This entire chapter is about them smoking weed. If you are uncomfortable, please don't read this chapter.

I look in the mirror at my pale, skinny body. I sigh as I put on a dark blue jacket, which is above a black school sweater that I no longer need. I slide a grey cap onto my head, trying to get as much hair as I can hidden. I don't want to be caught tonight.

Now, I know what you're thinking, so many layers!

Yeah, this is Nebraska.

It's cold as hell in October.

Cold as hell?

Whatever, you knew what I meant.

I slightly open my bedroom door, trying to keep the squeak as quiet as possible. I step outside, slowly shut the door, and sneak downstairs.

I reach the living room and look around to make sure nobody's there. I put on my shoes by the front door and sneak out to the back door, making sure not to step on any squeaky floor boards.

I look outside the back door. I see Aphmau standing there, fiddling with her keys and looking down at the ground. I walk outside and slowly shut the door. I walk up to her, checking my watch.

12:12 AM

"Hey, buttface," she smiles.

I roll my eyes, "You can drive?"

"Well... kinda. I got my learner's permit and I think you count as an adult," she shrugs.

"Yeah... I think I forgot my helmet. I'll be right back," I joke, turning around and pretending to go back inside.

She gently grabs my arm. Heat rushes to my face and my heart beats faster. I try to hide it as I turn around.

"Haha, no sucker. If I die you're going down with me." She states.

"I'm already dying." I state.

"Yeah but like, today," she says.

I laugh, "Let's just go."

Aphmau smiles at me. I smile back as we walk towards the car. I sit down and slide a grey seatbelt over me. She's probably gonna kill us both.

"Ready to get the weed?" She says as she starts the car and begins to drive.

"We can be weed buddies." I laugh.

"'Weed buddies.' That's so stupid." Aphmau rolls her eyes.

"You're stupid for helping me," I say.

"Yeah, my mom's gonna kill me," she keeps her eyes glued to the road.

"Same." I bite my bottom lip.

"Dude. Your mom spoils you freaking rotton," she laughs.

"Just until I die!" I say. "And it used to be my dad, thank you very much."

"Right, right." She laughs as we pull up to the park.

I look at the dark place, but there's streetlights everywhere. What do we do if we get caught? I can't run very far or very fast and it'd be my fault if Aphmau got in trouble.

"Ready, weed buddy?" She smiles at me.

I turn to her and smile. Her eyes are afraid, I can tell. But she hides it well with a bright happy smile. I nod and step out of the car. She does the same and we walk around for a minute until we see someone leaning against the bridge.

That has to be Gene.

"Gene!" Aphmau whisper-shouts. He perks up and walks towards us.

"You guys are 20 minutes late. I said midnight, SHARP." He says.

I never liked Gene. At all. He was never nice to anyone and was extremely manipulative. I try not to make eye contact with him, but it's hard not to when he's giving you a death glare.

"Whatever, just give us the weed," Aphmau says as she holds her hand out.

"Let me see the cash," Gene says.

"Let me see the weed," I say, giving Gene a harsh glare.

He looks at me with intimidated eyes. I keep giving him the same glare and hold my hand out. He hands me the small bag of weed and two pieces of paper.

"Since you probably know nothing about smoking," he says harshly.

Aphmau rolls her eyes and hands him the cash. He takes it, nods and leaves quickly. Aphmau looks at me and gives a relieved sigh.

"Alleyway?" She asks.

"Alleyway," I agree.

We begin walking towards the more sketchy side of the city. I look around and get myself ready to beat someone if they come at us.

We reach a secluded alleyway and sit down on the cold, hard pavement. I take out the lighter and the paper. Then, I look at the small plastic bag of weed.

"Ready?" I ask.

"Definitely," her voice shakes.

"You sure?" I ask.

"Yeah, I'm sure," she says, a little more steady this time.

I smile and open the bag. I start rolling in the paper, just like the way you see in movies or TV shoes. I roll two and hand one to Aphmau. She takes it and hands me the lighter.

"You first," she says.

"Why me? You got it," I say.

"Yeah but... just do it," she smiles.

"Okay, okay, fine," I smile back and grab the lighter.

I hold the paper in my mouth and light it carefully. Smoke fills my mouth. I try to blow it out like they do in the movies, but I begin coughing instead.

"Y-Your turn," I say while coughing.

Aphmau laughs and lights her own. She coughs, but not as much as I did. We smile at each other and do it again. This time, neither of us cough as hard. I laugh and look into her eyes.

She looks into mine. I blush a little bit, but she blushes more. We give each other soft smiles and move closer. I throw the weed on the ground and step on it so the fire goes out. Aphmau does the same.

We keep moving together slower and slower. I can feel her warm breath on my face. Our lips brush together, and then we kiss.

A kiss I've been waiting so long for.

A long, passionate kiss.

She pulls away, her face bright red. I smile at her and she smiles back. She puts her hands on my shoulders and puts a hand on my face.

"We should do that more often," she says.

"We should," I say.

After a few minutes, I realize this is what was on my bucket list. This is what I wanted for so long and I never got.

Words will never explain how much I love her.

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You guyyysss.

I just listened to Niall Horan's new song!!

He sounds like a freaking angellll!!

Thanks for reading! Bai!
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