Percy's point of view

I was with Amber in her apartment, we'd started out watching a movie, but our attention had gone from the movie to each other and we were kissing passionately. As we kissed I knew I wasn't as into it as I would normally be. I didn't think Amber had realized yet, or if she had she hadn't stopped to say anything. While my feelings for Amber hadn't changed I still had one nagging thought in the back of my mind. That thought was, I shouldn't be here.

No matter how much I wanted to still be with Amber I knew that she was nearly two months pregnant, and by still coming to see her I was technically putting her and the baby in danger. I knew I didn't want her to get hurt but I also loved Amber a lot and I didn't know if I would be able to bring myself to leave her. She was so important to me, and obviously so was our baby but I didn't want to have to abandon her, I'd seen firsthand how hard it had been for my mom to raise me on her own, but I knew that before long I would have basically no choice but to put Amber through the exact same thing with our baby.

I also didn't want to hurt her like Annabeth had me but no matter how much I thought about it I didn't see any other options. by staying monsters could find Amber, or Zeus could find out and I got the feeling he wouldn't be too pleased if he found out I was breaking the ancient laws. I knew he certainly wouldn't let me off the hook if he found out considering that he doesn't seem to care about his kids that much. At worst he'd punish me by hurting Amber and, or the baby, at best the punishment would fall on me, but I got the feeling that Zeus would probably take it out on Amber.

I've never really liked Zeus that much for obvious reasons, he may have let me become a god but I was sure that he still wasn't all that fond of me. I got the feeling that most of the other gods weren't particularly fond of Zeus either but I knew they could no longer do anything to unseat him since they were bound by oaths of loyalty to him. I knew what I would have to do to protect Amber from him but I knew it would be hard for me to do since I loved her so much and really didn't want to leave her.

I knew I couldn't do it that night though, I would have to do it the next time I visit her I wasn't sure how I would do it but I knew I had to, I would have to force myself to do the one thing that I normally would never do because I definitely didn't want Amber or our baby to get hurt. I stayed with Amber that night, but the choice I'd made was still fresh in my mind as I knew what I would have to do, I just wasn't sure how I would force myself to do it.

Amber never questioned me about why I wasn't as into our relationship as I was before she told me she was pregnant. I didn't know if she hadn't noticed or if she just hadn't asked about it yet, whatever the case I knew our relationship was just about over no matter how much I wanted to stay with her and support her through her pregnancy, and then help her after the baby is born I knew that was out of the question since I couldn't risk putting her in danger any longer.