One month later...

"No!"

I was dropped into the pool and I pushed myself back up to the surface, glaring at Rami and Kian who were both laughing. They then jumped over my head and I turned around to chase them, but a pair of arms wrapped around my waist, holding me back.

"You can get them later, Xavier." Dom kissed my neck, but I kept my eyes on the twins, watching them make faces at me.

I huffed, "But I told them not to throw me in and they still did...and I'm fully clothed!"

Benji chuckled as he swam over to us and pulled my shirt off. "Come on, Xavier, it's a nice day today. You shouldn't be cooped up in your room all the time, you should be able to breathe fresh air."

Yes, this past month has just been me staying inside my room doing nothing, or cuddling with one of the guys. I was still sleeping by myself in the guest room, but it felt good because I felt like I did still have space, but it wasn't all that great because then I would feel lonely at the same time. I'd just be alone with my thoughts, which still did happen.

Therapy has helped a lot. I've been able to control the flashbacks a bit better by bringing up good memories. The nightmares would still happen, but those wouldn't really go away. I was ok with that, though. They're not too bad where I'm left feeling really scared or on the verge of having a panic attack.

Dr. Martin has even told me that it seemed like I've improved a bit more on my confidence. Before, I was more quieter and would sort of distance myself from everyone. Now, I actually start up conversations and hang out with my lovers more, usually in my room or in the living room. That also meant that I was talking a bit more with my friends from school, but I still haven't seen Cameron, Hunter, or Evan.

I did text them a handful of times, telling them that I was doing a lot better and they would tell me how happy they were for me, but they kept asking me when I would be able to visit them in their new apartment. They finally found a nice place in a really good part of the town. Cameron told me that they each had their own room and obviously each paid their own part of the rent.

I really did want to see them, but I was nervous to ask the guys because I know that they don't like them, which I can understand why.

They wouldn't want me hanging out with the guys that I cheated on them with.

I'm pretty sure that my friends knew too, but they were just sad since I haven't hung out with them in almost two full months. Evan did call me a few times asking when I would be able to come over, but I would just tell him that I was busy when I was really busy doing nothing at all and sulking in my room alone...or hanging out with the guys, of course.

Maybe I can ask them soon because I really miss Cameron, Hunter, and Evan. I also really want to see their apartment and see how good they're doing living by themselves.

"Hello..."

"Sorry, what did you say?" I looked at Levi and felt hands pull my sweats down, "What are you guys doing?"

Benji and Enzo pulled my sweats off, throwing them over my head to the floor. Hands immediately moved to the front of my briefs and I tensed up, feeling Dom kiss my neck.

"W-Wait-" I blushed and covered my face while Dom moved his hand away.

"What's wrong?" I heard Enzo ask beside me and I shook my head.

"I-I just feel awkward." I really did, "We haven't done anything in...a long time...so I don't know how to feel."

I peeked through my fingers at Benji and he smiled softly, pulling my hands back. " Forget about that, Xavier. You just have to feel good. Remember how you used to feel whenever we pleasured you, that's it and relax, ok? We'll take care of you."

Hands slowly crept to my front and backside. I knew my face was bright red while my body was tense. I tried relaxing and slowly did.

Enzo moved closer and gently grabbed my face, kissing me gently. I shyly kissed back and moaned when hands moved inside my boxers, feeling one slowly begin to stroke me. I gasped and felt my member twitch to life, hearing Benji laugh.

"You seem to have gotten more sensitive. Have you not touched yourself?"

"No..." I shook my head and Levi whimpered beside me.

"Master, c-can I have a treat?"

I froze, then nodded. "Of course...Puppy."

Levi whimpered happily and kissed me, his lips moving against my own. He licked my bottom lip and I parted my lips, letting his tongue slip inside my mouth. I moaned quietly and dug my hands into his hair, tugging on it to hear him whimper.

Lips landed on my neck and shoulders, the hands moving to the inside of my boxers. I felt one of them stroke me and whined, feeling their fingers tease the tip of my member as Levi pulled away to watch my face scrunch up in pleasure.

"Aah..."

Dom kissed up my neck and gently turned my head to kiss me as the hand that was wrapped around my member, pumped me faster. Fingers prodded and rubbed over my hole, but they never pushed in until I was jerked backwards, so I gasped when I felt my hole being stretched. I whimpered when the finger moved deeper in and breathed out when Dom pulled away.

"W-Wait...I need-" I squeezed my eyes shut and cried out when I felt the finger prod my prostate.

The hand tightened around my shaft as another moved down to massage my sac. Enzo moved beside Dom and kissed my chest, lifting me a bit higher to reach my nipples. He licked and nibbled on my left one, his finger pulling and rolling the right one. I moaned and turned my head to kiss Benji. I heard him whine when I nibbled on his bottom lip, feeling his arm tighten around me.

Mouths and hands continued to torture me until I was panting and holding back my release after only a couple of minutes had passed. Enzo pulled back from kissing me and smirked, holding my chin with his left hand.

"Do you need to cum, Master?"

"Y-Yes..." Benji's hand pumped my length faster while Enzo's fingers moved in and out of me at the same pace. I whined and looked at Dom, "Please...I need to cum..."

"Go ahead, Xavier." He leaned forward and kissed me as I felt Benji's fingers rub over my slit, Enzo's fingers freezing deep inside of me to rub my prostate.

I cried out, then tensed, feeling my cock twitch as I came hard. I shuddered and whimpered, my noises of pleasure being muffled by Dom's mouth which moved against my own.

My body continued to twitch and jolt until there was nothing left to empty from my sac. Benji let go of my member while Enzo pulled his fingers out of me. I whimpered and leaned back against Benji, catching my breath as I felt exhaustion take over my form. I closed my eyes and caught my breath, feeling myself go limp. Arms wrapped around my waist as my head and face was kissed, feeling someone pick me up and carry me out of the pool.

I didn't bother opening my eyes since I was too tired to open them. Whoever was carrying me, carried me inside the house and up the stairs, taking me into a room and what I'm guessing was the bathroom since I was placed beside the sink.

Finally opening my eyes, I watched Benji turn the water on for the shower. He moved in front of me and pulled me off the counter, slipping his hands inside the waistband of my boxers to pull them off. He chuckled when I blushed and removed his own boxers, grabbing my hand to lead me into the shower.

We both moved under the shower head and Benji wrapped his arms around my shoulders, kissing my head softly. I looked up at him and he smiled, pecking my lips. He stared down at me, then blushed and cleared his throat as the shower door opened up. I looked back and saw Dom step in, moving behind me and wrapping his arms around both Benji and I.

"I love the both of you so much." He kissed my head, then kissed Benji's cheek.

I heard Benji say it back to us too and I smiled to myself, turning so that I could hug the both of them at the same time. "I love you guys, too."

Their arms wrapped around me and my head was kissed multiple times, making me feel genuinely happy and calm in their arms.

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Another month later...

"We'll see you guys at lunch, alright?" I looked at Levi, Enzo, Kai, and Quincy who nodded, and gave me one more hug.

Milo and I left after to go to our first class of the day. We walked in and sat in the back, feeling Milo rest his head on my shoulder and yawn.

"Was twelve hours of sleep not enough for you, Milo?" I asked with a teasing smile and he shook his head.

"Nope, because no matter how much sleep I get, I'll always be tired. Always." He closed his eyes as we waited for all the other students to show up.

Ollie looked over at me and smiled so I returned it, then looked out the window as I remembered how quick another month had gone by. The month was pretty much the same as the one before, but...better.

We were all practically back to normal which I was really happy with. I started taking turns sleeping with my lovers again. It felt good to be cuddled between the people I really loved. It felt nice to be held while holding someone at the same time, sleeping in the same bed, and waking up the next morning only to snuggle some more.

Milo seemed to have gotten even more attached to me if that was possible. He wanted to be in the same room with me at all times. Didn't matter if I was taking a nap, going to the bathroom, showering, doing homework, eating, anything really. I like it, but at the same time, it freaks me out because I feel like he would really get into his creepy stalker mode at times. I still do like it, it makes me feel extra safe because I know that he's always with me and watching me.

One thing that was a bit different this month, was that I went back to the warehouse. I apologized to the Made Men and everyone else about my disappearance and opened up to them about my PTSD because like I had said, they were my second family. I needed to tell them because if I ever had a freak out episode while I was at the warehouse, they'd know why. Plus, I wanted to tell them because I just thought that it was something to open up about.

The men were a bit upset that I had left with no explanation, but then understood that I wasn't in the right state of mind. I obviously didn't tell them everything, but enough for them to understand the story. It felt good to be back there again.

Fortunately, I didn't really freak out while being in the warehouse. Dr. Martin said that certain things would trigger my episodes and certain things wouldn't. We guessed that being in the actual warehouse and seeing it, wouldn't trigger me. I don't know why, but that's just how my mind works. He said that certain smells, like maybe gunpowder, or seeing a grenade could trigger me, but I obviously wouldn't know until I smelled or saw those things.

Going with Dr. Martin felt like a nice escape from everything. I could open up to him and let all my emotions out without being judged, unless he was actually silently judging me in his head, but I didn't really care because he signed up to be a therapist in the first place. Well, I could practically talk to him about anything and not worry about him telling anyone.

We also continued those sessions where he would help me remember the good memories instead of bad ones when I got flashbacks, and the few other techniques. He did say that I obviously wouldn't really get rid of them, since anything could trigger me and PTSD isn't something that just goes away, but the sessions taught me how to make them go away a bit quicker.

I will get the occasional big, freak out episode where I'll just break down and cry for a while, but my lovers were there to reassure me that I was ok and safe with them.

I still do some things that I couldn't control, like constantly scanning the room or place I was at. Sometimes, I would literally have whoever was with me wait for me to search and scan the place before saying that it was safe to get out of the car, or go in the store, etcetera. I still get paranoid and at times, it's so bad to the point that I wouldn't feel safe at all, even with my lovers there with me. I still would get super tense and anxious, but that wasn't as often anymore.

The blacking out still did happen which sucked because I won't remember some things out of a day.

It's pretty much like having parts of your memory get taken away from you, that sometimes the last thing I'll remember doing is eating, then all of a sudden I'll be showering, or in bed, etcetera. I really didn't like blacking out, at all. I hated it, but I couldn't stop it. I couldn't control all of my symptoms, but I was able to make myself relax and calm myself whenever I was panicking which I've gotten better at.

I suddenly jumped when the fire drill went on and looked around, watching students talk about what it could be since Ollie didn't mention that the school would be having a fire drill today. I glanced at Ollie and saw that his brows were furrowed, watching him go to the class phone.

Milo squeezed my hand and looked up at me with a smirk. "You think it's a false alarm, or the school is finally burning down?"

I chuckled, "Come on, Milo, what if the school was actually burning down?"

"Good, that means I won't have to come back here and be with people that I don't like being around, or even near to." He yawned and shrugged, "But if it's real, don't you think the principal would've gone on the intercom and said that we should get in line that they expect us to form calmly and evacuate?"

"I can't believe schools actually think that we'll follow orders calmly. I would throw a chair at the window and jump out, then run home." I joked which made him laugh, but agree.

Ollie clapped his hands and shushed the classroom down, but he was cut off as the intercom came on, hearing the principal's voice come through. "False alarm, guys. One of the alarms was pulled, so if we catch whoever pulled that as a funny prank, which is not funny, you will get a two day suspension. Return to your lessons."

Milo scoffed, "Damn it, I should pretend that I was the one to pull it so I can stay home."

"So you can stay home all alone without me?" I raised my brow and he stared at me.

"You're right, then we can just say that we both pulled it so we don't have to go to school for two days."

I chuckled and shook my head, looking up when Ollie shushed the class and told us to continue working. His phone rang and I watched him pick it up, but wasn't able to hear him since he was talking quietly. He caught me staring so he gave me a pointed look and I quickly got back to work.

Milo and I split the questions and worked together so that we would get the work done faster. That's pretty much how we worked in all of our classes so we can finish faster.

While we were more than halfway done, the fire alarm went on again and I looked out the window, wondering what that could be. It could be some seniors playing senior pranks?

"Guys, this is not a drill. All teachers lock the doors and shut the blinds. There are multiple unidentified people on campus. Lock all doors and silent your phones. You already know the drill."

I looked at Ollie and saw that he was already looking at me. I jutted my chin, but he shrugged and grabbed his keys, quickly locking the door and telling a student to close the blinds.

"Guys, you heard the principal. Silence your phones and if you need to contact your parents, do not call them. Message them, instead." He turned the classroom lights off as we moved to the back of the class so that we were far from the windows and door.

Milo held tightly onto my hand and I suddenly felt uneasy, like something really bad was going to happen. Some kids were hurriedly messaging their parents while others talked with their friends. Some even looked like they began to shake. I was part of those people.

My phone began to vibrate in my hand and I saw Amir's name on my screen. I looked up at Ollie and saw that he was looking down at his phone. His eyes flicked up to me before he raised his phone to his ear so I quickly did the same and answered.

"Xavier, Jester's Flush is attacking your school. Do not leave your class. Stay with Ollie. Some of us are headed your way, but do not-"

Suddenly, there were screams outside as what sounded like guns being shot rang throughout the halls. People around me cried out before they were quickly shushed by other students. Ollie's eyes widened as he put his phone away, raising his fingers to his lips to keep all of us quiet.

"Milo, message the boys, but do not tell the guys." I whispered to him and he quickly nodded.

I kissed his cheek and got up, walking over to Ollie. More screams echoed throughout the halls and suddenly there was loud banging at the door, making the people cry out in my class. There was deep laughter on the other side so Ollie quickly moved out of the way and grabbed my arm, pulling me with him as whoever was on the other side, shot through the door.

People started crying and I looked at Milo, seeing the fear in his eyes. My own heart was beating at a rapid pace, but I was calm on the outside. My hands quickly became sweaty as I looked back at Ollie.

"Amir said they're on their way...but they're not going to be quick enough." I whispered to him and he nodded.

The banging on the door stopped and we could hear multiple pairs of feet run through the halls. It got eerily silent before the door broke down.

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