I have to ask him.
What if he really is Killion?

I gathered all my courage and asked him.

"Kyle?"

"Hm?"

"Do you remember your past life?"

Kyle's eyes widened in surprise.

"Why do you ask?"

He seemed to desperately need an answer.

"Well... I saw that documentary about it and I got curious..."

"I remember."

"What happened in your past life?"

"Well... I was a powerful figure... Just like now. I had a difficult childhood... I was a war hero... I got married to my soulmate and we had kids..."

"Do you think you can meet her in this life too?"

"I met her."
Kyle said with a smile. I felt cold sweat shower me.

"Do you love her in this life too?"
I said this hoping to get the answer in the question about what to do.

"Yes I love her."
Kyle said innocently and I felt my heart breaking.

"I see ..."

I went to my room and wrote on my diary.

"Dear diary,

I apologize for not writing sooner. I was sick and didn't have the opportunity to tell you the events that took place since the last time I wrote you...

I feel like an obstacle.
Do you believe in true love?

I may be the obstacle to the love between my husband and his soulmate.

I feel terrible.

I am the one to keep Killion Hills and Silvia Grey seperated...

I keep thinking of divorce. I hate this word but I have to set him free.

I don't want to leave him... I have to.

Kira."

How do I leave?

I have to find a reason.

I can't tell him I took him away from his soulmate!

My phone rang and I checked my notifications. A message from Tristan Gu !

Hey Kira^^
How are you doing? :^)
It's my birthday the day after tomorrow... Do you want to celebrate together?(. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)

Sure( ╹▽╹ )

I sent him. He just created the best opportunity.

...

Kyle came to my bedroom.

"Kira... Today we have to meet my parents."

"Why?"

"They found out that you are my wife and they want to meet you."

"I see..."
I forced a somehow convincing smile and let those two words out my mouth.
...

Today I am meeting Kyle's family. I don't know if it matters now that I am thinking of leaving. I am still hesitant. Maybe meeting them will make things clear.

We reached to the mansion of his obviously rich family.

A big estate with green gardens and trees. We passed through the gate and walked across a pathway built with rock tiles.

I remembered Killion's estate from my dream. So similar...

Kyle held my hand and we rang the doorbell.

A maid opened the door halfway and scanned us with her eyes from top to bottom. Then, she opened the door completely and bowed.

"Young master. Welcome. Master and madam are waiting for you. Follow me."

The maid took us to the living room where the family was spending time together.

Kyle's parents seemed strict. No love seemed to exist between them. Why did they get married then?

The couple observed me quietly. I handed them an expensive gift I had prepared before and greeted them.

They seemed strict and cold. How come Kyle is their child?

Kyle's mother broke the silence.

"Who may you be?"

"My name is Kira Kim. Daughter of the deseased head of the Grey family. I am the wife of your son"

"I see..."

She said sceptically.

She doesn't like me... I expected that.

"Do you love Kyle?"

Kyle's mother said. Expectantly.

"I love him!"

I said. As I uttered those words I felt numb. I have to leave the man I love.

Kyle's parents seemed satisfied with my answer.

"This marriage... Doesn't make you the only woman who is perfect for him.

You may have a good background and you may love him but that doesn't mean that this love is permanent... What if he leaves you for another woman?"

Her words were my worries phrased in words.

"Sometimes... Such situations are inevitable. There will always be someone better in some aspect than me. I can only trust him and if he doesn't love me someday... I will let him be with the one he loves...."

"Do you have the courage to do that?"

Kyle's father asked.

"I may or may not. I can only clench my jaw and move forward."

This conversation was about to be reality...

The doorbell rang and a very pretty girl entered. She had long blond hair, honey brown eyes and hourglass figure.

She came towards Kyle and hugged him.

Kyle smiled and returned the hug. Maybe this is his true love. Maybe she is Silvia. His destined partner.

"Silia welcome back."
Kyle said with a big smile. He seemed genuinely happy. I doubt I can make him smile like that.

Her name is Silia. It resembles Silvia quite a bit.

"Hello Kyle~ I missed you so much! But... Who is she?"

Silia scanned me from head to toe. She geve me a fierce gaze and looked at Kyle expectantly.

"Ah I didn't introduce you yet. Silia. This is my beloved wife Kira!"

"Wife?!"

She had a hurt expression.

"Kyle... What about me? I have loved you since we were kids!"

"Silia... I don't like you that way. To me you are like a little sister. Besides I am already married."

"Divorce! You can divorce her so we can be together!"

"No! I won't leave my wife because I don't have feelings for you!"

Silia teared up and ran away. Kyle who also seemed hurt, sighed and closed the door.

I felt like a huge weight was pressing me down. I can only go forward after that. I can't turn back. After finding out that they are like that, I can only leave so that their love blossoms again.

The rooms atmosphere became heavy. I feel like the walls are about to smother me.

"Excuse me... May I use the bathroom?"
I said as a justification for me to go and calm myself down.

I went to the bathroom and closed the door behind me. Countless thoughts surrounded me. How exactly do I leave?
Can I really ask help from Tristan Gu?

Can I trust him?
I don't feel comfortable using his birthday party as an excuse to escape this ill fated marriage.

A few hours later, Kyle and I departed. Kyle kept staring at me while I was driving home.

"Kyle..."

"Hm?"

"Do you love Silia?"

"Not exactly."

He wasn't certain...

"What about Silvia?"

"I love her..."

"Is Silia... Silvia?"

"No. She was never."

"Then... If you were to meet Silvia would you leave me for her?"

"Never."

"If so, if you ever found her, I would leave immediately."

Kyle remained silent.

The awkward atmosphere of the car, spreaded at home.

I went to my room and slept. My dreams of this past life kept tormenting me. It's not even me! I was never Silvia...

If his only love is Silvia, why did he marry me? Am I just a cover for him to not get really married before he marries her?

Despicable ...

I should just leave now.

I got up and prepared a suitcase. I packed most of my clothes. I diligently tidied my bedroom.

Then, I wrote a letter to Kyle.

"My dear husband,

When you see this letter, I will be away. You may try to find me but it's futile.

You may ask, why I am running away?
I can't stand myself become an obstacle to you marrying Silvia Grey...

I recently found out that you are Killion Hills. I don't know why you insisted on marrying me but I am not Silvia.

I hope that you end up marrying her and loving her forever.

-Kira Kim.

P.S.  please take care of yourself. I don't want the man I fell for mistreat himself..."

I folded the paper and placed it carefully inside a white envelope.

I took my suitcase and left while Kyle was sleeping deeply. I keep thinking about how terrible of a person I am.

He may feel betrayed...

I called a taxi and went to the airport. I bought a ticket for the first flight to anywhere and boarded on the plane.

As the airplane soared higher and higher, I looked at the peaceful scenery through the window. The fluffy clouds and the golden sky.

The flight took hours to land. The trip was tiring. The idea of living in a foreign country was new to me and certainly uncomfortable. Even if that meant that I would live with my pen friend Susan.

We started exchanging letters when she and her family immigrated and we kept in touch for all these years.

We were close friends since kindergarten. She was being bullied by the boys for having short hair. A girl with short, jaw length ginger coloured hair. She was actually very pretty...

I took a taxi and after an hour of traffic jam I arrived at the front entrance of Susan's home and the front entrance to a new chapter in my life...