"I don't want to go among mad people," Alice remarked.
"Oh, you can't help that," said the Cat: "we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad."
"How do you know I'm mad?" said Alice.
"You must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."

-Alice in wonderland

KYLO REN'S POV:

"You are becoming weak..." Snoke's raspy and deep voice stated.

He had called me in this morning, making me leave Cora.

She slept the entire night, whimpering in her sleep.

I understood why she acted the way she did...

just imagine it.

If you've never felt emotions other than anger, and pain...and you suddenly feel this, feeling that is nothing you have ever experienced. Everything you know is changed because you don't know what you're feeling.

Like me- Cora has been trained since birth to be a killer, but Cora had never been exposed to anything. She had lived in the same ship, in the same room, only going down to planets to brutally murder strangers. She never had anyone to talk to, and from what I can see...she was hurt. Hurt, anger, pain and rage bring out the dark side.

Cora is as dark as it gets.

She lived her life as a robot, and then suddenly...she begins to feel human.

I couldn't imagine what she was feeling.

But this compassion, I was feeling, it's a weakness....

I clenched my jaw, keeping myself from denying the truth.
.

"Emotionally." He finished, and I looked up from the leather in my gloves. My eyes connecting with his beady black ones.

"Cora...is distracting you." He said, no emotion through the lace in his voice, his face a monotone.

She is.

"I am sending you, with divisions nine, and eleven. You will go alone otherwise. This mission is purely for you to gain...distance."

I swallowed the lump in my throat, "What will I be doing?"

He leaned back in his seat with a hiss, "You will be posted on tattooine. Your mission is to kill anyone and everyone who has a link to Luke Skywalker. Anyone who has even spoke to him in the past hundred years, or so much as looked at him. You will kill."

I nodded, "After that?"

He was becoming impatient, "Go to Endor. You will wait for my orders then."

I took a step back, and began to leave when I turned around.

"Supreme leader...how long will I be gone?"

He slithered a grin, "A long time. You're a killer, Kylo Ren. As is Cora, if killers became close...who would be their prey?"

With that...he was gone.

And little did I know, but the second I left, the second I left Cora...without so much as a goodbye. The second I left...so did every small scrap of my humanity.

CORA'S POV:

He left.

And yet all I felt was anger.

He had held me, comforted me, and this is what I get.

I had bled all my feelings to him, and let him see me vulnerable, and this is what he does to me.

He leaves me, and he didn't say goodbye.

I don't care...I can't care....

Yet I find myself sitting in the middle of the training rooms, alone, trying to meditate...trying to be calm.

When all I feel is anger.

"Cora."

My eyes opened to see General Hux standing before me.

I gave up, calling him the nicknames...what's the point when you're teasing him alone?

"What?" I growled.

He stood straight as a pin, his face permanently scowled.

"You are to train divisions seven and twelve. They will be accompanying you for your next mission."

"Where will my mission be, and when?"

"The planet of Serenno, you will be attacking their capital of Carannia."

"When?" I spat. I didn't need to pretend to put up with this weasel.

"The day after tomorrow."

I thought about it, Serenno was an 'artillery' planet. They have a massive Trooper army, two days isn't enough to train two mediocre divisions, and expect us to win. Especially without...Kylo.

"I want you to take some of the best Stormtroopers from each division. We're going to make a new division, my division."

The creep had the nerve to laugh, "And who, Lord Drakon, gave you the authority, to make such a demand?"

I would not be as emotionally compromised in the situation, as much as I knew I was. I would not give into the feeling of abandonment, as much as I knew I could have. I'm too stubborn for that.

I took a step closer to Hux. Taking in a breath as I lifted my fingers.

My eyes gouged into his, his pale eyes softening, and I felt his persistent mind, bend.

It was just a little, "push in the right direction"

With one final seething look from him, he nodded.

"Fine. I'll have them ready, I already have a few names in mind. You can begin within the hour. Meet in training rooms, at the end of the clock." His orange tinted brows nodded towards the metal clock, hanging above the door.

Using the bit of free time I had, I became lost in my own mind.

He left me. Without a goodbye, or even a decent explanation. I don't know what I did wrong, if I even did anything at all.

I felt a bit of myself crumble, but it wasn't like I actually cared for Kylo. I couldn't care for him, and if I actually did. I wouldn't know what it felt like.

All I know is pain, anger, and now...sadness.

But a...liking for someone, that was completely mental to think I could like Kylo.

He was bipolar, cold, and ruthless...let's just face it...he was basically me.

And yet that person who seemed to actually understand me, and feel with me, feeling compassion for me...he just left.

I'll show him. That fucking attractive asshole. I'll make him see how much I don't need him, how cold I am.

I'll let him have a front row seat, on the cold ruthless killer I am, more so than he's already seen.

He may be a killer...but me? No, I'm a murderer.

And he is my victim.