Here again is the most annoying noise disrupting the process to sleep .I don't know where this noise is coming from, the sleeping pills gave me no enthusiasm to go and check it out, it's already the third time this week. I rarely sleep nowadays and my condition is deteriorating as I could no longer distinguish between my dream and reality. When I sleep, the dreams are my reality, it was my life until I wake up to my real life and the dream affects me for the rest of the day. I haven't slept for days, sleeping pills had no effect on me which left my psychiatrist with concern. I am always in a daze at my workplace which my boss hated.

Tonight I did not take any pills as I waited for the noise to be heard but I was left in silence which infuriated me. 
I layed down in bed and I couldn't sleep a wink. My parents of course don't know about my condition, to them their daughter is living abroad and earning well, living a well off life. Oh how I wish, each day and night felt the same,it was hell and now this noise. I am so tired of everything.

Sometimes I just wanted to go back to my hometown, hug my mom and cry like hell but I don't want to worry her. I wanted her to be happy and free from all the worries. The first streaks of dawn strayed past the window hitting my face. Once again, I was awake the whole night. I got up from my bed and carried out my morning routine and went to work as usual. Yelling of boss,pity eyes of others everything was the same and usual. People often pitied me and assumed that I was dealing with depression as my eye bags increased,my tired face and dull dress revealed everything. Everyone's life seemed so colourful where as I was stuck in a black and white world.

I went back home as I layed myself trying to sleep but then the noise was heard again. I rushed towards my window and looked at the streets, nothing. But then I saw someone burying something in my neighbour's garden. I couldn't believe my eyes as that house had been abandoned for years and many chose not to buy or enter it as it was considered unlucky. I reported it to the police as they took their leisure time to arrive.

They found no signs of trespassing and their doubts turned upon me, they inquired about a few things and I had to reveal about insomnia and how it disturbs me and the police just chuckled.

"It's all in your head".

I was heartbroken. I felt my feelings were not valid to them but I uttered no words as they left. I went back home and I was puzzled. Am I really imagining things now? I was scared of everything. It felt as if everything was a dream. As if I was trapped. I couldn't sleep a wink and I booked an appointment with my psychiatrist in hope for some answers.

"In severe cases of insomnia hallucination is possible and in your case miss lily it definetly is".

My mind was blank as I couldn't process, am I that sick ?
If only I could sleep maybe it would have not worsen. She prescribed some meds and concern were written all over her face , I thanked her and left. Tonight laying on my bed and staring at the ceiling, I couldn't believe myself, what I see nor what I hear. I tried my best to sleep. But here I am sitting near the window and witnessing the sun rise. I sighed as I gave up. No matter how much I try I could not sleep.

But tonight I felt the medicines working as drowsiness kicked in but then the noise came back. I covered my ears and I could still hear it, someone digging with a shovel. I started crying as I was scared with shaky legs I reached to my window to my horror a guy was burying something , which more looked like a dead body.He was mysterious as he hid his face behind a mask. My legs gave up as I fell on my knees trembling.

I could not believe my eyes. I could not believe myself. But I wanted to follow my gut feeling so I rushed outside.

I ran towards the garden and hid behind a fence and looked but then to my astonishment there was no one. There were no signs of trespassing , the ground looked even . I gasped hard as I started running back, Am I really going crazy ?

To be continued