Today has been a very sad day. Cynthia passing away has come as a huge surprise to me this morning. Waking up and hearing she's gone has really broken my heart. She was a beautiful woman with a strong heart. She delt with raising Julian practically alone and had to push her anger, sadness, regrets and frustration to the side when her and John split.

Today I got her book, "John" in the mail. Going into it I'm quite excited but sad at the fact she's no longer with us. The pain has subsided for me and I am now appreciating her life. She deserves the recognition and respect that everyone seems to only give to Yoko. Both women played a key role in John's life.

I'm still taken back at the fact our lovely Cyn is no longer with us. I hope she's up there with John, having a chat. Then she can bop him upside the head for being foolish all those years lol.

But in all seriousness, Rest In Peace Cynthia. You're so beautiful. Stay strong Julian. I think he's the one that must be feeling heartbroken inside.
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