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The next morning was the worst. It took me a few minutes to realize that he wasn't coming back. When realization hit me,I almost broke down in tears again. Yoonha was still sleeping,and I knew it would hit her the hardest. She'd have to move in with her aunt since her mother was out of the picture. Her and her father had a very close relationship,they did almost everything and anything together.

Walking into the kitchen,I start to pulling out everything I would need to make for breakfast. Luckily for me,they didn't really eat the classic Korean breakfast,so I made Yoonha some scrambled eggs and a few pieces of bacon,knowing she wouldn't have her usual big appetite. I wrote down a note,telling her that I still had practice in the afternoon despite not going to class today.

I bumped into someone on my way home,making me drop my bag. "Oh,I am so sorry,I wasn't looking where I was going" She seems pretty nervous. From the looks of her outfit,she might have a job interview. "You seem pretty nervous,do you have a job interview today? Perhaps it's your first day at work?" She nods at me "How'd you guess?" "I have a few tricks up my sleeve. I better go,though. It was nice to meet you.." I pause,waiting for her name. "Sejeong, Kim Sejeong." "Well,good luck for today Kim Sejeong" I say as I walk away. "But I didn't catch your name!" I hear her yell. "That's because I didn't throw it!"

When I finally got home, I looked at my phone to see that Yoonha sent a text thanking me for the breakfast. I send her one back saying that it was no problem. I then call sehun.

"Hello?" "Hey Sehun,it's me,Kai" "Oh Kai,where are you? We're all waiting for you." Time to break the news. "I'm not coming today. And before you ask why,I'm still mourning and I have practice in the afternoon,so I would've left anyway.'' "Alright,take care of yourself and don't hesitate to call." We both hung up after that and I went back to preparing my stuff for practice,which starts in 3 hours but I needed to distract myself. I was almost done,when my phone rang. I look at the screen. '"Pretty boy🐻" is calling' it said. I answer the call after a few rings.

"Hey" "Hey,how are you holding up?" "I could be better" We stay silent for a while. However,its' not one of those uncomfortable awkward moments,it's the kind of silence you wanna bask in forever.  "Oh god,I just noticed I didn't turn on my camera. Give me a second." I felt embarrassed,his camera was on the whole time and I didn't notice. Good job,Kai. You made a fool of yourself in front of the boy you like. "Moony? Moonyyy~" I blanked out,again. "Sorry,I was in my own world for a second. So,what do I owe the pleasure of you calling me when it's so late at night over there?" He stays silent for a few seconds,before responding with the most genuine voice. "I missed you" He missed me? "I also wanted to check up on you. I know how much he meant to you." "I'm fine." I see the skeptical look on his face. That's understandable,I don't believe myself either.

"No,seriously. I'm fine. I made Yoonha some breakfast before leaving,I took a day off from school and I'm going to practice in.." I look at the time,seeing I only have an hour left. Guess time really flies by when you enjoy yourself. "about an hour. By the way,I was putting my stuff together for said practice when you interrupted me. What do you have to say for yourself?" I playfully ask him,putting a serious face on. "Well,Moony,I was being a good friend" There it is,that word. Friend. "I wanna be more than just your friend" I mumble. "Huh, what did you just say?" Crap! 'Nothing important. I just realized that I really need to hang up now,I still got stuff to do and I need to get changed." Nice save,dumbass. "Alright,bye Moony. Call me after practice,okay?" "Got it,bye Pretty boy!" "Bye!"

I finally got to finish my bag and got changed. I was dreading the ice today. I feel as if I won't do well and I'll just end up embarrassing myself for the third time today. Taking my bag and putting in my earbuds,I head out of my apartment,locking the door behind me. I then start walking in the direction of the bus stop. When the bus arrives, I pay quickly and immediately dart for a seat in the back,I was not dealing with anyone's shit today.  Looking out the window felt great. It felt as if everything was okay,because to those people outside,those strangers,nothing happened.

As I finish lacing up my skates,I look around the arena. Not a lot of people were there,only me,my coach and some of her other prodigees. After a few minutes of hesitating,I tie my hair up and get on the ice.

"Alright,good work team!" Coach says. "Reminder that qualifications are in 3 weeks,so make sure you're ready by then." "Alright,Coach." "You got it,Coach" "Got it!" We then all step off the rink,heading towards the locker rooms. "You'll never make it through qualifications,Smith" That's Hak Sohye,your resident mean girl. She's very competitive. My guess is that she wants to make her rich - ABSENT - parents notice her. I have to hand it to her,she's great on the ice,but she sucks on the inside. "Well,wicked witch of the West,there's a reason as to why Coach Park flew me out here as a 13 years old,isn't there?" She huffs at my response and turns back to her stuff. "Ha! That was a good one Malakai!" I hear Yang Boram say. She was considered one of the 'top 3' as the others say,along with Sohye and I. I packed my bag and hurry myself out in silence.

As soon as I unlocked the door,I texted Yoonha to check up on her. She answered in less than a minute,so I guess I'd see her at school in a few days. I then called Myung,as promised. "Come on pretty boy..pick up.." I mutter to myself. "Hello?" he says with a tired voice. A pretty deep voice actually. "I finished practice,and you wanted me to call you when I was done so..." "I forgot about that for a second,it's around 2AM over here." What!? "2AM?! Let me hang up so I can let you sleep and-" "No,no,it's okay. I told you to call me anyway,it's my fault." "Pretty boy,I'm going to hang up and you're going to sleep,got it?" He chuckles before saying "Got it,boss" We hang up shortly after that.

I finally changed after puttingy skating gear away,before looking at my afterschool schedule. Monday: Skating practice. Tuesday: School dance practice. Wednesday: XD Crew dance practice. Thursday: Skating practice. Friday: XD Crew dance practice. Saturday I had about 6 to 7 hours at the rink and on Sundays I was free.

I fell asleep on my bed,after completing the work I had missed in class,which Taehwan – a mutual friend and classmate of Yoonha and I – had the kindness of bringing me.

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