A few weeks later...

"Are you ready, mi amore?"

I looked up at Amir and sighed, nodding. "Yeah, I'm ready..."

Before we walked into the house, he grabbed my hand and kissed my knuckles, then leaned down to peck my lips. I smiled and grabbed his hand, punching the code in and stepping in the house.

The past six weeks were really good. I was getting closer to Amir the more I spent time with him. I didn't always stay at his place, but I did really enjoy the time that I spent with him. He helped me out a lot, and now, I was feeling quite good and maybe almost back to my normal self.

Therapy sessions were still good, but a week ago, was when I started visiting Dr. Martin once every other week, instead of the usual two to three times a week. The weeks in between, we would have a brief video call once a week, and just talk about how I was feeling and how things were going. I didn't get nightmares of my raping anymore, but I still would get some from the two accidents. The flashbacks, anxiety, and panic attacks would still happen, but I was dealing with it.

I also visited Enzo a few times and told him how the rest of the guys felt about me wanting a break. He was upset that they would act like that, and told me that it was good that I was taking a break. He told me that I could take as much time as I needed to feel better, and I was really happy that he was trying to understand. I haven't talked to him since a week ago, but I didn't tell him when I was coming home.

My family and I went out a few times, like an actual family, and spent a lot of time together too, with and without Briar, of course. I was happy with how things were slowly changing for the better and I was genuinely happy.

I didn't talk with any of my lovers during the break. I did a few times with Rami or Milo, but they usually told me the same. Then Milo told me that Manuel, Gio, Marco, and Eddie had came to the house and talked with all of them. Milo didn't tell me much about what they said or how the guys reacted, though.

I led Amir into the kitchen and saw that the tv was on from here. The kitchen was a bit messy, and I looked out the back door. I felt my heart squeeze when I saw my dear lovers sitting outside in the backyard, seeming to be eating breakfast.

I smiled and opened the door which made them look my way. They gasped quietly and Milo got up, running over and crashing into my chest as he wrapped his arms tightly around me.

"Fuck, I missed you so much..." He pulled back and kissed me, making me smile and kiss back.

We pulled away and I hugged him again. "I missed you too, Milo, I missed all of you."

The others were walking towards us and I gave them a big smile as they pulled me into a hug. I was told how much they love and missed me, then they all pulled away.

Benji grabbed onto my hands, "Xavier, we're really sorry for not paying attention to your feelings."

I furrowed my brows and looked at the others. "I don't understand?"

"Manuel, Gio, Marco, and Eddie came over about two weeks ago, and told us how you were feeling." I turned to Levi and he frowned. "We didn't think about how you were feeling, Xavier. We were too busy worrying that you would leave again, and Gio told us that you were upset that we weren't trying to understand you. He told us how selfish we were acting, for not thinking about how you were really feeling, and I'm sorry for that..."

"We're all sorry too, Xavier. I'm not sure how to explain how stupid I feel, but I'm really sorry for how I acted at your parents' house, and I hope you can forgive me." Kian spoke next and looked like he was about to cry.

I nodded and hugged him.

"It's ok, Kian, I forgive you." He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tightly, before letting go. I turned to the others and smiled again. "I forgive all of you, and I love you all so much."

"We love you too, Xavier." They all said in sync and smiled.

Enzo walked to me and I looked him up and down, meeting his eyes again. "You look so much better, Enzo. Are you feeling better?"

"I'm feeling really good, actually. I was sore for the first few days after I came back home from the hospital, but I'm doing a lot better now. I still do get a bit of pain when I do too much movement, but it's not bad anymore." He explained. I saw that he was wearing his collar and I questioned him about it. "Eddie said that he found it in one of the rooms at the warehouse in New Mexico, so he brought it back. I was really happy, because I thought it was lost or destroyed."

I nodded, then looked around. "Wait, where's Reece?"

Quincy smirked at that. "He's at Eddie's house. He helped Reece fill out documents that he was an actual living person, and I guess you could say that they're getting along."

I chuckled and remembered that Amir was standing behind me. I looked back at him and blushed, watching him nod, so I turned back to the guys.

"Um, we have to talk...about something."

Enzo glanced behind me and looked at Amir suspiciously. "Ok, we'll talk once we're done eating."

I nodded, and they went back to the table to finish eating, while Amir and I went inside the house and sat in the living room. I sat on the couch and slowly breathed, looking up at Amir when he rubbed my hand.

"It's going to be ok, Xavier." He kissed my head, and I nodded.

"I hope it will..."

We sat there for about five minutes, before the guys walked in and began cleaning up the kitchen. Once they finished, they came to the living room and sat across from us, but Milo sat by my feet and hugged my legs.

I rubbed his head and he nuzzled my thigh. He looked up at me and smiled, reaching for my hand and kissing my fingers. I blushed a bit and looked up at the others.

"I have something important to tell you guys..." They nodded and I looked up at Amir again. "I'm just going to get straight to the point. A few weeks ago, Amir confessed that he loved me the way you guys do. I thought about it for a bit, and I decided to give him a chance. So now I'm telling you guys...and I hope you're ok with it, even if Amir and I have been together for a month now."

It was quiet and I looked at all of them, trying to figure out their expressions. I suddenly heard growling and watched Enzo stand up and move in front of Amir.

"I fucking knew it!" Enzo glared at Amir. "I've known that you've been liking him for a while now."

I looked at with a confused look, but heard Milo growl below me. "More competition!"

I chuckled and pulled Milo up to kiss his lips. "It's not a competition, Milo, but I know that you make it one."

"Yeah..." He pouted and silently asked for another kiss, so I gave him one.

I looked at Enzo and saw that he was still glaring at Amir, who was just staring back with a blank face. "If you already knew, then why didn't you confront me about it?"

"Because...I don't know, but I know that you've liked him for a while." Enzo growled, but Amir scowled back, which made Enzo whimper and quickly look down. "Sorry..."

"So you're not ok with it?" I asked, and he turned to look at me.

"I'm...ok with it, but Amir is my family...and since we're close, I know that I'm going to get more jealous if he's going to be with you, too." Enzo shrugged, and faced Amir. "Does Alvaro and everyone else know that you're together?"

I shook my head. "No, I decided that I would tell you guys first, then tell everyone else the next time Amir and I see them..."

"We're ok with it, Xavier." I met Benji's eyes and could tell that he was being honest, so I looked at the others to see them nod.

"Manuel is the only single one now!" Enzo gasped, then laughed. "What a loser!"

I glared at him and he quickly shut up. "Don't be mean, Enzo. He'll find his own person on his own time, but don't be mean because he's single right now."

"S-Sorry..." He blushed a bit.

I nodded and got up, but Benji picked me up before I could walk away. I looked at Amir and he just shrugged with a playful look.

Benji carried me upstairs and walked me into his room, placing me down on the bed and climbing over me. He laid on top of me and tucked his head into my neck. I wrapped my arms around him and he settled between my legs.

"What's wrong, Benji?"

He didn't answer, but just shrugged. "Mm..."

I didn't ask again, but instead cuddled with him until we moved onto our sides. My shoes were off, but I was still wearing my jeans, and told Benji that I wanted to take them off. Instead, he sat up and pulled them off me, then cuddled into me again. I cooed and brushed his face with my fingers, giving him multiple kisses on the lips and around his face.

Someone, or rather multiple people, walked into the room and I shifted a bit to look up. I watched only eight of my lovers climb onto the bed and sort themselves out. They were each holding onto me some way or another, and I was really happy. Our bodies were all intertwined with each other's, but it was comfortable. It's weird that we all managed to fit on the bed, but we made it work.

At some point, I could hear even breathing come from around me, so I knew that they fell asleep. I couldn't stop smiling to myself because how content I felt at that moment. I genuinely felt like things were going to be ok from here on out.

I felt like things would go back to my normal, and I was relieved. I hoped that nothing else happened, but I didn't feel like things would go wrong again. I didn't feel like something bad was going to happen to me or anyone in my life, and I hoped that it didn't.

I felt calm and relaxed in bed with my dear lovers surrounding me, but I knew that one was missing from the group. Knowing Amir, he probably left so I could spend time with the guys, which I was grateful for.

If anything, my love for him grew as did for the ones that I was currently in bed with. I just wanted to kiss them and hold them close to me, and that's exactly what I was going to do.

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"Have you seen the email from school?" I looked at Levi in confusion, and he just shook his head with a playful look. "The school sent out an email to all the seniors. We're going to have to go next Monday to some college to practice for graduation."

My eyes widened a bit as I coughed. "I-I completely forgot about school."

"We did, too." Enzo agreed and Milo grumbled.

"I don't want to go. They should just send the diplomas out, and that's it. We'll just throw a party here."

"You have to go, plus they're still holding the funeral ceremony because of what happened." Dom gave him a stern look, and that made Milo grumble more.

"I didn't even know them. I'm only going so that I don't seem rude and I don't even need the stupid diploma..."

"You're really not going to school after high school after?" Kian asked him, which made Milo chuckle dryly.

"I already did my main years of school, I don't need to do more. I don't even know what I would want to do as a career, so why bother?" He ate his rice and picked at the peas. "I don't even like peas!"

I just stared at him as he got up and threw the rest of his food away. He grabbed my hand and pulled me up, leading me to his room and pushing me onto the bed. Milo climbed over me and kissed my neck, his hands moving up my sides.

"I'm sorry...Master, but I...really need...you right now." He spoke between kisses and trailed up to reach my lips. "But we don't have to do anything if you're not comfortable with it, first."

I nodded and kissed him, pulling him higher up my body. He straddled my hips and I could feel how hard he was already, which made my face heat up.

Milo pulled back a bit, "Why are you blushing?"

"I don't know. Maybe because we haven't done anything in a long time and I just...feel shy now?" I rubbed my face a bit and glanced around the room.

My head was turned to look back at Milo. "Why are you so cute?"

Shrugging, I heard Milo coo at me before pecking my lips. "Maybe you're shy because you have to warm up."

He pulled my shirt off and pressed his hands to my chest, rubbing my nipples with his thumbs. I whined and looked up at him, seeing that his eyes had grown darker.

"So cute..." He leaned over me. "I want to ruin it all..."

I pulled his head down and kissed him. My right hand moved down to undo the front of his jeans and to pull his member out. Milo moaned and looked down between us as he caught his breathe.

"I missed those hands so much..." He grabbed my hand and pulled it up to his mouth.

I watched him take two of my fingers into his mouth and suck on them, meeting my eyes. I felt his tongue move around, then he pulled my fingers out. He moved my hand back down to his cock and I wrapped my fingers around his shaft.

"I just realized that your hair is longer." He pulled on my hair and I nodded.

"Amir thought that I should try growing it out and see if I like it..."

Milo groaned. "Do you like it?"

"Not really, but I didn't feel like going out to get my hair cut. I might just go to get the sides shaved and the top to be shorter." I rubbed my finger over his tip and watched Milo's face scrunch up in pleasure.

"Ok, let's talk about hair later...shit..."

I chuckled and slid his jeans down with my left hand, having more access to his sac. I kissed him and felt Milo's hands move down to rub over my front. He quickly undid my jeans and pulled them down to my thighs, slipping his hand beneath my boxers.

"You're leaking more than me, Master." Milo smirked and I nodded, gasping when his nail scraped my tip.

My cock jolted and I looked up at Milo, who was looking at me. "Have you and Amir done anything?"

I shook my head, "No, we've only jerked each other off once so far, but that was it. We agreed that we wanted to take things slow."

Milo smirked at that. "That means a big load for me."

I nodded and felt his hand begin to stroke me. He stopped after a few moments to pull our jeans and boxers off, then leaned down to tease my nipples. I whined and tugged on his hair, my left hand sliding down his back. I trailed my hand back up, but made sure to dig my nails into his skin, hearing Milo groan lowly.

"More."

He reached over to his nightstand and grabbed something. I saw that it was a bottle of lube and I blushed, watching Milo pour some over my cock and set the bottle aside.

"I'm so excited, Master." He sat up and crawled over, grabbing me and slowly moving down.

"Wait—Milo!" I threw my head back and cried out, feeling my cock jerk inside of him as I spilled my load.

Milo moaned and slowly pushed down. "So good..."

"See, I told you they were already fucking..." I looked up, seeing Dom and Rami standing at the door. Rami shook his head, "I freaking knew it."

I couldn't focus on them much because of the tight grip that Milo's hole had on me. It felt like my cock was going to explode because of how tight he was. But Milo didn't pay attention to Dom and Rami.

Milo's head hung as he breathed raggedly. He let himself drop on my lap and I grunted, hearing him make small noises of please. He whined a few times and I felt something wet drip onto my stomach.

"How does it feel?" I felt a hand brush my hair out of my eyes, so I looked up to see Rami.

"He's so t-tight."

Rami chuckled and sat beside me. "I bet it is."

I swiftly turned my head forward and watched Dom whisper into Milo's ear, who was drooling onto his own chest and my stomach. Milo nodded a few times, then turned to kiss Dom. Milo's hips began moving and I groaned, my nails digging into his thighs. I gasped as Milo slowly pulled up, then moved back down.

Rami kissed my head and moved his mouth next to my ear. "You see what you're doing to Milo?"

I watched Milo tremble every time my cock slid into him, which would make his own cock twitch. "Yes."

"I want you to do that to Kian and I soon, Xavier."

I shuddered and looked up at him. "R-Really?"

"Mhm," he caressed my face and smiled, "I want to feel you deep, deep inside me."

My cock jerked inside of Milo and I nodded. "I would want to do that too, Rami."

"Good." He kissed my lips, and rubbed my hair. "But for now, continue on with Milo."

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I'm sure you guys can see that things are starting to speed up for a specific reason, and I know that you all know why...ehe. Don't worry, though, we still have a while to go...sort of. I just wanted to let you guys know that things will be speeding up.

What do you guys think?

Anyway, I hope you guys enjoyed, see you next time, BYE!!! :))

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