[Amara's P.O.V]

I found myself blushing furiously as I put my clothes on, constantly stopping to sit on the corner of my bed, hold my cheeks in my hands and reminisce once again with a large grin on my face.

Everytime I did so, I felt warm and tingling feelings in my stomach.

It was so perfect! Exactly how I thought it would be for our first time. I might have stopped the make out session simply because I was afraid of what it would lead to, but I was still glad that it happened with Justin.

This morning was weird, I can't believe I was so amazed by his sudden exit from the bathroom, looking like total steak by the way, that I froze and didn't know what to do with myself.

The truth is that, I wasn't prepared to look at him, not to mention even talking to him. I'm new at this and I don't know how to act after a night like last night.

I mean, do I continue to act like we're just housemates and there's nothing going on in between us? Act like nothing at all happened and the kiss we shared the other morning didn't happen as well? Or do I suddenly act like his girlfriend?

I groaned loudly as I fell back on my bed, scratching my head. I didn't know what do to and that was annoying! I can't go down and see him without knowing what I'll be doing with myself.

Without torturing myself any further, I decided to text Leah because I was just frustrated and needed to talk to someone.

Kate was probably still with Henry and I didn't want to disturb them, so I decided I'll be checking up on her later.

Me : I'm panicking!

I typed as I sat up on my bed, biting my lip. A reply came over in seconds.

BestieyLee : what? Am you do realize that it's six in the morning and some of us have hungover? I have so much questions for you but I'm still sleeping!

I rolled my eyes, ignoring her reply.

Me : Last night I kissed Justin.

I bit my lip in anticipation but a minute went on without a reply. I sighed in disappointment as a I thought she probably went back to sleep but a notification popped up.

BestieyLee : OMFG Again!!!?????

Me : Yeah but we actually had a make out session and now I don't know how to act around him. I'm going out of my mind here!

BestieyLee : I'm so happy for you!!! Okay how was it? I want to know every single detail!

Me : It was amazing but I'm panicking right now! How do I act around him? I can't all of a sudden start acting like his girlfriend I mean like that would be weird right?

BestieyLee : Do you like him?

I stared at the screen in shock.

BestieyLee : Okay the fact that you're not replying means that you do.

Me : I don't know how to feel but...okay maybe a part of me has a teeny weeny crush on him.

BestieyLee : Teeny Weeny? You're practically going out of your mind thinking about how you're gonna act around him.

Me : Your point?

BestieyLee : I already said it, you like Justin.

My cheeks went red as I read her text, it didn't feel weird and wrong when someone told me that I liked Justin. It actually felt right and real.

Holy shit! I smiled at my grand realization, I actually do like Justin.

Me : Okay point taken, then what?

BestieyLee : Okay don't like tell him right away because you might scare him away. Hey that rhymes! But anyway, just find out if he feels the same way that you do.

Me : And how do I do that?

Two minutes went away without a reply.

BestieyLee : Come to my bloody house now!

My eyes widened at her text.

Me : Do you really think I'll go downstairs and risk seeing Justin?

BestieyLee : Okay I'm rolling my eyes right now. JUST GET YOUR ASS OVER HERE!

Me : Okay Fine.

I locked my phone as I stood up and took one last look of myself in the mirror. I was wearing a black short denim skirt, a white cropped sweatshirt and my hair was in a messy bun. My outfit looked kind of cute but I didn't feel cute at all.

I sighed, grabbed my bag and left my room. My heartbeat was beating fast as I walked down the stairs, anxious of bumping into Justin.

But no matter how much I wish I didn't...

Justin was sitting on the sofa as he typed away on his phone. I took what was left of my confidence and cleared my throat. He looked up, locking his cellphone and placing it in his pocket right away.

He eyed my bag and looked back at my face "Uh...hi. Are you going anywhere?"

I nodded my head, "Yeah actually, Leah just invited me over."

He started walking towards the kitchen and I followed behind "Oh that sucks, I thought we would go for breakfast together. There's literally nothing in the cupboards and fridge. And I don't want you to go hungry."

I felt my insides melt at his heartwarming concern.

"Thanks but I can't turn Leah down I already said I was coming. You can go to the mall and buy some food that we can actually cook instead of always getting takeaways."

He grinned as he poured water in a glass.

"Nah, sounds boring. I don't wanna go without you."

A breath got caught in my throat as his words soaked in. "Okay whatever, I guess you'll starve while I'm gone."

He almost choked on his water as he laughed "I'm starving right now."

I just laughed and dismissed his joke.

"Okay uhm, I guess I'll see you later."

"Is someone picking you up?" He asked, placing his glass in the sink.

"No I thought I would catch a cab-"

"A cab! I'm driving you there. I mean like can I drive you there?" Justin cut me off as he reached to grab his car keys.

"I'm actually okay with taking a cab I don't really mind." I tired to assure him but he still continued to walk towards the door.

"Come on cakes. You'll be saving yourself some money...plus I would really like to take you there." He smiled so cutely that I couldn't resist.

His smile was so contagious that I smiled as well. "Okay you win."

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"So he insisted on dropping you off?" Asked Leah as I just crouched down on her bed in her large bedroom. Memories of our sleepover suddenly came back.

"Yeah. I didn't want to ride with him considering that I didn't want our conversation to drag longer."

She sighed, "So you guys didn't discuss the make out session and the other kiss?" She asked disappointedly and I nodded, sadly.

"I feel like you're scared to start talking about it and he is as well."

"I don't know Leah, he seems to act like we're still just housemates."

"And you are as well."

"Look, my mind is all over the place, I can't bring myself to a conclusion." I breathed out, looking down. Leah walked towards me and sat next to me.

"I know that new found love can be tricky-"

I cut her off "New found love?" I repeated, tilting my head to look at her.

"Okay you know what I mean, it's still early days anyway. As I was saying, this is new for you and for as long as I've known you which is long enough, you never really had a boyfriend so I unders-"

I groaned, "Get to the point already."

She slapped my shoulder and I laughed "Stop cutting me off." She warned and I nodded.

"I'm just anxious about this whole thing. It's scary I mean I just found out this very morning that I actually like Justin."

"And you should never let that scare you. Instead, you should explore it, the whole thing should be exciting."

I let her words sink in and I sighed.

"But for the exact reason I called you over, we are going shopping."

I gave her a weird look. "I already have enough clothes."

"No offence Am. Your clothes are really nice but now there's a boy you're trying to impress." She stated like it was the most obvious fact on Earth.

"I'm not trying to impress Justin. If he likes me, he'll continue to like me the way that I am with my clothes." I said, making my point clear. "Leah, I'm not trying to change myself just so that someone can like me back."

"Am you're missing the point here."

"What point?"

"I'm not trying to make you change for Justin because that's just shit. I'm instead revamping things a little. You're about to have a boyfriend, a hot one at that, so you need to upgrade your wardrobe a little." She jumped off the bed, disappearing into her en-suite bathroom.

"He's not about to become my boyfriend and at the rate that things are going, I don't think he'll ever be 'about to become my boyfriend'."

"Just trust me on this one Am!" She yelled from her bathroom and I chuckled.

Maybe I did need some new clothes and this was the way to go. Maybe I actually needed to stop overthinking literally everything.

I hope I'm not wrong by trusting Leah about this.

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