dear diary,

this is my first time in while writing in here, sorry I havent had enough time while living two lives,

its more difficult than I thought.

firstly, with getting invited to the world festivals kpop competition and being on tour for the first time ever, a lot is happening in this part.

and then I've got my new 'friends' , I mean dont get me wrong most of them are really nice.

but I think suga is trying to blackmail me, (what do you think he wants??)

if he does know who I am then that could be bad news because I moved to this specifically because none of them know who I really am and I really dont want a replay of what happened in my previous school.

I cant even begin to imagine what was going through his head 

flashback

I was walking through school like I normally do tired of all the eyes that were staring at me.

I just continued ignoring them and carried on moving through the school

as I walked to my locker and start to open it, it gets slammed shut.

I jumped a bit due to the noise that the locker made so close to my ears, when I looked at the person it was my science partner, Lucas.

"oh um... hi Lucas, sorry you scared me a bit" I uncomfortably laughed as he was staring at me with very dark and crazy-looking eyes.

he didn't say anything for a while he just stared at me with the same expression and his hand still on the locker that he just smashed shut, looking like a predator hunting their prey.

"a-are y-you okay?" I started getting kind of worried because he's usually really happy and joyful

he didn't say anything 

"oh no... dont tell me..."  

I paused

"you... you l-like m-me" 

(the amount of people I had confessing  to me on a daily basis it was then a part of my daily routine to reject them all because my manager wouldn't allow me to date them)

he finally looked away from me but he looked down, as though he was sad and I knew then that he did, I didn't want to reject him because I was close to him, he was one of my best friends.

"I-I'm sorry Lucas" 

he slammed his hand on the locker

and ran away, I have never seen him since, I was so sad that I didn't go to school, luckily at the time we didn't have any concerts but I was broken I had known him since before I was an idol and he was always by my side and supporting me. 

gosh, that still makes me so sad

hi friends, 

thank you so much for reading this story and I am still S H O O K  over the amount of views I have and I know this is going   to sound extremely cliche and cringey  but its only because of you guys so thanks friends and im sorry this is such a short chapter but the next one will be up soon and it will be longer 

byee friends

xxxxx