I was sitting outside in the backyard. I had been thinking about what Amir told me for a while, just lost in my thoughts and thinking.

Did I love Amir? Yes. Do I know that he loves me in more than a friend way? Yes. Have I ever thought about him being more than a friend? Yes. Am I sure about how I feel? I'm not sure...

I groaned and went in the house, heading up to Jace's room and looking through my bag. I went back down to the backyard and lit up the end of the blunt, inhaling as deeply as I could and holding it. I blew the smoke out and sighed, closing my eyes.

My family wasn't home today. My parents were at work, Andy was hanging out with a friend, Jace and Briar had to do something for school, and Amir left earlier to give me space and to just think, but the thinking was starting to annoy me.

"Ugh..."

I went in the house after smoking for a few more minutes and went to look for something to eat. I quickly made myself a sandwich and ate it, then went upstairs to change my clothes.

I was bored just sitting here, so i decided to watch some random standup comedy movie. It was actually really funny, or maybe that was just because I was high, but for some reason, it started to wear off towards the end of the hour long movie.

I started looking around the house but found nothing interesting to keep me busy for the rest of the day. I just sat on the couch and closed my eyes, falling asleep after a few minutes.

At some random point during the day, I woke up to the doorbell ringing and groaned, checking my phone to see if Jace had texted me that he and Briar were on their way back home. There were no messages from him, so I got up and opened the door, watching Amir turn to look at me.

I sort of woke up a bit more and Amir chuckled. "You look...like a mess."

I nodded and opened the door more. "I feel like one, too."

He walked in and I closed the door, sitting on the couch and plopping down. I heard Amir sit across from me and it was just silent.

I sat up once I had enough of the silence and looked at Amir who was busy looking at some of the family pictures on the table beside him. He turned to look at me when I stared at him, and he moved next to me when I patted the space beside me.

I sighed and thought hard once more, before making my decision. I looked at Amir and gave him a small smile, looking away and sighing tiredly.

"I thought about what you said, Amir." I watched his face turn a bit red, and he nodded, his eyes looking hopeful. "And I...I wanna give it try..."

Amir smiled and hugged me tightly, kissing my face repeatedly until I was whining for him to stop. He pulled me back and smiled as he stared at me.

"Thank you, Xavier..."

I nodded and just hugged him, feeling quite happy with my decision. We held each other for a long while and finally pulled away.

While I was thinking about what else I could eat, I could feel Amir staring at me, so I looked up at him in question.

"I'm just so happy." He gently cupped my face and kissed my head, standing up and carrying me to the kitchen. "I'll make you some food, if you want?"

I gasped, "Yes, please!"

Amir smiled and set me on my feet, looking through the fridge and pulling different ingredients out. He started pulling out a few other things, and I sat at the table, laying my head down and watching him.

At times, he would peek over at me and smile. It made me feel really happy and content with things. I was quite happy at the moment and enjoyed it.

Amir took almost an hour to finish making lunch, and he placed a plate in front of me. I looked down and noticed the macaroni and small cut pieces of chicken. I raised my brow, then looked up at Amir with squinted eyed.

"Don't tell me you're going to start treating me like a little kid, Ami..."

He gave me a smirk, and sat next to me. "You bet, Xavier."

I grumbled a bit, but actually felt really good. I grabbed the fork and tasted the chicken, looking up at Amir and nodding.

"This is really good."

Amir smiled and we dug in, enjoying our lunch. We finished up, but Amir told me that he would clean up, so I let him. I looked out of the window and saw that that the sun was setting, staring up at the sky.

I walked upstairs to my room and popped the screen out from the window, climbing up and going onto the roof. I laid down and closed my eyes, staring at the colors the colors from the sunset.

I wasn't sure how long I was staring for, but I heard Amir calling for me and sat up. "I'm on the roof!"

"How?!"

"I climbed!" I yelled back and heard Amir scoff.

"Really? I thought you just jumped up there, Xavier."

I laughed and peeked over the edge of the house, seeing Amir standing on the grass. "I climbed up from my room."

He nodded and he disappeared, so I went back to laying on the roof. I heard grunting and watched Amir climb onto the roof, rolling on his back next to me.

"Wow..."

I stared at the sky and my eyes began tearing up, suddenly feeling emotional. I wiped my face and slowly sighed, attempting to stop myself from crying.

"What's wrong?" Amir rolled onto his side and looked at me.

"I-I just feel like crying..." I spoke quietly and he nodded, his fingers brushing over my face and head.

I cried harder and tears flowed out on their own. I hiccuped and shook my head, hiding my face in my t-shirt.

"I-I'm sorry..." I told Amir and he stayed silent. I slowly exhaled again and rubbed my eyes. "I don't even know why I'm crying."

"Because you still feel overwhelmed." Amir kissed my cheek and pulled me to his side, curling his right arm over my waist.

I laid my head on his chest and stayed there, crying for who knows how long and whining. I just let it all out and felt drained once I managed to calm down. I was exhausted and I just wanted to go back to sleep.

"Let's go back inside, Xavier..." Amir brushes my hand and I nodded.

He helped me up and hopped back into the house, popping the screen back in and closing the window. I went to Jace's room and just closed my eyes, not wanting to do anything else for the day.

My phone rang in my pocket and I was too lazy to answer, but Amir pulled my phone out, answering the call. "Hello?"

There was talking on the other side of the phone, then Amir nodded. "Jace says that there was an accident in the freeway so he and Briar will be late. He also said that Andy should be home in a few minutes."

I nodded and closed my eyes, Amir placing my phone on the nightstand while I went back to dozing off.

I hummed when Amir called me and looked at him. "Would you want to spend the night at my place? I won't tell your boys that you're with me."

I thought about it for a second, then nodded. "I have to wait for Jace and Briar to get home first so Andy won't be alone, though."

Amir nodded and patted my head. "Take a nap until then, and I'll be downstairs to wait for Andy. I can see that you're ready to fall asleep."

I nodded and felt his lips press onto my temple. He left the room and I quickly fell asleep soon after.

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"Xavier..." I hummed and opened my eyes to see Jace. He smiled and kissed my head. "Amir said that you're spending the night with him?"

I looked to the corner of the room and saw Amir watching me. I nodded to Jace's question and he nodded too.

"Do you need to pick your bag?" Jace asked, but Amir cut him off.

"I already packed it for him."

I got up and stretched my body, sighing quietly and rubbing my eyes. "Are we leaving right now?"

Amir nodded and I turned to Jace, hugging him and laying my head on his shoulder. I kissed his neck, but he pulled my head up and gave me a quick, short kiss on the lips, making me smile while Jace blushed because Amir was in the room.

"When will you come back?"

I shrugged and let go of him. "I'm not sure. Maybe I'll come home tomorrow, or the day after, I'm not really sure, though."

Jace nodded and kissed my cheek, then I walked out of the room, walking to Andy's room who was just getting in bed. "Hey, Andy, I'm going to sleep over Amir's house tonight."

"You are?" She questioned and I nodded. "Did you tell mom and dad, already?"

"I'll send them a message once I'm in the car, ok?" Andy nodded and kissed her head, leaving her room after.

Amir and I went down to the living room and I found my bag on the couch. Briar was on the couch and Jace told him that I was leaving.

Amir and I soon left, and we went in his car instead. It was a silent car ride, but once we were pulling up to the gate, I tensed a bit which Amir seemed to notice.

"It's ok, Xavier." He squeezed my hand and I nodded.

We went through the gate once we were let through, and Amir parked in front of his house. We got out and he grabbed my bag for me. He let me in his house and I went straight to the bedroom, flopping onto the bed and sighing.

"Are you actually still tired?" I heard Amir ask and shrugged.

"Not as much as before, but I am a little bit."

He didn't say anything and walked to his bathroom. I heard the faucet for the bathtub turn on and groaned, climbing higher onto the bed.

"It'll help relax you." Amir pulled me to the edge of the bed and I whined, making my body relax and stay limp so he would have to do all the work. "Now you're acting like a kid."

I froze, but shrugged. "I'm tired to care right now..."

He chuckled and undressed me, carrying me into the bathroom and turning the water off once it was filled. He placed me on the edge of the tub and began undressing in front of me, making me blush a bit since now it was different.

I was picked up and I moaned when I was placed into the really warm water. It felt really good and I settled my head between Amir's neck and shoulder.

"This feels good..."

Amir kissed my head and and I smiled. He began pouring water on my head and I mewled quietly, wanting to slide deeper into the warmth. I shifted a bit and pushed my arms into the water.

"Don't fall asleep now, Xavier." Amir chuckled softly and I whimpered.

"It's so warm..."

Amir grabbed my head and he tilted it back to pour water over my hair. I whimpered and shook my head.

"You're just getting me more tired, Ami..." I whined and pouted.

"Stop doing that." Amir grabbed the shampoo and started rubbing my hair, scrubbing my scalp and quickly washing the suds out.

"Doing what?" I furrowed my brows and looked up at him in genuine confusion.

"Stop pouting and whining."

I stared at him as he began washing his own hair. He didn't tell me to look away so I pouted. "Why?"

Amir didn't say anything at first, and started washing my body. "Because you make me wanna do bad things to you, and I know that we should take it slow."

Realization hit me, making me blush. "Sorry..."

I quickly looked away and let Amir wash my body. He didn't wash my frontside or backside, and told me to do it myself, so I did. He washed himself, then unplugged the drain.

He helped me up and grabbed a towel, wrapping me tightly into burrito. I glared at him and he smiled, pulling me into the room. He disappeared into the closet and I just stayed standing.

Amir came back in a pair of gray sweats and I blushed, looking away. I heard him rummage through something, and took a peek at him. He was looking through my bag, then pulled out a pair of my briefs.

"Here..." He pulled the towel from me, then helped me slip the briefs on.

I watched him grab a loose, black shirt of his and he helped me put that on as well. I looked down and whined, holding my arms out.

"I look like I'm wearing a dress..." The shirt fit me at mid-thigh, making me grumble.

"But you look so cute." Amir tilted my head up and pecked my lips, picking me up and carrying me to the bed. "Come on, aren't you tired? It doesn't matter anyway, since you're going to sleep. No one else will see you except me."

I nodded shyly and was placed down on the sink. I watched Amir grab a comb and brush my hair, then ran his fingers through to keep it messy like usual. He carried me to the bed and placed me down, turning the light off after and sliding in next to me.

I was looking up into the darkness, then looked up at Amir, even if I couldn't actually see him. "Well, now I'm not tired anymore..."

"I am, so go to sleep." He placed his arm over my stomach and held me down with his big arm.

I held onto his wrist with my fingers, then clicked my tongue. "I forgot that we're going to have to tell everyone that we're together now. Enzo's gonna be jealous because you're his cousin, who's now with me...Milo will probably hate it because it's another rival."

"I'll happily tease Enzo, that I was able to have you, too. But Milo?" I could hear the confusion in Amir's voice.

"Milo considers each person that I'm in a relationship with as competition. Even Dom, and they're dating, but that's how Milo is. I'm not sure how everyone else would act, though..." I trailed off and shrugged. "I'm not too worried about it, though."

"Good." Amir tucked himself closer and kissed my neck. "Just sleep for now, Xavier, we'll talk more tomorrow.

I nodded and closed my eyes.

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"So you want me to tell them about us once I go back home?"

"Yes." Amir nodded and forked some more eggs into my mouth.

After I finished chewing, he wiped my mouth so that I could say what I was going to say. "I was going to wait until I went home to tell them, either way."

"Then there's no problem."

I nodded and reached for my cup, drinking a bit of the orange juice. I placed my cup down and smiled up at Amir as he ate some of his eggs. He looked down at me and kissed my head after he finished chewing.

"Are you full?"

"Mhm..." I nodded, "I need to take my medicine, too."

He nodded and let me hop off his lap. I went to the room and grabbed a single pull, then went back to the kitchen.

"So you're only supposed to take one every morning after you eat?" I heard Amir ask as I was getting water.

"Mhm..." I took a few sips and put the cup down.

"Do you want to do anything today?"

I shrugged, "We can go out, or just stay home. I don't really care."

Amir nodded and finished up his eggs, putting the dirty dishes away and taking me to the living room. He sat down and pulled me on top of him to sit on his lap. He stared at me until I started blushing and turned my head away.

"What?"

He shook his head and cupped my face. "Nothing, you're just beautiful."

I chuckled and rubbed my face. "That's so cheesy, Amir..."

He chuckled and nodded. "I know, but it's true. You're beautiful, you're personality is beautiful. I just love you a lot, and I still can't over the fact that you accepted to be with me. You make me really happy, and I'm really glad that I decided to tell you that I love you."

I smiled, "I'm happy too, Amir. I really want to see where we go, and I can't wait for all the things we'll do together in the future. I'm really happy that I'm here with you...even if I wish that the others were here, too."

Amir nodded and moved his head closer to kiss my lips gently. I smiled and kissed him a bit more firmly, and placed my arms around his shoulders to hug him while we kissed.

We pulled away after we needed air, and just smiled, kissing each other a few more times before I placed my head down on his shoulder. I kissed his neck and whimpered happily, relaxing into Amir's hold. He kissed my head and slid his hands beneath my shirt, his fingertips lightly brushing my skin. I shivered and slightly sucked on his neck to leave a hickey behind, kissing it a few times after. I was quite happy by the little work that I did and sat up to look at Amir.

"I'm really happy, Amir, and I haven't felt like this in a while." I kissed his lips a few more times and he returned them all, giving my head and face many more kisses, which made me feel all giggly and fuzzy.

"I'm happy too, Xavier. I love you so much."

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So cute, agh! I freaking love Amir and Xavier together, it makes me feel happy :3

What do you guys think?

Anyway, I hope you guys enjoyed, see you next time, BYE!!! :))

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