"Master?"

The loud banging and ringing stopped as I was able to breathe again. I gasped to get as much air as I could. I opened my eyes and looked up with blurred vision, noticing Enzo's worried face in front of me. I whimpered and threw myself at him, knocking him down against the wall.

"I-I'm sorry, Enzo. I didn't mean to push you away, I'm so sorry." I gripped onto the back of his shirt and hid my face into his chest, breathing in his scent.

I felt a hand land on my back, "Xavier?"

I turned my head and saw Amir crouching in front of me. I looked behind him and saw the concerned looks on Antonio, Alejandro, Charlie, and Walter's faces, looking back at Amir.

"What happened? Why did you freak out like that?"

"It w-was too much for me and I saw..." My body began to shake on its own so Enzo pulled me tighter against his chest, kissing my head.

"Master, you're ok." He shushed me quietly and rubbed my head.

I slowly relaxed in his arms and slumped against his chest, feeling a sudden wave of exhaustion hit me. I laid my head on his shoulder and Enzo's fingers brushed my left cheek. Closing my eyes, I yawned quietly, but froze when I heard Alvaro's voice.

"Xavier, I-"

"I don't want to talk here, Alvaro."

There was movement behind me and I felt myself being pulled away from Enzo, so I whined. I fisted the back of his shirt and pouted.

"I wanna stay with Enzo."

"You'll go back to him once he gets up, Xavier." I heard Amir's quiet voice say behind me so I let go of Enzo's shirt.

As soon as he got up, Amir placed me down and I went to Enzo, hugging his waist. He picked me up and placed his hands under my bottom to hold me up. I tucked my head back between his shoulder and neck, and I felt him start walking. My eyes closed on their own and I fell asleep.

I woke up again, but this time, I felt multiple bodies surrounding me. I whimpered quietly and tried moving, but I realized that it felt like I was being held down. I managed to keep myself calm so I opened my eyes and noticed that I was in my room.

"Are you ok, Xavier?" I looked at Kian and nodded, watching him smile.

"When did I get home?"

"About an hour ago." He went back to rubbing my head.

I looked around and saw something in the corner of my room, realizing that Dom, Benji, and Rami were sitting on the couches. I looked at Rami's left side and noticed that Enzo was snuggled up against his side, asleep. His cheeks looked red and I furrowed my brows.

"He told us what happened at the warehouse and started crying in the middle of it, then fell asleep." Kian briefly explained and I nodded.

"Can you help me get up?"

Kian nodded and disentangled me from the rest of my lovers' arms and legs. He pulled me up and as I was about to move off the bed, he picked me up and carried me to the bathroom. He turned the water on and undressed the both of us, pulling me into the warm shower.

"Are you really ok, Xavier?"

I kissed his neck, "Yes, Kian, I promise. I'm just not sure what happened to me earlier."

Kian didn't say anything else, but began washing my hair. He rinsed my hair out, then did the same for himself and moved onto our bodies. His hands managed to make me relax and get tired all over again, so he quickly finished washing the both of us off and pulled me out of the shower.

I let him dry me off too and he carried me to the closet. He grabbed one of my looser pairs of sweats and slid those on himself, grabbing me a pair of briefs and helping me put them on. He chose one of Benji's shirts that he gave me, and slid it over my head, pulling my arms through the arm holes.

Kian turned the light off and picked me up, carrying me to the couch and sitting. He turned me around on his lap, so that my side was against his chest, my bare legs sitting over his right thigh.

Dom got up and sat next to us, grabbing my hand. I smiled at him and he leaned forward to kiss my cheek, rubbing my hand. Benji then moved and sat on Kian's left, behind me. He hugged my waist and kissed my shoulder. Rami reached over Dom and grabbed my hand, gently squeezing it.

"Do you want to explain what happened to you?" He asked and I nodded.

"I'll tell you guys now." I looked down at my lap.

"Do you guys remember Alec?" The guys nodded, "Well, after the meeting with the whole gang, I asked Alvaro if I could go down to the cells just to look around since I hadn't been down there before. Ali and Enzo said no, but Antonio, Alejandro, Charlie, Walter, and I snuck down there through another entrance. I searched for Alec and found him."

"I asked him if he knew why we found two of Mauricio's men even though we killed them all that day. As he was beginning to explain, Amir, Alvaro, and Enzo found me. Amir and Ali tried pulling me to leave, but I fought back, telling them that Alec knew why. Since Jordy and Noah were down there too, they started laughing because I was getting in trouble. They started banging on the bars of their cells, then started throwing stuff. Alvaro grabbed me so I tried fighting back again. I'm not sure if the noises that Jordy and Noah were making, plus the fighting against Alvaro overwhelmed me, but I started panicking. It's like I started having a panic attack and flashbacks at the same time."

"What did you see?" Dom asked me as he rubbed my legs.

"I-I started seeing the day Alvaro, Felix, and I were on a mission three years back. It was when the enemy threw the grenade on those bins and they exploded...I s-swear it felt like it was that day all over again. I could hear the explosion in the background, then it switched to that day. I-It felt like I had Mauricio's arm around me a-again and I could just see Enzo, Kai, Quincy, and the others standing far away from us. I heard Mauricio's voice above me, but it sounded muffled, then it all went black a few seconds after."

I hadn't realized that I was crying until Kian wiped my cheeks. I squeezed my eyes closed and laid my head against Kian's chest.

"It all felt so real and I-I couldn't breathe until Enzo called me. It's as if hearing his v-voice just snapped me back to reality and I was just able to breathe again a-and..." My body started trembling on its own and I clutched onto Kian, whining, "I can't b-breathe..."

The same weight from earlier reappeared on my chest and I cried out. I closed my eyes and heard the ringing in my ears again, watching flashes of explosions appear in my head.

"Stop...Stop it..." I hit my head and that seemed to make the flashes go away a bit.

I hit myself harder, but gasped when I felt hands grab my arms. I opened my eyes and looked at Dom's face.

"Xavier, you're ok." He let go of my arms and rubbed the front of my chest, "Just take slow, deep breaths."

I did as he said and slowly relaxed. He gently hugged me and I placed my head under his chin, looking at Rami, then Enzo. He whimpered sadly and I crawled over Rami to hug my puppy. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me onto his lap.

"Daddy, are you ok?" I heard Quincy ask from the bed and looked back, watching him rub his eyes before looking at me.

"Yes, baby, I'm ok. You can go back to sleep." I gave him a small smile.

"We'll go back to sleep when you do, Master." Levi then said and Milo, Kai, and Quincy nodded.

"It's late and we have school tomorrow. I'll join you guys in a bit and-"

"You're not going to school, Xavier." I heard Benji say.

"Why not? I'm not just not gonna go because of what happened to me. Look at me, I'm fine now!" I said with annoyance clear in my voice.

"You're clearly not if you had two episodes within three hours. Just take tomorrow off and you can go back to school on Friday, unless you want a four day weekend?" Rami kissed my shoulder and turned my head so that I would look at him.

"How about this, I'll go to school for the rest of the week because I said I'm fine?!" I crossed my arms.

"Xavier, we're being serious." Dom said behind me and I nodded, moving off of Rami's lap.

"And I'm being serious about me being ok." I looked at him, then at the other guys, waiting for them to say something. They didn't so I smiled, "Good, then we agree that I'll be going to school."

I walked into the bathroom and did my night routine, then walked back into the bedroom. I crawled into bed and closed my eyes, hearing the guys sigh. I felt their lips land on my head and pull away after a few seconds.

"Goodnight, guys..." I heard the room door gently close and sighed.

I was honestly exhausted again from that...episode or whatever, but I felt like something was going to happen for some reason. I pulled the sheets over my shoulders and sighed, clutching onto the pillow. There was movement on the bed and I heard the noise of water running come from the bathroom. It stopped after a few minutes and I felt the bed dip, but I kept my eyes closed.

I felt two warm bodies move in front and behind me so I opened my eyes. The room was now dark, but I could tell that Levi was behind me and Kai was in front of me. I closed my eyes again and tried going to sleep, but I couldn't.

For the next two hours, I struggled to go to sleep. I knew that the boys had fallen asleep since I could hear their soft, even breaths. It didn't make sense to me how I couldn't sleep, but then I started thinking about earlier.

I asked Alec if he knew why we had found two of Mauricio's men a few days before...

"He had another, much smaller warehouse with only about a hundred men. Mauricio made sure that they were prepared in case he died, but he knew he was going to-"

Mauricio knew he was going to die in the end? But I thought that he wanted me to be his? But why did he want me if in the end he was just going to die? And what about the other warehouse, who did he leave in charge to take care of the men?

"Mauricio knew he was going to die so he left his si-"

Did he leave his sister in charge? Does he even have a sister? We killed his second in command when the gang and I went to his warehouse that day. There was no one left behind that day and Cruz, and everyone else made sure of it.

Maybe Amir knows if Mauricio has a sister. He seems to know a lot about him which is a bit odd. He somehow knew that Mauricio wasn't able to care for two warehouses, but how would he know?

I would probably ask him at some point, but one thing's for sure, Mauricio left someone behind to take care of the second warehouse, and I wonder who that would be...

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The man threw the grenade right where Alvaro and Felix were. I couldn't move. I tried calling out to them, but the next thing I knew, the grenade exploded.

"Alvaro! Felix!" It went black...

I watched my friends and three of my lovers begin to walk away.

"Actually...now that I think about it, Xavier will find a way to kill me. So if I can't have him, nobody can."

"No-"

"I love you, guys..." I smiled at my family.

I heard the loud deafening ring before blacking out a second later as I felt pain rush through my left side...

I woke up crying. I sat up and looked at the clock. It was past four and I had fallen asleep two hours ago. I moved out of bed and went to the closet. I threw on a loose hoodie, sweats, and slid some shoes on. I grabbed my phone and keys, looking at the boys sleeping in bed. I smiled softly and slipped out of the room without making a noise.

Walking downstairs, I opened the front door and gently closed it. I hopped in my car and drove to the gate, waving at Damian who was in charge of the second shift.

"Where are you going, Capo?"

"I can't sleep so I'm just going to drive for a while." I smiled tiredly and he nodded, opening up the gates.

I drove away, but didn't know where to go. I hadn't noticed that I stopped until I parked in front of an empty trail. Getting out of the car, I walked down a path and followed it, kicking rocks and pushing branches out of the way. The path finally opened up after a while and I looked up, noticing that I was standing on top of a hill.

I softly gasped and smiled, seeing the sun rising in the horizon. Up ahead, there was a huge field of flowers of all kinds. There were all types of colors and kinds. I could feel the soft, chilly breeze of the morning and sighed, dropping to the floor. I stared at all the different kinds of colors and watched the sun, not realizing that there were tears running down my cheeks.

I made myself comfortable and sat down on the soft, green grass, watching the rest of the sun rise. I watched the flowers move and dance with the wind as a breeze would pass by. The flowers looked super pretty and bright. I wanted to be with them so I got up and walked down the hill, stopping at the bottom of the hill.

The flowers looked even prettier as I got closer so I began running through the field, laughing with tears in my eyes. I gasped and sighed, breathing in all the flower smells. I slowed in front of a deep purple-colored flower, plucking if from its friends. I smiled and looked back up at the sun, seeing that it was higher up.

I sat down and played with the flower in my hand, looking around the field and at all the other pretty flowers around me. I closed my eyes and felt all the stress, tension, and anxiety leave my body.

All of my worries left my body and the flashbacks from before disappeared. I felt like I was floating and free. I could breathe deeper and relax, feeling at ease in the field of flowers and hills surrounding it. I yawned and laid down, deciding to take a nap.

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Milo's POV:

"He's not anywhere in the house, Dom." Levi whined and held Quincy closer.

"Do you remember him leaving the bed?" Benji then asked, but Enzo shook his head.

"No, we were all asleep and we didn't hear him leave the bed or anything."

"We don't even know how long he's been gone for, guys." Kian said across from me and Rami nodded.

"We can ask Damian if he saw him. Xavier's car and keys aren't here, so he must've drove somewhere."

They all nodded and we walked out of the house to go to the front gate. After fifteen minutes of walking, we finally reached the gate and Damian stepped out of the guard booth.

"Good morning, Don." He nodded at Enzo, then us.

"Hey, Damian. By any chance, have you seen Xavier leave?"

The older man nodded, "Yes, Don. It was almost five in the morning when Xavier drove by here. I asked where he was going, but he just said that he couldn't sleep so he was going to drive around for a while. I haven't seen him since."

"Alright, Damian, thank you." Enzo nodded and we walked away, "He's been gone for six hours, how much is a while for him?!"

"We have to tell Amir and Alvaro, right?" Kai asked with a frown and Enzo nodded.

"We're gonna have to."

I walked slower and checked my phone, knowing that Xavier was sleeping with flowers around him. It made me sad seeing him cry until he got to the middle of the field. He looked so relaxed and calm when he sat down. He just stared at the sun and held the flower in his hands until he laid down to sleep from the exhaustion.

I knew he was going to have trouble sleeping last night after the episode he had in the room. He looked so tired and scared. Even though he tried reassuring us that he was ok, I knew that he was scared that he was going to have another flashback.

"Come on, Milo." I looked up and saw Dom looking back at me.

I smiled and put my phone away, grabbing his hand and following the others. When we reached Amir's house, Enzo rang the doorbell and Amir opened the door after a few seconds.

"Yes?" He looked at us, but straightened up when he didn't see Xavier, "Where is he?"

"We don't know." Enzo finally broke down and Amir picked him up, allowing us to step inside his house.

Now, everyone was here. Alvaro, Felix, Manuel, Gio, Marco, and Eddie were all in Amir's house. Levi explained that when he and the others woke up to get ready for school, Xavier was missing from the bed. Xavier's phone and keys were gone from the nightstand, too, and he ran to wake up Dom, Benji, the twins, and I, panicking about Xavier not being there.

We had all checked the house, but we obviously didn't find him. Enzo then explained that we had asked Damian and he said that Xavier left before five in the morning, and now we didn't know where he was.

"Maybe he's with those two friends from last time? I think it was Nate and Finn?" Benji asked and Felix nodded.

"I'll give Alex a call and see if he can ask Nate if he's seen Xavier." Felix pulled his phone out and less than ten minutes later, he hung up the phone, shaking his head, "They haven't seen him since a few months back. Have you guys asked Mason, Tristan, and Kody?"

Quincy nodded, "I called them during their lunch and they said they haven't seen him since yesterday."

"Can't you track his phone?" Rami asked from beside me, but Gio shook his head.

"Xavier somehow managed to block all of us and the team of people at the warehouse from tracking his phone. We're not sure how he managed to do it, but he's always had it like that ever since he first joined us." He explained, then sat up, "Did you call his family?"

"Yeah, I called Jace, too, but they haven't seen him since June." Kai said briefly and looked down.

I checked my phone again and saw that I still had no update from the crew on Xavier waking up.

What did you expect? He's exhausted, obviously he's going to take advantage of sleeping when he's finally feeling calm.

"Why haven't you said anything, Milo?" I heard Marco question me as I turned my phone off.

I looked up at him and shrugged. "I don't think we should be worried. Xavier's strong and he can take care of himself, so I know that he's fine."

Eddie looked at me and searched my face, looking into my eyes. "You're too calm, you know something."

"No, I just know that he's ok. He'll come back home, plus, he ran away before and came back. I trust him enough to know that he'll come back again."

My phone vibrated again and Gio glanced down at it, squinting at me. "Who are you texting?"

"Friends." I held myself back from checking my phone so I tucked it away in my pocket.

"Mason, Tristan, Kody, are at school. There's no way you have other friends since I know that you're the type of person to have a couple of friends." He moved closer and I raised my brow.

"And what if I have other friends that nobody knows about?"

"Does Dom know who they are?" Gio looked beside me.

"No..."

Dom sat up and looked at me. "Milo?"

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