn't help but feel proud of himself. He did that. He caused that. Xie Lian liked what he was doing. 

Xie Lian couldn't help to moan more. San Lang's tongue was circling his nipple and sometimes he allowed his teeth to occasionally graze it. He couldn't help but writhe in pleasure as Hua Cheng pinched his other nipple, and then, alternated from each to another. 

His man knew how to pleasure him. In all ways. 

"San Lang, please." Xie Lian bucked his hips. Despite the pleasure and overwhelming sensation, he was seeking more. His cock was asking for attention and Hua Cheng had not touched him down there yet. It was a little bit frustrating if Xie Lian may add. 

"What is it, gege?"

"San Lang~" he keened. 

"What?" Hua Cheng smirked. 

He was smirking! It annoyed Xie Lian more. "Please!" He glared at him a little, not really sure if it came across as a glare. 

"Please what, gege? This lowly one wants to know how to better serve you." He went back to sucking his nipple. 

"San Lang, touch me! Touch me more!" He wanted to cry. 

"I am touching you," was his playful response. 

"San Lang!"

Sensing more of Xie Lian's frustration, Hua Cheng relented and huffed amusedly. Without further ado, he peppered butterfly kisses down to Xie Lian's stomach until he reached his cock. 

Fuck. Hua Cheng thought. 

"S-San Lang?" Xie Lian could feel Hua Cheng's warm breath on his inner thigh. 

"Gege, may I?" When Hua Cheng saw Xie Lian nod, he reached for his calves and spread apart his leg. 

Xie Lian had to hide his face from San Lang. He didn't know what to do! And why was San Lang asking him if he may!?

He, then, felt something warm, wet, and soft wrapping around his manhood taking him in fully. Instead of having his hands on his face, they flew to grip Hua Cheng's hair. "San Lang!" he gasped.

"Hmm?" San Lang hummed while his head moved as he pulled. 

"San Lang!" 

Hua Cheng continued sucking Xie Lian. His hands held tightly the back of Xie Lian's thigh. His nails dug into the soft flesh. He closed his eyes as he picked up his pace. Push and pull he did, making sure to move his tongue and tease him as much as he could.

Xie Lian's moans were music to Hua Cheng's ears and he'd never allow anyone to hear those. His gege's moans were for him alone and no one should hear how sweet Xie Lian could be in bed. His. His. His. He shouldn't be this greedy. But he couldn't stop himself. 

When he felt Xie Lian's body become taut, he knew he had to pull away. It wasn't because he didn't want to swallow Xie Lian's cum. Far from that. He'd take everything Xie Lian had to offer. He'd take them all. 

But he didn't want Xie Lian to come yet. There was that. It wasn't too bad to want his boyfriend to come from his cock for their first time, right?

So, he moved his head away and without warning, buried his face on Xie Lian's ass as he hungrily lick his waiting hole. It was pink and lovely, looking very tight. Like the thirsty man that he was, pushed to the edge by want since earlier, Hua Cheng ate Xie Lian despite the latter pushing his head away, complaining that it wasn't necessary and it was dirty. 

Nothing was dirty. Not if it was Xie Lian. 

Overcame with pleasure, Xie Lian weaved his fingers on Hua Cheng's locks and pushed his ass more. Shameless! Too shameless! But he was losing it. 

"Ahhhh~ San Lang, please..."

Hua Cheng continued lapping Xie Lian's rim, prodding it with his tongue, pushing his tongue, and trying to get more. 

He wanted to prepare Xie Lian. He wanted to be the best for Xie Lian. 

"San Lang, more please..." He wanted more! Hua Cheng couldn't understand. Xie Lian wanted him to fuck him already. It was getting too much! Hua Cheng was teasing him too much. "Please!" 

He pushed Hua Cheng's face away and he saw how wet his chin was. Hua Cheng licked his lips as if he had just eaten the most scrumptious meal. 

Xie Lian's eyes were glazed from lust. 

When had Xie Lian been so frustrated? "Lube," Hua Cheng said. 

Xie Lian quickly reached out under his pillow and handed it to Hua Cheng. "Please, San Lang, please."

"Gege, how could I say no when you're asking nicely." Hua Cheng bit Xie Lian's inner thigh as he took the lube from Xie Lian's hand. 

He poured generously on his fingers and spread it to the already waiting hole. Fuck. This is it. He tried to insert one finger first and he felt Xie Lian's small body shiver. 

"Oh!" 

"Is it painful?"

"No." Xie Lian shook his head. "No, it's okay." 

Getting it used to his finger, Hua Cheng rhythmically pulled and pushed his finger as he hovered over Xie Lian to kiss him more. As he captured the other's lips, he added again another finger. It was too warm and tight inside and he might just come from imagining himself fucking Xie Lian's tight hole. 

But he had to hold it in. How embarrassing if he would come right away, right? Xie Lian had been doing good holding everything in. 

He added another finger again. Xie Lian even spread his legs more. 

What a willing prey for me. I fucking love him. Hua Cheng thought. 

He pulled away from the kiss and licked a strip on Xie Lian's jaw. 

"Put it in, San Lang," Xie Lian said hoarsely. "Put it in, please. Please!"

Xie Lian tried to move to push Hua Cheng's pants off. Why was he still wearing his pants? He needed him. He needed to feel his body's heat. 

Hua Cheng tilted his head to the side and dipped it. He had an annoying smile etched on his face. "Yes, your highness."

Hua Cheng pulled away and damn, it was only then that Xie Lian had a clear view of Hua Cheng's body this night. He wanted to pull Hua Cheng and feel those hard muscles, all of his rough edges and soft parts. Xie Lian had an idea of how his body felt like but nothing would amount to such intimacy as this. 

His man took off his pants and was now in his naked glory. Xie Lian's eyes almost popped out of his sockets. 

It wouldn't fit! I'm sure it wouldn't fit! Hua Cheng's cock was big big! It was thick, long, big, angry, and red. 

Hua Cheng poured some lube on his cock and stroked it. 

Xie Lian swallowed thickly. But he wanted this. He badly wanted this, he reminded himself. So, he opened his arms to his San Lang and spoke, "Take me, San Lang-gege."

And immediately, he saw how Hua Cheng's eyes darkened. "Fuck. You really know how to get me. You know how to drive me crazy." He hovered over him again, propping his arms on both sides of his head, caging him, looming over him. "Say it again." 

Hua Cheng's lower body pushed against his and he felt both their hard cocks brush against each other. Xie Lian's hands gripped Hua Cheng's muscular arms. "San Lang-gege, please take me," he said almost in a whisper. 

Hua Cheng captured his lips again as he positioned the tip of his cock on his entrance. Xie Lian could feel it. He was huge. There was an urge to pull away but who was he to do so? He was far too gone to pull away from this man. 

"Gege, I'm going to..." Hua Cheng almost felt sorry when Xie Lian's face crumpled a little from the pain as he pushed his cock slowly. Both of them stopped breathing and he himself could feel that he might be shaking too. 

But he recovered quickly because he had to. 

Xie Lian was so tight and it must be hurting. Really. So when some tears escaped Xie Lian's eyes when he was already fully sheathed inside him, Hua Cheng licked those tears away and whisper sweet nothings to him. "Good." Kiss. "So good for this San Lang."

"Does it still hurt, gege?"

"A little," was Xie Lian's breathless answer. "But move now, please."

"What a good boy." Hua Cheng kissed his nose as he rocked his hips slowly. "So tight and so good for this San Lang." He kissed Xie Lian's cheek while Xie Lian was still gripping his arms. "I love you so much, baby."

"Hmm~ I love you, San Lang." 

Hua Cheng kept thrusting until he felt Xie Lian relax more and even wrapped his legs around his waist. 

His man was starting to moan from his thrusts. 

"Ahh~ San Lang~ more." 

Hua Cheng snaked his arm under Xie Lian's pliant body and pulled him closer to him. Their sweaty chests rubbed against each other and he could feel Xie Lian's cock on his lower belly. It was driving him insane. 

He kissed Xie Lian's lips and bit his lower lip hard when Xie Lian moaned loudly. Hua Cheng couldn't help it.

His other hand gripped Xie Lian's waist and he was sure it would leave a mark. It was just Xie Lian's body was so soft in contrast to his. His hand traveled further to Xie Lian's ass and grasped it. 

Too full! His hand was too full of his flesh. It was too soft too! He could stop himself from squeezing it hard and pounding into Xie Lian faster. 

Xie Lian, getting lost and braver, allowed his hands to travel on Hua Cheng's body, feeling the muscles under his palm. 

Hua Cheng was his as much as he was his. 

Every bit of Hua Cheng was his. He was a generous person and not someone who wanted to keep things to his own. He seemed selfless, and to some extent, he was. But this was the only thing, the only person, he couldn't share. 

Hua Cheng was his. He circled his arms on San Lang's neck and pulled him closer as if they weren't close enough, as if Hua Cheng wasn't inside him, as if they weren't one already. He wanted to crawl to San Lang's skin, be one with him, be with him all the time where he felt loved, cared for, and protected. 

Xie Lian cried loudly when Hua Cheng hit something, something inside of him. It sent his all his nerves into a frenzy, and he wanted more. 

"Gotcha," Hua Cheng whispered and kissed him back again. 

He kept pounding inside him. Xie Lian loved every bit of it. Hua Cheng was really taking him, staking his claim, marking him everywhere. 

Before he knew it, Xie Lian's body shook as warm liquid pooled on his stomach. He just came and he couldn't even hold it in or wait for Hua Cheng to come too. 

He was already on edge when Hua Cheng blew him earlier. So, it was probably fair, right? He blushed. "Sorry, San Lang," he said in a small voice, more like a whimper, because Hua Cheng was not halting his thrusts. 

"It's okay, baby," Hua Cheng kissed his cheek. "It's okay. I'm almost there."

"I-I'm- It's too much~" Xie Lian scratched Hua Cheng's back. He was overly stimulated. He just came but Hua Cheng continued pounding on his prostate.

"Shh~ just a little more, baby." Hua Cheng kissed his ear and embraced him tighter. "Just a little more." His rhythm got more frantic.

Xie Lian's toes curl too as he felt Hua Cheng cum inside him. Warm. Mine. It's warm inside me. He thought. 

Then, Hua Cheng slumped on top of him, Xie Lian could feel his weight but he wasn't that heavy as Hua Cheng shifted a little to the side. 

Both were catching their breaths. 

Xie Lian's heart was somersaulting. This was everything he wanted and more. 

The taller man hid his face against his neck and was acting shy all of a sudden as if he didn't fuck him just now. 

"Gege, is it- are you-?"

Xie Lian chuckled weakly. "I love every second of it."

Hua Cheng pulled away and gave him a large grin. "Shall we do it again?" 

"San Lang!" He laughed. "Have mercy. I have not developed such stamina." He felt like he was ripped apart down there.

Hua Cheng rolled to his back and pulled him close and his head rest on his chest. "I love it so much, gege. I love you so much." His finger was softly tracing his upper arm. "I want to do it more. I want to fuck you more. I want to make love to you."

"You can. We can do those."

Hua Cheng pulled him closer, but gently. "I want more. It's scary. I thought taking you is enough. I want more, gege." Hua Cheng was staring at the ceiling. His cheek, from Xie Lian's point of view, was dusted pink. 

At that moment, they were still sticky and sweaty.

But he didn't mind. Those were the least of his concerns because his heart was about to burst out of his chest. 

His San Lang was so sweet to him. 

"I want more, gege. I want to bend you and fuck you. I want you to ride me. I want to take you in every corner of my room. I want to hide you here forever too."

"San Lang is feeling too much right now," he said. 

He saw the younger nod. "I'm just so happy. My heart..." Hua Cheng placed his hand on his own chest. "My heart is full." Then a pair of mismatched but sincere eyes looked at him. "Thank you, gege. For trusting me and loving me."

Xie Lian smiled softly and craned his neck to kiss Hua Cheng's lips. "San Lang is good to me."

"I am, am I not?" There went his cheeky San Lang again. "Ha! You're mine. But gege needs to rest so maybe, we can do it again after three days? Would that be enough rest?"

"San Lang!" Xie Lian blushed. We can do it tomorrow. 

"Hmm, I don't want it to hurt you. How about you let me suck you instead?"

San Lang's thoughts and mouth were running wild. Xie Lian just smiled. "Whatever you want."

"En!" Hua Cheng nodded. "But first, let's clean you up. I-I'll go and prepare a warm bath for us. Then, I'll change the duvet. Then, you can rest." 

Before Xie Lian could protest, Hua Cheng was already on his feet, rummaging around, running like a madman inside their room. Xie Lian was so endeared.

He let his hand travel to his hole, just to touch it. It was tender and wet and oozing with Hua Cheng's cum.

He sighed. I want to do this often too, San Lang.

When Hua Cheng came into view, much to Xie Lian's dismay, he was already wearing a red robe. His chest was unblemished and white. It was disappointing that he missed his chance to put some hickeys on Hua Cheng. 

A couple of hickeys wouldn't have hurt. 

"I shall carry gege to the tub."

"No need, San Lang." 

"Please, gege. Let this San Lang take care of you."

He couldn't say no. So he made grabby hands toward Hua Cheng. "Okay, San Lang-gege," he teased. 

"Gege!" Hua Cheng looked surprised. "Don't call me that if you don't want me to take you again right now."

"Hey!" Xie Lian laughed.

Hua Cheng just smiled carefreely and picked him up like he weighed nothing. "Gege, have I told you I love you?" 

Xie Lian was gently placed in the tub. "Yeah."

Then Hua Cheng took off his own robe and joined him. His boyfriend sat behind him and allowed him to rest his back on his chest. "Hmm, good. Don't forget that."

Xie Lian nodded. "Of course, San Lang. I won't forget."

"Do you trust me, gege?" Hua Cheng's voice was too gentle and meek. 

"Yes, I trust San Lang more than anyone in this world." Xie Lian beamed while playing with the bubbles. 

"Good. I will protect gege from anyone." 

Well, that made Xie Lian tense a bit.  And I need to protect you from him. "And I will protect San Lang too."

"Gege," San Lang petulantly said. "As long as you are okay, I'll be okay."

"Why won't I be okay, San Lang?" He was brushing it off. 

Hua Cheng's hands were rubbing his skin gently. "There are still a lot of things we need to talk about, gege."

Yes, Xie Lian knew it. He knew that he needed to talk about it with Hua Cheng and tell him about everything, about all of him. But it scared him. Would he look at him the same? Would he be disgusted? Would he not love him anymore? Would he stay safe and away from him? 

He could accept if Hua Cheng wouldn't want him after everything. He would understand and allow it. But he couldn't let Hua Cheng be hurt. Bai Wuxiang had already hurt a lot, had already taken a lot from him. His mother. His father. He hurt his Hong Hong-er and took Wuming away from him. He couldn't let him take Hua Cheng from him too. 

It would kill him. Literally.

Xie Lian allowed himself to relax. "Why should we think about those things now? Aren't we supposed to enjoy this night?" 

Hua Cheng exhaled and wrapped his arms around his waist and kissed his cheek from behind. "Gege is right. Forgive this San Lang."

"There's nothing to forgive, San Lang." He placed his wet hand against Hua Cheng's cheek. "I think we are clean enough. I want to cuddle with San Lang."

"I fucking love you."

~

For some unknown reason, Xie Lian woke up in the middle of the night. Earlier, Hua Cheng dressed him up in comfortable and warm clothes and they cuddled to sleep. 

He could feel the soreness setting in his body. But it was nothing he couldn't tolerate. He had already gone through the worst, so a sore body wasn't something new to him. 

Below the door, the light from the outside peeked so that he could tell if someone was walking or not. So when there was a shadow casting over the light, all his sleepiness went away. 

Then, a knock followed. It was only one knock, and then the shadow moved away, telling him that the person walked away too. 

Curious and slightly frightened, Xie Lian moved slowly to stand up. 

He was scared, and the wisest thing to do was not to go after it.

But he couldn't help it. His San Lang was fast asleep, tired from the whole day of work and from their activity earlier, and probably too blissful that he was having a good night's sleep. 

When he miraculously got away from Hua Cheng's grasp and stood up, Xie Lian winced. He underestimated their love-making. It stung and his legs indeed felt weak. It was funny how weak he had become just from that when he had always been resilient. 

He wasn't complaining though. It felt good to be given a safe space to be vulnerable. 

Xie Lian walked to the door. He was about to open it just to make sure no one was there. But a white envelope caught his eyes. 

It was why there was a knock. 

Frowning, Xie Lian slowly crouched and picked up the letter. At the back of it, he saw a neat handwriting saying, "Xie Lian".

Immediately, Xie Lian sensed danger. His heart was seemingly caught up in his throat. It was hard to breathe, yet he braved himself to open the letter.

"Xie Lian,

How perfect of a view would it be to one day see Crimson Rain red from his own blood.

I'm waiting outside."

No. No. No. No. No. NOT MY SAN LANG. Panic surged in Xie Lian as the paper crumpled in his hand. I can't lose him too. I can't. 

Hundreds of pictures from his past invaded his mind. A boy whose body was broken. The boy who had seen him in his worst. Hong Hong-er's cries. Wuming's screams.

He didn't want to go back to him. And Hua Cheng may be capable of protecting him or himself. But Xie Lian also knew what Bai Wuxiang was capable of.

He didn't want to risk it. They talked about it. He promised Hua Cheng. 

But Xie Lian wasn't brave enough to stay. At least if he were with Bai Wuxiang, he'd be able to know his moves. He'd be able to know if that man was plotting against his San Lang. Now, he was kept in the dark. 

So, he couldn't stay. More so that Bai Wuxiang had shown it clearly that he knew. He knew of his whereabouts and of Hua Cheng. 

He needed to act faster before Hua Cheng would wake up. 

Xie Lian's hand flew to his neck and checked the necklace. Right, he took it off earlier. Good. Good.

He looked at Hua Cheng one last time, heart breaking into pieces. This might be the last time he'd ever see his face. Tears clouded his vision. But he needed to go right now or he'd have no strength to go.

Not really comprehending whether his decision was bad or good, as well as the consequences, Xie Lian, with a piece of paper in hand, left Hua Cheng in the dead of the night. 

~ 

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Also, sorry for the late update. Been busy with exams. Thank you for still following the story. Lovelots!