Song Recommended:
I Love You - Billie Eilish

Trigger Warning

Taehyung's isn't sleeping. Even with the darkness of the night creeping up in his room and his body blissfully laying down on the bed, he couldn't sleep, yet his eyes are closed while his breathing is very steady.

After tonight's events, he's far from sleepy.

He replays it over and over again, almost like a broken record. Finding the many reasons why he did it and how it was the right decision at that moment.

Taehyung wasn't going to go off as he did to Yoongi, but the more he thought about Orchids and his father, the more he panicked and.... Went a little overboard.

He knows he's playing with fire by doing this, but he's giving time for Jungkook to change his mind.

He was doing Yoongi a favor...... And also Jungkook.

Taehyung will be nothing good for them, he knows this, and he's going insane by what he knows he should do and what he wants.

And it's frustrating because Jungkook always gives him what he desires.

Every, single, time.

He has to give them a motivation onto why it's right leave him alone, even if it involves hurting others. Taehyung squeezes his eyes to block out Yoongi's faint eyes staring back at him.

Collateral damage, he was collateral damage.

Hopefully after this they will get more motivated.

Or actually be more motivated into killing him.

The thoughts continued to blur his mind, but just as quickly as they ran, it vanished. A warmness spread his chest as he tried fighting off a small smile when he felt the bed sinking behind him and then an arm wrap around his waist.

Of course he would come.

He always does, and those are the moments that makes it hard for Taehyung to be strong.

He loves this too much.

Taehyung finally breathes, feeling like it's the first time in these twenty-four hours that he's actually alive.

"I know you're not sleeping?" Jungkook's calm voice whispers to his ear. Taehyung bites back a smile when he feels a knife being pinned to his spine, "You shut down your security system, why?"

He's such a baby.

Taehyung rolls his eyes, slightly annoyed that his intentions weren't visible enough as his other hand reaches under the pillow discreetly and slowly, "Is it bad that I wanted you to come here?"

Jungkook's arm around his waist tightens, and the knife harshly scratches his skin, "You drugged Yoongi, paralyzing his body and shutting down his brain activities but sent him into instant REM mode minutes later, and then carved Hoseok's initials onto his skin, leaving him like a damn puppet hanged up on the ceiling," Jungkook growls, pressing the knife deeper against Taehyung's skin, making him wince lightly.

He's really mad....

Was this his limit?

"I told you I was coming after one of you every 24 hours," Taehyung sighs, grabbing the handle of his knife from under the pillow, "Be glad I didn't kill him."

Jungkook's arm around him tensed up and he leans against his ear, "But I will kill you for hurting my own."

Taehyung grabs his knife and swiftly takes it out and pins it against his own neck. Jungkook freezes instantly and stops breathing. Taehyung remained with a solid hard face, fighting back his tears to the thought of finally being free..... No more gangs, anger, blood, sadness. It'll be gone.

He's ready to die if that's what it comes to, but he won't let it be because of Jungkook.

If he dies, he won't have to worry about Orchids or his father's warning. He won't have to worry about Oasis being in harms way, or the possibility of Jungkook being hurt because of him.

Taehyung wants to trust Jungkook, he really does, but Orchids are not to mess with.

It breaks his heart to think how things can badly end for everyone.

"I'm not going to let you kill me," Taehyung mutters, pressing the knife harder against his neck until it began to draw blood, "I would rather do it myself than die from of the hands of another person. If you want me alive, you will take your knife away from me and throw it across the room. If not, I will stab my neck and end it myself."

At first Jungkook didn't want to give in, that much Taehyung knows. He was so ready to just sink in the knife, all he needed was that answer.... That.... Closure that no one needs him here in this world. However that never came. Jungkook remained frozen, but after seeing the blood dripping down Taehyung's neck from the small cut, he pulls the knife away and flings it across the room angrily.

"You're so fucking insane."

Taehyung grins and pulls the knife back, throwing it somewhere in the room too before turning around, facing the angry yet beautiful man before his eyes.

Beautiful, so beautiful.

He's in deep, Taehyung knows he is, and he enjoys those moments where the world fades away and they don't have to worry about anyone.

It's just.... Them.

No one else.

Taehyung pouts, "Aw don't be angry with me. You knew this was coming."

Jungkook narrows his eyes, searching Taehyung's eyes but then his gaze softens slightly as he sees the blood on Taehyung's neck. Instantly he goes to aid Taehyung's neck by wiping the blood with his thumb, "Please don't make this a war Taehyung," He whispers, tenderly caressing Taehyung's cheek, "Come with me. Let me protect you... We can be like this every single night," Jungkook tries to sway, interlacing their hands together, "Please.... Just stop this."

For a moment, Taehyung's wall weakened. He wanted nothing more than to stay like this with Jungkook all the time, every night. To joke around with him and see him study for class. Taehyung wants to be there for his achievements and be able to kiss him to aid his sorrow, anger or happiness.

To be each other's halves

And together they become whole.

It was a beautiful imagination, just for a split second.

But it was only a dream, something that will never come true.

Taehyung is trying so hard to run away from his past, and Jungkook's mere existence is just a constant reminder of the many reasons why he's running.

For himself, and his Jungnkook as well.

To be safe, both of them.

For a second Taehyung hardens his gaze at him, "You don't get it, do you?" he whispers and lets go of Jungkook's hand, "I'm a walking target Jungkook. No matter how into you I may be, how happy it makes me to have you come to me, I can't avoid the obvious - This is going to end bad, for the both of us. So, either you leave me alone, or you figure out who I am so I can kill you already and leave the rest of the members alone."

It hurt him to say this. He doesn't want to kill Jungkook, let alone hurt anyone else, but he knows what's coming. Taehyung just knows.

Deep down inside, no matter how much Taehyung enjoys and wants a normal life, he knows there's a side to him that enjoys this too.

Being in a gang.

The thrill of it, the adrenaline, the risk - he fathoms it.

Making Jungkook everything he both loves and hates.

Jungkook lets Taehyung's words sink in and then slowly nods, "Say this one last thing for me, and I'll stop," Jungkook whispers, making Taehyung's heart in his chest, "Do you promise to be honest with me?"

Taehyung stares between Jungkook's sincere eyes, frowning with a slow nod, "I promise."

Nothing was said for a moment as Jungkook studies his features carefully, ready for whatever answer Taehyung throws at him, "Do you want me to stay away from you?"

Taehyung feels his skin grow warm, but he plays it off with an eye roll, "I told you this already, it's not safe-"

"No," Now Jungkook cradles his face, adverting his attention back to him, "Taehyung, be open with me please. Do you sincerely want me to stay away from you? Is that what you truly want?"

"I'm a threat to you-"

"Taehyung."

"This risk is just something-"

"Tae.."

"I just.... No," Taehyung finally answers, shoulders dropped to Jungkook's fragile stare, "I... Don't want you to. I'm scared, okay? So, what I want shouldn't matter. I'm giving you time to change your mind, and if you don't figure out who I am, it won't end."

Jungkook quietly stares at him, looking so deeply into his eyes as though he's staring right into his soul.

Taehyung needed this.

Someone to see him.

See deeper in him.

And Jungkook is always that person.

"Then I guess this means war," he mutters and leans his forehead against Taehyung's, "You do know the moment I find out who you are, I'm most likely going to kill you. You're a handful now as it is."

He's not giving up...

That's shocking.

Taehyung sends him a weak smile and presses a soft kiss against his lips, "I don't mind a little blood," He murmurs and nuzzles his face against Jungkook's neck, curling up to his body, "Can you hold me just a little while longer before you start to hate me?"

Jungkook's gulps thickly, holding Taehyung tighter against his chest, "I won't hate you, who knows, I might grow to love you."

Taehyung softly smiles to the words, tears being his eyes, "All is fair in love and war, hm?"

Jungkook weakly smiles and slowly nods, leaning down to kiss Taehyung's head, sighing heavily, "Indeed it is."

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A/N:
Something about this chapter...... Felt so..... Beautiful.... I don't know how to explain it. It felt vulnerable or soft. Or maybe because I'm listening to the song recommended while reading this, but it just feels...... I can't even explain it hahaha

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