Oh god, I hope he doesn't find this. Or I hope he does and he realizes how much I went threw at that time.

On the first day of Pre-K I meant someone. On the second, I had a friend. On the third, I had a best friend. On the fourth, I developed a crush.

There was this guy, let's say his name is Oliver. Because it's completely random.

And he was my big time crush. In third grade I should've gotten what he meant.

In third grade he said, and I quote "There are only two boring kids that play with me at recess," he meant me and my friend.

Now why I gave my friend the note to put in his locker, I dunno, but she epically failed. And he figured out the note was from me.

And we never spoke again. Accept for when I had my kindle out on the bus.

This is all because of my friends. They pressured me into doing it, and I did it.

A few weeks before 4th grade I figured out that my mom was moving out. My parents were getting divorced.

And guess what? All during school they pressured me, and when usually I'd get straight A's, I got my second C ever.

But 4 very important people helped me. Zoey, Kylii, Kendall, and I don't know if I can say her name.

Now, (Julie, we'll call her) is one of the kindest people ever. But my fear, my fear is, I'll lose her. Oliver was nice, funny, not the most attractive, did I mention he has pink hair now?

He made me a gamer, someone who didn't just sit inside playing minecraft, he actually showed me lots of games.

He gave me my sarcastic humor. My humor in general.

Without him, my soul would be the most boring soul.

Julie gave me manners, I started chewing with my mouth closed.

Julie gave me candies. Because, while she got packed lunches, I got school gruel, their pizza tasted like dirty sock!

See they've given me things, that changed me so, I just don't want to lose her.

But I've went through the worst with Zoey, Kylii, and Kendall.

Kendall moved away, and I didn't see him for a year, plus we almost broke up, (we're now together) Kylii stole Zoey in the middle of my soccer game, Zoey went heartless for months, and Kylii's step sister is out to kill me and change my best friends for the worst!

Zoey's cried on my shoulder, I loved to walk around and rant about things with Kendall, Me and Kylii used to hate each other!

But according to my friends, opposites do attract.

I thought about cutting, but nothing dragged me that low, and I stayed unharmed. Unless you count the time I tried to give myself a black eye.