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People think the Yuri of my AU is an enigma of emotions and past trauma, here's an insider look of what she actually feels on the day to day basis.

Natsuki's POV

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I opened my eyes. I'm sleeping on top of Yuri. But I guess that's to be expected, and I know what the third stage is now. Monika was right I did like it though. Yuri is asleep as well, I sat up and slid out of bed. I stretched and went to grab some clothes, whilst trying to avoid tripping over the ones already on the floor. I have plenty of clothes, but I like Yuri's more some i'm going to steal some of her's. I opened the drawers. Geez Yuri really likes rock bands. I gasped to myself. I found something better than any of her comfy clothes. A diary. I giggled to myself and grabbed the book, it's locked, but I bet the key is here somewhere. Now that I think about it, wait no I should probably get dressed first.

I am now wearing a black Metalica sweater and some shorts, curtesy of a sleeping Yuri. Yuri's diary is in my hands. How am I 100% sure its Yuri's? Because it says both 'Do not touch' and 'especially you Natsuki'. Now, where did I see a key last. I began thinking. Aha! Underneath the white chair! I rushed into the living room. I bent down and looked underneath the white chair, there it is, the key! I grabbed it and sat down on the couch. I'm not going to read much of her diary, probably just the newest page or something, yeah, nothing more nothing less. I unlocked the book and started skimming through the pages, I immediately stopped when I saw a picture. I felt like I was going to throw up, the picture was of an arm, but it had cuts, so many cuts, blood was dripping from the open wounds. I covered my mouth and shut the diary. I locked it again and put the key back under the chair. I rushed back into our room and put the diary back, Yuri was still asleep, i'm going to have to talk to her about this when she gets up. I sighed and walked back into the living room. She already told me she likes knives, could she be, no, she wouldn't do that. Would she? If she is and she is hiding this from me what else has she been doing? I shuttered thinking of the many things she could be doing to herself.

I always thought those were scars from battles and they could be- I heard footsteps coming from our room, I tried to calm myself as they got closer. What if she notices I took her diary? What if she's mad at me? What if- "Good morning Natsuki." Yuri spoke softly, breaking my train of thought. I looked up at her. She's wearing the beige sweater again, and some sweat pants. "Morning." I replied, i'm still worried, I need to ask her about it, but I don't know how she'll respond. I took a deep breath, I might as well test my luck. "Hey Yuri?" She looked at me. "I, uh, I looked in your diary," Yuri began to look worried. "I mean, I uh, I didn't find anything to bad, but, what was that picture? With the cuts?" I asked. Yuri became more worried by the second. "It's nothing really, It's an old habit, old, as in I don't do it anymore, I uh, I stopped doing that a few weeks after we started dating."  Yuri frantically explained. I mean it makes sense that she stopped the page it was on dated like two months ago at least. Its good that she stopped and all, but why was she doing it in the first place? "That's good, but, why were you doing it anyway?" Yuri scratched the back of her neck. "Uh, a number of reasons really, for one I used it as a stress reliever. But there's a lot more then just that." I nodded. "Okay, well, just don't think about doing it ever again!" I said snappily. Yuri giggled. " I promise I wont."

Everything is normal again, Yuri is alright, i'm alright, but, I still feel like there's something wrong here. I don't know though.

I guess I'll just have to wait and see.

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A/n: Hah hah, get ready, something huge is about to go down.