A/N I want to know if you guys want me to make another timeline. Let me know! Thanks!
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Astrid found Fili sitting at his and Dalila's spot. He was leaned against the tree. He was alone.
"I see you're here alone?" Astrid landed by him.
"Yes. I need to think." He sighed.
"I brought you something." She laid the journal in Fili's lap.
"What is this?" He turned the book in his hands.
"It's Dalila's journal."
"I can't read this. It has her personal thoughts in it."
"I know. Don't read it all. Just read the last two entries. The first one she wrote the morning she found the letter. It was right before she found it. The second one is after she found it. You need to read them both to understand how she feels." Astrid insisted.
"Fine. But if get in trouble for it, it's your fault."
"Whatever. Just read it."

Fili turned to the back and found the latest entries.
"Is this the first one?" He asked. Astrid looked at it.
"Yes. She wrote this before she found the letter."
"Alright." Fili read it. It said....

"High dive into frozen waves where the past comes back to life
Fight fear for the selfish pain, it was worth it every time
Hold still right before we crash 'cause we both know how this ends
A clock ticks 'til it breaks your glass and I drown in you again

'Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn't need
Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don't know why

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

Walk on through a red parade and refuse to make amends
It cuts deep through our ground and makes us forget all common sense
Don't speak as I try to leave 'cause we both know what we'll choose
If you pull then I'll push too deep and I'll fall right back to you

'Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn't need
Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don't know why

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

Why are you my clarity?
Why are you my remedy?
Why are you my clarity?
Why are you my remedy?

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

If you're my one, then why is everyone against us? Why can't they just be happy for us? Sometimes the stress is just to much and I want to give up. But then I see your face or hear your voice or think about your smile and I know it's all worth it. I love you my one. I love you Fili Arkin."

Fili read it and he smiled.
"She really wrote this about me? She really does love me?" Fili asked Astrid.
"Yes. Now turn the page and read the next one. It's the one she wrote after she found the letter." Fili turned the page like she said. What he read broke his heart even more. It said....

"I found out the truth today. I knew your love was too good to be true. My heart is broken. My soul is broken. My spirit is broken. My body is broken. I am broken. I thought you cared. I thought you loved me. I should take these stupid braids out. I should forget about you. I should hate you. But I can't. These braids are all I have left of you. I still love you. I don't know why. You never loved me. But there is something I don't understand, if you used me why didn't you sleep with me that night when I was drunk? Was it because I'm not pretty enough for you? That night I fell in love with you even more because I thought you truly did care. Turns out you were just disgusted by me. I have nothing now. Nothing to live for. I want to kill myself. It wouldn't matter anyway. If I did you wouldn't notice. And if you did notice you'd be happy I'm out of your life for good. But I can't do that either. That night we danced to the rhythm of your heartbeat, I promised you I wouldn't kill myself. I shouldn't keep that promise because you didn't keep any of yours. You promised me you'd always love me. That you'd never let me go. But you lied! But I'll keep my promise because that night was the last night I was truly happy. Thank you for that night. I'll dream of that night every day and smile. But when the dream fades I'll cry myself to sleep yearning for you and your love. The love I never had and never will have. I love you Fili Arkin. I wish you were my one..."

"She wrote this about me too?" Fili sighed. He saw tear stains on the page. They belonged to Dalila.
"Yes. Almost every page is about you. All good and happy things until that last one." Astrid explained.
"I'm not going to read the others I feel bad enough about reading these. Thank you Astrid. I really do appreciate all your help. I'm going to her."
"Go. But be careful. If you died the pages in the book would be really sad."
"You're awful."
"No, I'm honest."

"That's true. I can't believe I made her cry. I've never felt so low."
"Go, wipe her tears away. Comfort her."
"I am."
"But watch out for Bofur. He's visiting her. She told him about it and he seemed pretty upset about it."
"Thanks for the warning. I'll avoid him at all cost."

So Fili set off for Mirkwood. His goal was to find Dalila and tell her the truth and win her back. But would he succeed?