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The night is cold, despite the windows being closed. It's not even the fact that the heater isn't on, especially in Jungkook's room. No, it's on. His room is quite room actually, yet it still feels cold. He feels cold himself. His insides feel cold.

Everything feels cold.

By this point, he feels more dead than alive. 

He can't focus, let alone sleep properly, no matter how late in the night it is.

With everything going on, he has tried so hard to keep his shit together. 

In front of the empire that is, after all, he is the face of them.

Doesn't mean he didn't throw a fucking mental fit the second he got to be alone, especially to the wonderful present he received tonight. 

His mind by this point is only circulating with that damn tape Taehyung sent to his computer not too long ago. Jungkook shouldn't have been affected by it, he has a shit ton of things on his plate as it is to deal with, besides it's not something he didn't know of already.

But to have him send that personally, that was a slap across the face.

Confirming it that yes, he's been seeing others while they had whatever fucked up relationship shit they had. 

With none other than his best friend.

To say that it completely destroyed him would be an understatement.

He could feel the pent-up teenager trauma he has held inside for years yearning to escape, wanting to burn the world down to fucking ashes as this finished him off fucking him over.

And maybe it did manage to come out while he threw his damn laptop against the wall, all the while tears burned his eyes despite how desperately he tried to shove it away.

All away, but it didn't work.

The tears that wouldn't stop streaming down his cheeks has now dried up.

Leaving him with that bittersweet taste of numbness as the aftermath.

There's only one thing that circulates his head as he lays down here in his room, feeling his heart going from a blooming rose of red to a tar sickening black. 

Betrayal is sweet.

Too sweet.

Jungkook doesn't even know what to feel anymore, or if he even does feel anything, let alone think. He knows Taehyung is trying to edge him on, especially knowing how close him and Jimin are. 

While using Jimin in his weakest against him.

But that failed to work.

As if anything in this world would ever be strong enough for him to hate Jimin.

Nice try. 

So the moment Jimin got home, Jungkook didn't give Taehyung the satisfaction of being angered or upset with the other man. He smiled at him instead, despite showing his clear reluctant eyes, and told him goodnight.

Yet, even though nothing can make Jungkook hate Jimin, doesn't mean it changes his utter anger towards him.

No words can describe how bad Jungkook wanted to kill him.

At that moment, when he needed his best friend, this happened.

Jungkook wanted to so badly.

But he kept himself still. 

He's walking on a thin string, a very thin string.

He doesn't know how much longer he can hold on before he completely loses himself.

If he hasn't already.

Suddenly he felt the bed sink behind him, a strong arm suddenly wrapped its way around his small waist. He didn't even move, his face being stone serious as he feels the body curl up behind him, with the gun being pressed to his lower spine.

"Just pull the trigger already," Jungkook mumbles, staring ahead to the wall with his heart growing numb, "You'll only be hurting yourself more the longer this continues."

"No, I won't," Taehyung taunts lowly and leans against his ear, "Death is too easy, you deserve to suffer. There's a difference."

Jungkook swallows the lump down his throat and blinks away the stinging of emotions desperately trying to claw its way to his eyes,"You killed Yeosang..... You made Jimin betray me.... You're only going to keep fucking with me. There's no point, I can't kill you, we both know that, you win."

And Jungkook wasn't lying.

He's so broken with the grief of Yeosang, God knows what will happen the following days with Taehyung has in store on making his life an even more living hell than it already is.

It's worth it, he tells himself over and over again whenever he just wants to break and kill the other

It's worth it to suffer.

Just keep being heartless.

Taehyung huffs and turns him around forcefully, making him face the now brunette's angry eyes, "You killed my father-"

"Because I didn't know whether to trust you or not Taehyung!" Jungkook snaps, their voices not going above a whisper, "For all I knew, you could've been giving him information and wouldn't have told me the truth if I asked you! Why choose a gang leader over justice huh?You're not the first person Taehyung, this has happened to me before and I went to jail because I trusted the wrong person! A rat! So excuse me for having trust issues when someone I love is involved in the same equation as a cop!"

Taehyung purses his lips in anger and climbs on top of him and points the gun to his forehead, "You knew how much you meant to me! I wouldn't lie to save my own ass Jungkook!"

He wouldn't- What!

He did not just say that!

Jungkook's lips gapped in shock, "You lied about being an Orchid member to save your own ass! You never mentioned anything about your dad being a cop in the first place, and not just any cop, BUT A FEDERAL AGENT. For what? To save your OWN damn ass! Maybe if I found out about all of this from you, this wouldn't have happened, DON'T YOU THINK?! You knew Harry was going to tell me. It's Harry! And you know I will keep my gang above else to assure their safety BECAUSE I AM THE LEADER AND THEY LOOK UP TO ME! THIS ISN'T SOME SHIT WE CAN JUST TALK ABOUT OVER FUCKING TEA! ITS GANG STUFF TAEHYUNG! WE KILL ANYONE WHO HAS A HIGH CHANCE OF BEING A THREAT TO US! F-Fuck WHY WEREN'T YOU HONEST WITH ME!" Jungkook finally snaps and latches his hand to the length of the gun with cold eyes, "For fucks sakes just kill me already Taehyung instead of making me waste my breath any longer with this irrelevant conversation!"

A loud gun shot goes off.

His body froze.

Jungkook breathes heavily with a steady eye to the the other as the ring of the gun buzzes his ear, the pillow beside his head now has a bullet hole piercing through.

Taehyung has angry tears streaming down his cheeks, "Why my dad Jungkook?....... My only family..... How fucking heartless can you be?"

Jungkook kept himself steady and glares at him, "Your father was already involved with Oasis, this was nothing personal to you. Yes, I kept you here to interrogate you to see if you'd tell me the truth, and you did. Doesn't change the fact that your father is a fed involved with my empire and I had to protect my people. There's no room for risks Taehyung, you know this."

Too much. 

He almost said too much.

Fuck.

Taehyung snorts a humorless laugh, more tears streaming down his cheeks, "What..... Happened to us Jungkook? Why didn't you just.... Listened to me!?"

Jungkook gulps thickly and averts his eyes to look at the ceiling, "We fell in love..... And love fucks everything up."

"No, you fucked everything up."

"Oh I did," Jungkook admits, "Guess my little obsession for you in the beginning clouded my better judgement. Now because of that one mistake, that one spark of admiration towards you that I let myself feel, Yeosang is dead. You were right, falling for you did became my biggest regret."

That hurt, that really fucking felt worse than a bullet to the heart.

It hurt Jungkook to say it just as much as the pain flashing Taehyung's eyes, but he means it. Taehyung has been nothing but fucking karma coming to bite him in the ass, that probably explains why his name was Karma in Orchids.

Taehyung is fucking Karma.

And it made Jungkook realize just how weak he became for Taehyung.

Love definitely isn't a good look on him.

Hope that was enough to hate him.

"I...... Warned you Jungkook," Taehyung whispers softly, "I warned you since the start to stay away from me. I warned you to be careful with Harry..... I warned you and you never listened to me!"

Jungkook narrows his eyes, his heart already fed up with everything a this point, "Tell me right now that you wouldn't have done the same thing Taehyung?"

This definitely took Taehyung by surprise.

But Jungkook wasn't done, "Tell me if you were in my place, that you wouldn't have pursued me the minute you saw me? Tell me you wouldn't have seen something that lured you to me and made me you think that perhaps you found the right person for you?"

This is where the delicacy Jungkook didn't want to reveal of his emotions show, his voice wavering unlike his usual composed self, "Tell me you wouldn't be suspicious of not finding me anywhere in the globe when you tried to know who I was? Tell me it wouldn't bother you that I know how to kill and do dirty business when you thought I was just a regular kid from America."

Taehyung is shaking, his emotions clearly growing unstable, especially when he felt Jungkook's rough yet tender hand slide the side of his neck, feeling his racing pulse, "Tell me you wouldn't have killed me the minute you found out from someone else that my dad is a cop, who just happened to hack into your system to reach out to me and now has complete access to any information in it," Jungkook leans to his face, a teary gleam in his eyes filled of betrayal, "Tell me you would've been okay with the fact that I use to be a deadly member of a gang that's hunting my ass down now and I never told you the reason as to why they're after me. Tell me you would've sat down with me and believed me if I told you I wasn't helping my FEDERAL AGENT of a father, who has complete eyes on us now, once again thanks to me for letting him into your system."

Taehyung tried not letting his lips wobble, "Jungkook stop-"

"Tell me you wouldn't have hurt me or tried to torture me since you didn't know if I was lying or not, only scared of having history repeat itself since you once fell in love with a undercover rat and that deceived you and got you behind bars because of trusting the wrong person."

Now Jungkook looks weaker, more fragile with every word he said, as though he's trying to convince himself to hate this man before his eyes, "Would you still have trusted me? Would you like have risk your gang's safety by keeping both me and my father alive, knowing at any moment my father would've chosen justice over love and destroy everything you had built alone; your home, your members that became the only family you had, even if I didn't want that to happen? Hm? Tell me Taehyung, would you have done anything different than to what I did? If you would've then blow this damn trigger and prove yourself a better man than me."

Taehyung has grown angrier and angrier by the second, the gun now shaking in his hand uncontrollably.

Shut up.

Shut UP!

Jungkook suddenly leans back with glittering eyes, "Admit you would've done anything different from what I've done Taehyung? But you can't, right?" He starts to chuckle, the tears threatening to spill his eyes, "You.... Are so much worse than I am. You give in to your dark side. You would've skinned me alive and burned me into the deepest parts of hell if you found out about this little secret. We both know that. Especially if we were in a non official relationship. I've given you so much mercy Taehyung that not many people get from me. I could've killed you. I could've killed you for even breathing around me for that long period of time without telling me you breathed the same air as your father of a cop. I would've showed you what we do with people with enemy gang tattoos that dare try to step near our area, member or ex gang member. You know why I didn't fucking do that? Because I fucking love you Taehyung! I always did! I ignored all the signs, from not finding you in the data base to letting you off the hook for hurting my members, but this..... This is something I couldn't ignore, and you know you wouldn't have either."

Taehyung's heart is beating so fast to Jungkook's challenging face, his teeth gritting tightly together that he's afraid they might've gotten loose after that. He didn't want to admit how the younger is right. He didn't want to admit how he would've killed both Jungkook and his father if roles were reversed. A gang leader isn't suppose to fucking care, the cops are the enemies and anyone in relation to one. It would be only a matter of time before they just catch you.

There's no room to be gullible in a gang.

Either kill or be killed.

That's how you survive.

Taehyung shakes those vicious thoughts aside and barks a dry a laugh, "Well, roles aren't reversed and my dad is dead. You messed with my family-"

"So did you," Jungkook interjects frustrated, "I told you since the very fucking beginning Taehyung that I wanted you and I wanted you to willingly to be with me, not by fucking force, not once and I made it very clear. Well, before you went fucking psychotic once you found out who I was and went after my gang members."

"At least I didn't kill them! You took away my own blood Jungkook!"

"And you took away Yeosang from me!" Jungkook shouts, the tears now beaming his eyes, "Who was more than just a regular kid to any of us! HE WAS MY SON! A FUCKING CHILD! LET THAT SINK IN!"

Taehyung snarls at him and sends a punch across his face, "That was justice for taking my dad you bastard."

Jungkook barks a loud laugh, tears threatening to spill now with amusement clear behind those glossy orbs, "Justice? We are talking about justice? Or revenge? Once again, who are you trying to fool? You honestly thought we could've negotiated something over tea? This is a fucking gang Taehyung, not a damn middle school group drama! Did you keep fucking forgetting that? Someone suspicious comes up, they get killed. Be grateful I didn't fucking end you on the spot! Besides, you're no better than me. In fact, we may actually be the same person"

The brunette is suddenly flipped over, now with Jungkook straddling his lap with a gun pointed to Taehyung's forehead, a stone cold expression Taehyung has only seen him with when he's dealing with his clients.

Or his traitors.

"At the end of the day, if you take everything away from me, I won't be alone because you will be right there. This cycle won't stop, and making your life a living hell will sure provide me a lot of satisfaction," Jungkook giggles fondly, digging the gun to Taehyung's skin, "We will both have nothing, how fucking romantic! Let me tell you the future, yeah? Let's say you kill everyone, right? Kill Jimin, Yoongi, Seokjin, Hoseok and Namjoon. Kill every single person in that lobby downstairs. Then what? You will be happy?" He laughs again, his eyes growing manically by the seconds, "You will never be happy because you ended up becoming the monster you never wanted to become. Me? I will be the shadow that will haunt you day and night. I will  be the demon whispering to your ear, the one you won't be able to shake off. Don't you see Taehyung? We are bound together now, almost like a married couple."

Taehyung struggles against his hard hand with a lethal glare, "I don't have anyone Jungkook! Don't you get that? You took everything from me-"

"Oh but baby, you still have me," Jungkook murmurs, leaning closer to his face with his chaotic eyes, "And trust me, it won't be so easy to kill me."

Taehyung grits his teeth with narrowed eyes, "I will end you! You hear me Jeon Jungkook! I will destroy this whole damn empire!"

Keep going.

Keep going until he says it.

The taller bubbles a faint chuckle and caresses the gun down Taehyung's face, "Please do enlighten me baby boy! Please show me how much of a better person you are than me. At the end of the day, you're still more insane than I am. I mean, at the end of the day I trusted you more than you did to me, so I'm the fool to have fallen for the beautiful fallen angel."

"Everything I did was to protect you because I cared!" Taehyung seethes to his face, "I told you to stay away to protect you-"

"And I stayed to protect you," Jungkook growls, leaning closer to his face, "I involved myself with Orchids to protect you. I accepted the deal to protect you. As long as you were beside me, you were safe because your safety meant everything to me. You think Harry would've let you off so easily? You think he didn't know about our plan? You have to play smarter than that Taehyung. Yeah, maybe being involved with me is dangerous, very dangerous, and that was something you clearly couldn't stay away from, especially when you pinned me against the wall during our first kiss."

The memory of that sent a straight dart to Taehyung's heart, his body now shaking to the young memories. The times Jungkook was a nerdy boy in school and no one knew about his past. The times where they would sneak glance at each other and when Taehyung would beat up anyone who hurt any of his boys.

How much time has changed.

"Guess we both fucked up," Taehyung mutters with narrowed eyes, "I will make sure my father's death wasn't in vain."

There we go.

But not yet.

Jungkook giggles kidishly and removes the gun from Taehyung's forehead and piles off him. Taehyung follows him with his eyes as the taller opens the window and takes out a cigarette from his drawer, lighting it up and takes a deep puff.

It's been a while since Jungkook has smoked.

He sure as hell needs it now.

Suddenly Jungkook smirks as he looks back to Taehyung on the bed, the moonlight casting a beautiful glow to his face with his eyes sparkling to the other male.

Even while fogged with grief and anguish, he still looks at Jungkook.... Like that.

And Jungkook hated it.

Heartless, finish it off.

"What was that phrase you said? All is fair in love and war?" Jungkook sighs lightly to this, shaking his head dismissively and looks back out the window, inhaling his cigarette and exhaling a puff of smoke out the window, "Come back to me when you realize you aren't as a saint as you think you are."

Taehyung purses his lips and approaches the door, stopping mid way with his hand gripping rightly to the knob, turning back to look at Jungkook, who's fighting to hold back the tears as he stares out the window.

"You're right, I would've killed your father if I found out he was a cop. How would I know you weren't giving him information? I wouldn't, that's only taking your word for it. I would've burned him alive before your eyes and then tortured you slowly until you beg me for death, but just clearing the air now, I never told him anything."

"You think I killed him for you?" Jungkook snaps with cold eyes, "I did it for the gang, not for you. You were just collateral damage," He mutters while huffing out smoke, "If you knew what I know, you wouldn't give me so much bullshit."

To this Taehyung glares to the back of his head, "My father promised me he wouldn't get close to Oasis-"

"Get out of my sight Taehyung," Jungkook growls, the tears now streaming down his cheeks, "I already had enough for one night. Get out."

Taehyung grits his teeth with glaring daggers, but he didn't move. To this Jungkook angrily whirls around and pulls the trigger of the gun, a bullet darting through the air and hits the door, just a few centimeters away from Taehyung's face.

"Get the fuck out before I change my mind about killing you!" His body is shaking now, fighting back every need off every kill and to rip Taehyung's head off.

His presence, this situation - everything about this is fucking him up!

Having now everything slowly hitting Jungkook's conscious.

His Yeosang...

Is dead.

Jimin slept with Taehyung.

This isn't the end.

It damn well isn't.

Taehyung narrows his eyes and yanks the door open, "I hate you Jeon Jungkook, I fucking hate you with all my damn heart!" And he walks out, slamming the door shut behind him.

Leaving him to the defending silence of the night.

There it is....

He said it....

Mission accomplished.

And Jungkook finally let the sob he was holding in out.

This is how it has to be.

Taehyung has to hate him.

But fuck it hurts so bad.

"It's better for you to hate me than to hate him."

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A/N:

Man, I really had to mentally prepare myself to edit this chapter.

It definitely was emotional.

Anyways thank you so much for all the love you guys are giving this book! I appreciate reading your comments so much!

You guys really are my fuel to write, I love it <3

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