'What are you doing?!' It screamed. 'You should be with Rainbow Dash!' Applejack struggled to keep the thought under control, to ingore it and focus on the current situation.
'Caramel's a nice stallion.' Applejack thought to herself. 'Ah could see a nice, quiet life with him.'
'Yeah, a life in the closet.' Applejack's thoughts changed. 'Rainbow Dash loves you! You love her! And you betrayed her! You broke her heart!'
'He's attractive...'
'She's adorable!'
'He's funny...'
'She's hilarious!'
Applejack's heart beat faster and faster as the thoughts fought an enormous battle inside the confines of her brain. Her guilt went toe-to-toe with her pride, and her guilt seemed to be winning. Unbeknownst to her, her kissing had increased in intensity with each passing second, further confusing Caramel. His eyes opened and widened slightly.
'Forget about her!' She finally thought. 'You've got to forget!!!' At that moment, Caramel disconnected from the kiss.
"Whoa, whoa there, Applejack. Moving a little fast there, aren't ya?" He said.
"Ah wanna go all the way!" Applejack quickly spouted at him, eyebrows raised and eyes closed. "Tonight!" Caramel was spellbound. The request had completely taken him by suprise and he was quite speechless. Applejack couldn't believe the words as they came out of her mouth. He searched his mind for the correct words as a bead of sweat formed on his temple he finally gulped and looked back up at her.
"A-are you sure?" He asked, blushing heavily. "Maybe you need a good night's sleep. You look a little tired."
"A-Ah'm sure." Applejack said. "Ah just f-feel...this connection with you. Like Ah'm...destined to be here." The statement tasted a lie above all else, but Applejack wanted...needed to forget her guilt.
"Applejack..." He said, bringing a hoof to her shoulder. "I feel the same way about you!" He kissed her again, more fervently and lovingly. He put everything he had into it as he rolled the two of them over and began to kiss Applejack's neck. Applejack closed her eyes and moaned, breathing heavily as she closed her eyes. He slowly dropped his body onto hers, moving it sensually in an attempt to make Applejack feel good.
The warmth of another...the presence of another was nice. It was enticing...but the passion, the heart...it wasn't there. At least not for Applejack. Caramel was most definitely in love with her, but she didn't feel for him the way she felt for her.
'Rainbow Dash...She was always there for me...whenever Ah needed her...And Ah threw her aside like a piece of trash...' She thought to herself. Tears flooded her eyes as she sobbed quietly. Caramel noticed this and immediately stopped his loving gestures.
"Applejack, are you okay?" He asked her worriedly. She looked at him and sniffled, smiling.
"Yeah...Ah just always saw my first time bein' this romantic..." She lied. This was not her first time, of course, but she lied about that anyway, making her feel even more rotten inside. Caramel smiled.
"Well just lay back and enjoy yourself." He said to her before kissing her on the nose. "Tonight is all about you." A new wave of tears found their way down Applejack's cheeks as Caramel went back to pleasuring her. His hoof rubbed up and down the side of her body.
'He's so sweet! Why are you doing this?!' Applejack thought to herself as Caramel gave her a peck on the lips. 'Stop leading him on for your own selfish reasons!' Caramel continued to rub his body on Applejack's, increasing his own arousal and increasing Applejack's shame. His engorged tool stood at the ready as he gently began to prod Applejack's entrance. The sensation, while providing raw pleasure for Applejack was devoid of any love. Applejack might as well have felt nothing.
"Are you ready?" He asked her, breathing heavily, ready to penetrate her. Applejack slowly nodded. He began to push his member against her lower lips, slowly gaining access. Applejack bit her lip as her heartbeat increased dramatically, pounding in her chest like a heavy reverberating drum.
'Buck up, you little coward...' She thought to herself. 'It's time to stop lying.'
Caramel's tool pushed slightly further into her, making the stallion groan in anticipation.
'You. Love. Rainbow Dash.'
"Stop." Applejack suddenly said. Caramel's eyes opened as he looked down at her. More tears streaked down her cheeks as she frowned up at him. "We...can't do this. You and me can't do this." Caramel slowly nodded and got off of her, sitting next to her.
"I knew something was wrong." Caramel said. "Please tell me so we can work on it together." The request sent a spear of guilt through Applejack's being as she closed her eyes.
"Caramel..." Applejack said. "Ah have a confession to make." Caramel's ears perked up and he looked at her, concerned.
"Okay..." He responded with a frown. Applejack sniffled and wiped her tears.
"Ah'm...Ah'm..." Applejack's heart pounded in her chest and her mind raced.
'Just do it!' She thought.
"Ah'm in love with somepony else." Applejack stated, finally looking at Caramel and furrowing her brow. Caramel's heart broke as his ears splayed back.
"I-I-I..." He gulped. "I don't understand..."
"Ah'm in love with somepony else and Ah've been too ashamed to admit it." Applejack said. "Ah love her with all my heart and Ah threw her away and dated you as a cover up..." She hung her head.
"B-but...why would you..." He said, a tear falling down his cheek. Applejack wiped her tears away.
"Because Ah'm a selfish coward, that's why." Applejack said. "Ah decieved you for my own personal benefit. Ah betrayed the mare Ah truly love, only to betray you as well." Applejack sniffled. "Ah'm so sorry..."
"Y-you..." Caramel started. He could barely speak. All this time, he had been falling in love with this mare, who never loved him back. He felt angry and betrayed as he looked down.
"So..." He said. "You're a fillyfooler?" Applejack sighed before looking at him.
"Not completely..." Applejack said. "Ah figure Ah'm bisexual because Ah've had coltfriends...And...she's the only mare Ah've ever loved...But Ah do love her."
"Well...I wish I could say that she stole you away from me..." He said somberly. "Get some of this anger out by having somepony to blame... But I suppose you were never mine to lose, huh?" He furrowed his brow, making Applejack close her eyes in pure shame.
"Ah'm aware of my crime." Applejack said. "It's only fair that you call me what I really am. Don't hold back. Ah deserve it."
"Okay..." Caramel said before standing up in front of her. Applejack furrowed her brow, ready for the verbal bombardment she was sure to receive from Caramel. "You really want me to call you what I think you are?" Applejack nodded.
"Yes." She said. He nodded.
"You're confused." He said simply. Applejack's eyes widened as she looked up at him from the couch. "That's what you are."
"Ah don't..." Applejack said, dumbfounded by his suprisingly understanding observation.
"I may be forgetful...but I'm not stupid." He said. "I went through the same thing...well, not quite the same thing, a while ago with the love of my life. Berry Punch. You know her, right?" Applejack nodded. "Well, I thought I could have any mare I wanted. I was awful. We had an argument one day and I seriously broke her heart. Little did I know I had lost the mare of my dreams. She won't even look at me now."
"Ah'm sorry..." Applejack said through tears. He looked down at her.
"Now, what's the deal with yours?" He asked. "Tell me. Because you lied to me this whole time. That's my price." Applejack gulped.
"Well...her name is Rainbow Dash." She said.
"Rainbow Dash, huh? I've seen her with stallions too." He responded.
"Well, we were together for some time. But Ah was ashamed to even be seen huggin' her in public. We got into an argument and broke up. After that is when I first started dating you. Ah ignored my feelings and pushed her aside. She won't even talk to me now..." Applejack explained. Caramel nodded his head and sat back on a chair in front of the fire. "Now, Ah've gotta go find her and tell her how Ah really feel!"
"Well, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't hurt...and I certainly think you need to do some self-examining...I can't force you to love anyone." He looked up at her. "Now go find her." Applejack walked to him from across the room and placed a kiss on his cheek.
"Thank you." She said, shedding more tears. "Ah'll never forget you." He nodded as she turned around and walked to the coat rack beside his front door. She donned her stetson and put on her scarf before opening the door. She looked back at Caramel. He offered a single hoof as a goodbye as he sat in front of the fire, not bothering to look back. Applejack smiled as she closed the door behind her. A cold wind blew and Applejack shivered as she set out into the night.She sprinted through the cold air, wind assaulting her face and wind chilling her to the bone. Any pony in their right mind would be indoors, either in front of a fire or under a thick warm blanket with the pony they loved. Applejack yearned to see the pony she loved, and she would scower Ponyville in the cold all night to find her.
She had to find Rainbow Dash. Now.

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Half an Hour Earlier
Fluttershy smiled as she opened the front door to her cottage to find Rainbow Dash standing there, scarf wrapped around her neck.
"Hey, Fluttershy. Wanna hang out?" Rainbow Dash said. Despite her confident tone of voice, Fluttershy could tell that Rainbow was shivering. Fluttershy nodded happily.
"Of course, Rainbow. Come in and warm up." Fluttershy said. "I just made a fire."
"Awesome." Rainbow said, removing her scarf. She looked at it, and then at Fluttershy. "Uh..."
"Oh, just put it on that chair. It'll be fine." Fluttershy said, gesturing to a small chair that Fluttershy's pet bunny, Angel was sleeping in. Rainbow shrugged and dropped the scarf on a chair handle before joining Fluttershy in her living room.
"Do you have any of that tea left?" Rainbow asked. Fluttershy nodded.
"Would you like some?" She asked, prompting Rainbow Dash to nod eagerly. Fluttershy giggled as she moved to the kitchen and put on some water to boil. Upon returning to the living room, she discovered Rainbow Dash splayed out in front of the fireplace in her usual fashion. Fluttershy smiled as she also sat down in front fo the fire.
"So, how was your day?" Fluttershy asked the cyan pegasus. Rainbow's ears perked up.
"Oh, it was okay." Rainbow said. "Weather patrol is always harder during winter, though. The clouds are so much thicker." Fluttershy nodded.
"What about you? Did you tame any bears with 'The stare?'" Fluttershy smiled.
"Oh, no...I would prefer not to come into contact with an untamed bear if I can help it. Their strength matches that of a manticore and their wit matches that of a cockatrice." Fluttershy explained. "In fact, there are three distinct subspecies of bear. There is the black-"
"Fluttershy, that's really interesting and all, but will I really need to know that at any time in my life?" Rainbow asked, looking up at Fluttershy.
"I guess not..." Fluttershy said. "So how is Wonderbolts training?"
"Awesome as usual. Lightning Dust has gotten her act together, so Spitfire has pretty much forgiven her for all that reckless behavior. Took long enough." Rainbow said before sitting up. "But neither of them have forgotten who the leader of the two of us is." Rainbow touched a hoof to her chest and smirked, making Fluttershy giggle lightly. The teapot in the kitchen began to scream as the water inside boiled, signifying that the tea was ready to be made.
"I'll be right back." Fluttershy said before standing up and ambling into the kitchen. Rainbow Dash nodded before laying back down in front of the fire.
'Maybe being with Fluttershy wouldn't be so bad after all...' Rainbow thought. She sighed as she layed down on her belly, resting her chin on her front hooves.

Tommorow there will be a new chapter up so be ready guys