Mirror

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I kissed her lips, letting her scent intoxicate me.

One... two... three...

I moved my mouth to cover both her lips, upper and lower, side to side.

She wasn't moving, so I stopped and pulled myself away.

I looked at her. She stared back, her eyes fluttering at me.

"Sorry, masyado ba akong mabilis? Do you want me to-"

Umiling lang siya, looking down the ground. "That was my first kiss. You're my first kiss, Maxwell."

An involuntary smile crept up my face. I had always loved the way she called me Maxwell. Siya lang naman ang tumatawag sa akin non.

Ballerine craned her neck up, facing me again. "What? Are you mocking me?"

I continued to chuckle. "Ang cute lang. Ako pala ang first kiss mo."

She pouted, turning around and marching away from me.

Agad ko siyang sinundan at hinila ang kamay niya kaya napatigil siya.

"What?" she whined.

"Iiwan mo talaga ako? Matigas na 'to," I gritted my teeth at her, begging my life in her mercy.

Her gaze went down to my crouch, my damn hard crotch. "You're a big boy now, Maxwell. Kaya mo na ang sarili mo," she finished, tapping my shoulder.

I bit my lip, para pigilan ang sarili kong sumigaw. "Bal-le-rine Cas-til-lo," I muttered her name by syllable.

She chuckled, obviously teasing me. "Catch me if you can."

When she started running away, wala na akong choice kung hindi ang habulin siya. She ran up the stairs, hanggang sa makarating kami sa tapat ng kwarto niya.

"Are you coming in?" she even taunted, wiggling her index finger up at my direction.

"Bakit hindi nalang sa kwarto ko?" I mumbled.

"Because I know your room is messy and I hate messy," she pointed out.

I sighed. Bago pa magbago ang isip niya at bago pa may makakita sa akin, agad akong pumasok sa kwarto niya na dating guest room namin.

My own reflection welcomed my sight as I stared back at the wall-to-wall mirror on the side of the room.

Dati ko nga pala itong gym room kaya may malaking salamin dito.

"I told your dad na iwan ang mirror dito sa room ko," Ballerine started to speak, moving close to me as she looked at our reflections in the mirror.

"Bakit? May ginagawa ka ba ditong kababalaghan?" panunukso ko.

She slapped my arm. "No, silly! I usually practice my ballet form and I need a mirror to see it."

I nodded, facing her. "Bakit gustung-gusto mo ang ballet?"

"You know mom used to be a ballerina, right?" she asked me and I nodded again. "She influenced me and Ate Bri since we were kids. My dream is to star in a ballet show with mom watching me on the front row."

I cupped her face with my hands and planted a kiss on her forehead. "Alam kong matutupad mo na rin yan sooner or later."

She smiled. "How about you? Ano ang dream mo?"

I kissed her nose, before answering her. "Dream ko ay ang maging masaya ang mga taong nasa paligid ko."

She scrunched her nose at me. "Really? That's it? That's so cheesy."

I ignored her remark as I buried my lips on her cheek next. "Lahat ng gusto ko nasa akin na. I can't ask for anything more. Baka sabihin pa ni Lord abusado na ako."

She let out a soft chuckle. "Well, that's true naman. You have good friends, family and now, you have-"

I kissed her lips, stopping her from speaking. This time, she tried to move hers with mine, following my rhythm.

When I finally entered inside her mouth, I searched for her tongue. She was static at first, but I guided her until we were in sync.

My hands travelled from her face down to her neck and shoulders. I untied her robe, exposing her pink bikini from earlier.

In that same moment, I managed to remove her bikini top.

I stopped kissing her to admire her gorgeous body. She looked like a sculpture I wanted to steal from a museum.

No words could describe how perfect she is.

"Do I look... fat?" she suddenly asked, her tone seemingly worried for some reason. Parang naiilang siya na tinititigan ko ang katawan niya.

"You look perfect, love," I simply answered.

I moved closer to her again and started to kiss the side of her neck. My chest was sweating as I felt her mounds gliding through my skin.

"Shit. I want you now," I demanded, pushing her bikini bottom down her legs. But, I knew I had to loosen her up a bit. I wanted to make her feel safe, lalo pa at first time niya ito.

"N-Now?" she seemed scared, so I tried to slow my pace.

Nilagay ko ang mga kamay ko sa kanyang balikat at hinarap siya sa salamin. Now, we were both looking at our reflections again.

"Do you trust me?" I whispered, kissing her ear.

She nodded.

I smiled. "Because I'm not going to use any protection. And at any point na gusto mong tumigil, just say stop and I will."

Kumurap ang mga mata niya. "You're not going to use condom?"

Shaking my head, I spoke, "I want you to feel all of me."

"But, are we going to be safe?" Rinig ko ang kaba sa kanyang boses.

I kissed her chin, assuring her. "You're safe with me."

She finally nodded. "Okay."

When I finally got her permission, I started kissing her again. This time, I played with her mounds in sync. Hinalikan ko ang mga labi niya na ngayon ay sumasabay na rin sa akin.

I really want her now. I was already throbbing down there. I just wanted to enter her cave. But, I needed to take it slow.

Malapit na akong sumabog. Tangina mo, Logan. Pigilan mo ang sarili mo.

It was so damn hard fighting with my desire and inner thoughts.

"Ah..." she moaned shyly.

Napangiti ako dahil ang cute niyang tignan ngayon. I didn't think she could act all shy now that we were doing it. She had always been acting flirty, trying to seduce me before.

My hands crawled down to her waist... to her legs... in between her thighs... until I found her sensitive area down there. Hinaplos ko ang palibot ng kanyang pagkababae. That's when I realized she was already soaked.

I smirked. Damn you, Ballerine. Mukhang hindi lang ako ang atat na sakupin siya.

I dug my finger inside her, thrusting and feeling her in. She kept moaning, so I kissed her again to shut her up. Mahirap na at baka marinig kami ng mga kasama namin dito sa bahay.

I sucked on her mound while still feeling her core with my fingers.

"Does it feel good?" I mumbled, looking up to see her face.

"Ugh... yes..." she moaned louder.

"Love, huwag masyadong maingay," I reminder her. "Baka marinig tayo sa kabilang kwarto."

She pressed her lips together as I knelt down infront of her. "M-Maxwell, what are you doing?" She asked nervously.

I gave her a small smile as I leaned closer to her damp entrance. Sinimulan kong halikan ang kanyang hiyas habang hinahaplos ng daliri ko ang palibot nito.

Her moans kept turning me on, and making me want to do more things to her.

"Ipatong mo ang binti mo sa akin," utos ko.

"What?" Nalilitong tanong niya.

"I said lift your leg up, love," inulit ko. Hinawakan ko ang kanang binti niya saka ko tinapik ang aking balikat.

She did as I told her, giving me more access to her slick folds. Hinalikan ko nang paulit-ulit ang kanyang pagkababae at nag-iwan rin ako ng marka sa palibot nito.

"Aahh, Maxwell! That hurts!" She slapped my shoulder.

I slowed down, trying to calm her. "Sorry, love, masakit ba?"

"No... it's okay..." she mumbled.

Tumayo akong muli saka ko siya hinalikan sa labi. "Sigurado kang gusto mong ituloy?" I asked her again.

She nodded her head, so I lifted her up in my arms and carried her all the way to her bed. I continued kissing her lips to assure her that I wouldn't hurt her.

"Are you not going to use your thing?" She asked, looking down at my boxers. "You're obviously hard now, Maxwell."

Napangisi ako sabay baba ng suot kong boxers. "Ready ka na?"

Ballerine's eyes fluttered as she stared at my masculinity. "Wow, that's..."

Tumango ako. "I know, I'm blessed."

She bit her lower lip, making me lose my mind. Hinalikan ko siya ulit habang minamasahe ko ang dibdib niya. I took this chance to rub my hard member on her moist passage. Damn, my heart was already beating so fast. Parang sasabog na talaga ako.

"Ahhh, stop, it hurts..." she suddenly let out, a tear escaping from her eye.

"Shit." Agad kong tinigil ko ang paggalaw sa ibabaw niya kahit na gustung-gusto ko pang ituloy. "Love, okay ka lang?"

I kissed the corner of her eye, trying to comfort her. Ayaw kong napipilitan lang siyang gawin ito para sa akin.

"Love, I'm sorry. Ititigil ko na," I panicked, wrapping her in my arms instead.

Umiling siya sa akin. "No, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I can't do it. It hurts so much."

"Sshh, huwag kang mag-sorry." I caressed her head, kissing the side of her face. "Mahal na mahal kita, Ballerine."

"I love you the same, Logan," sagot niya habang umiiyak pa rin.

Ang sakit ng ulo ko nang gabing iyon, pero walang kaso ito sa akin. Basta ang alam ko lang ay maswerte ako dahil katabi kong matulog ang babaeng pinakamamahal ko.

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Ballerina

Today 4:35 pm

I'm bleeding so much

Logan

I'm scared

love

relax ka lang

How can I relax?

I don't get my periods

It's been years

Am I pregnant?

love hindi kita pinasok kagabi

hindi ka mabubuntis

puntahan kita mamaya

balik na ako sa practice

i love you

Okay

I love you too

Binalik ko ang aking cellphone sa aking bag bago bumalik sa field. Ilang araw na ang nakalipas simula noong nag-aminan kami ni Ballerine.

Nag-aalala rin ako sa kanya dahil dinudugo raw siya simula noong gabing iyon. Wala namang nangyari sa amin, pero kinakabahan pa rin ako.

Matagal na rin akong walang naka-sex kaya hindi ko alam kung normal ba ito sa mga babae o hindi.

Hindi pa ako umuuwi ng bahay simula noon dahil sigurado akong hindi ko na ulit mapipigilan ang sarili ko kapag makita ko si Ballerine doon.

Kaya naman dito lang kami sa university nagkikita. Minsan nga mahirap pa dahil sa magkaiba naman ang schedule ng klase namin. Isama mo pa ang baseball practice at rehearsals niya sa play.

Hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan namin maitatago itong relasyon namin lalo na at nalalapit na ang kasal ni dad at mom ni Ballerine.

Ang tanging naiisip ko nalang ngayon ay ang paghiwalayin sila dahil sigurado naman akong magsasawa rin si dad. Wala namang nagtagal na babae sa kanya.

Habang nag-uunat ako ng aking braso, napatingin ako sa babaeng papalapit sa aming dugout.

She was wearing a cropped white top and low-waisted jeans, exposing her belly button. Her black cap was sitting on top of her head, her long brown hair bouncing as she walked across the field.

Siya ba talaga itong nakikita ko ngayon?

"Captain, hindi ba si Crisha yan?" sambit pa ng isang teammate ko.

I stood there, jaw on the ground when the woman reached me. Ilang taon siyang nawala at ngayon pa talaga siya lilitaw ulit.

Nakakaputangina nga rin naman talaga ang buhay na to.

"Hey, Logan," paunang bati sa akin ng babaeng nakatayo sa aking harapan.

She looked exactly the same as when I last saw her...

The day she left her daughter to me.