Death is calm. It is a sweet feeling of relief that reassures you that your tiring life is coming to an end.

As water fills your lungs you get anxious. Then, every struggle fades away as you sink deeper, while your body fades away to the depths of the sea and the cold water that surrounds you leaves your sight as everything turns black.

You start to lose all your senses one by one as the rock tied on your leg leads you to the bottom of the sea, where the sand hugs your now lifeless body for the last time.

At first I thought that this was the end and I was right. The end of Kira Kim. My former self.

As the ice cold water splashed my face, I woke up startled. The environment before me was a sight very different from what I've been used to seeing. As if I traveled to another era.

The middle aged lady in front of me wore a plain ragged dress and had her grey hair combed into a braid. Her face was full of lines that betrayed her age and her expression was that of disgust.

The room had a wooden floor that was dirty and broken while the furniture were old and run down. I took a look at the mirror behind the woman and noticed that I was somebody else.

What I saw was a little kid with shiny green eyes and bright red hair. A skinny dirty child with milky white skin full of scars and a pretty face.

The woman disrupted me by slapping my cheek and with anger she told me

" how dare you ignore me! If only you could die peacefully like that whore who gave birth to you ".

Her last sentence left me dumbfounded but I couldn't do anything about it. I stayed silent and just nodded. I can't believe that I just nodded to a woman who insulted my mother.

Even If I'm not this child, I can still feel how miserable I am. The woman grabbed my arm and forcefully dragged me to the entrance of the building. I could now understand that I was in an orphanage.

There are dozens of kids there but no one even spared me one glance. It seems that I was an outcast.

A big decorated carriage stopped in front of us and a knight stood by the side of the door escorting a seemingly rich man.

He was a middle aged handsome man with pitch black hair and cold grey eyes. He was dressed in a fancy silk suit decorated with golden embroidery. This man who had just stepped out of the carriage, was now in front of me.

I could sense the jealousy of the other kids as he bent to reach my height and stretched out his hand. Still confused and surprised, I raised my gaze and kept speechless.

The man in front of me with a calming deep voice asked me

" Do you want to be my daughter? ".

Then I felt that I could finally feel how it was to have a family. A feeling that I never experienced even in my last life. A wave of happiness washed over me and I gave him my arm as I nodded happily.

Then, this man smiled and said

" My name is Asher Herion Grey. What is yours? "

And I suddenly realised that I had no name.

" Please grant me one "

is what I said with my soft voice. Then he stood up and lifted me with one arm and put me inside the carriage. It was the first time that I had ever sat inside a luxurious carriage.

I saw through the window the other kids crying because they were neglected one more time and felt like I could be there right now.

Asher, disrupted my thoughts with a name.

" Silvia Grey "

he said with a serious face and I flinched surprised. The journey till we reached the mansion was long and tiring. So I fell asleep.

I dreamt about Silvia's life. She was born in a poor family.

Her father abandoned her mother and the mother fell ill. After a year she passed away and Silvia had to become a beggar. She couldn't even bury her mother's corpse.

She only survived out of pure luck. What a sad life. How could anyone imagine the struggles she went through. She... A ten year old girl.

The long journey finally ended as we reached the enormous mansion of the Grey.

Asher, got out of the carriage first and offered his hand to help me out. By the time I stepped out of the carriage, I encountered two boys dressed up lavishly.

The older one was taller than me and had the same grey eyes that Asher had, while his hair were Auburn.

The younger one had black hair and green eyes while he had the same height as me.

Seeing me hold Asher's hand they could guess that I was their new sister. I sensed their glares pierce my body as they saw the beggar me, dressed in a dirty brown ragged dress, barefoot and filthy hold the hand of their dear father.

Asher let go of my hand and introduced me to my two brothers.

" Boys this is your sister Silvia Grey... Silvia these two are my sons. The elder one is Jace Grey and the younger one is Toren Grey. ".

Asher went to his study and left me with my brothers. I stretched out my arm to greet them and Toren slapped my hand with anger.

Jace glared at me and then with a harsh tone he warned me

" Don't think that because father brought you we will play family. We don't need you to play our dead sister.".

Then I realized that the name I was given, wasn't even mine to begin with. Silvia Grey...

I decided to keep my old name, Kira but to answer as Silvia. I hid that name to my heart while I kept Silvia on the surface. I stood there silently while the two boys entered the house first.

A maid came out of nowhere and shook me up. A young woman in her 20s. She was a beautiful woman with blonde wavy hair and blue eyes that coldly stared down at me.

" You must be the new girl...come.".

The maid walked in front of me leading the way to my bedroom. Before reaching,we stopped in front of a locked door. Curiosity took over me and I asked

" What is that door? "

The maid quickly faced me and gave me a cold glare

" This is the room of the only true Silvia Grey. ".

Her tone made me realize that this room was off limits.

The maid showed me my room and left angrily.

When I entered this bedroom, I could see how easy and comfortable was the life of the rich. After all Asher Herion Grey was a Duke. The room was so luxurious. The floor was well polished and clean there was a warm carpet and a huge bed with clean sheets.

At the corner of the room was a mirror and a wardrobe. On the other side of the room, was a desk and a jewelry box and a big window with nice view.

This was the first time I had such a bedroom.

I took a look in the mirror and noticed how dirty I was and a thought came to mind.

I had to try and fit in.

I rushed to the bathroom and took a bath alone and then I went back to my room. I dried my long red hair and opened the wardrobe. All I could see was dresses made with expensive materials.

I took out a dark green dress and carefully wore it. Then, I wore a matching pair of shoes and combed my hair carefully.

I took another look in the mirror. I saw a very pretty girl with long red hair, milky white skin, and dark green eyes that were complimented by a silk olive coloured dress and shoes.

I still felt lacking so I opened the jewelry box that lied on the desk. When I opened it I noticed a very beautiful silver necklace decorated with red stones and I immediately wore it. Now I feel like I could fit in.

It was time for lunch and I was starving. I went downstairs to the dining room and noticed that Asher,Jace and Toren had already started eating.

When they saw me, for some reason they all got angry. It seems that they got angry because I was late.

I quietly sat on an empty chair and started eating. There was silence and the three of them kept glaring at me. The one who broke the silence was Jace. With a harsh tone he muttered

" filthy thief ".

I raise my gaze from my plate to his eyes and noticed that I was unwelcome.

I quickly finished my food and turned to leave the dining room while it was still silent. Toren's cough made me stop where I was. Then he spoke.

" Who do you think you are! You don't deserve to wear these clothes!They are not even yours thief! ".

Then Asher angrily stated

" Silvia... I brought you here as my daughter... That doesn't mean that you can steal my daughter's belongings! "

A torrent of emotions and thoughts flooded me and I answered

" Not only you name me as your deseased daughter after adopting me but you claim that I stole from her when those clothes and jewelry were at the room your maid said was mine! "

The three of them froze as those words escaped my mouth.

" So what? If you claim I stole from her why did you give me her name? It makes me think that I'm here to replace her! So if I have to replace Silvia why can I not have her dress and necklace? ".

Asher got furious and grounded me. I ran to my room and took of the dress and the jewelry even the shoes. I took my ragged clothing and wore it.

After that I sealed the clothes in the wardrobe and went to the window. It was already dark. The moon had risen to its peak and the wind was cold. I went to the desk and lit a candle. I sobbed quietly as I wrote my diary.