Lucas

The tension rose between us, I could practically feel the heat emanating from her body just by standing less than a feet away from her. 

I heard her swallowing hard and I ended up doing the same, using the opportunity to take a deep breath, almost like she's just reminded me that I hadn't done that in a while and that the breath I didn't know I was holding was becoming too much.

I wanted to kiss her. Correction - I needed to kiss her. Period. 

My mind wasn't letting me act on my heart's needs, I was still deliberating everything so thoroughly. 

Her chocolate brown eyes bore into me and I felt bare right then and there. I felt like whatever layer I may have tried to put on to mask my true feelings during the past month that she's been in my life, was gone. 

I was purely transparent. She looked at me and she looked at me, saw me entirely and saw me whole. She may not know it, but that's how she sees me.

I could hear the wind blowing outside and the leaves from the tree next to my house ruffling in their branches, daring Mother Nature's strength to take them down and I released another breath.

I was falling for this girl, hard. I've made peace with that, I've accepted that, I just have no fucking idea why I'm walking on eggshells around Nicole right now, when I just want to take a step further and make her mine. 

Rough thought? Maybe I'm afraid of rejection. My heart's been battered and bruised before and I don't want to go through that again. But for some reason, my heart tells me that I won't, because I trust her wholeheartedly and I just know that she wouldn't dare to do such a terror to me. 

My fingers brushed against hers, that were resting against her thighs, so gently I thought I might unconsciously back up and take it all back. Then her fingertips wrapped around mine tightly, almost as if she was reading my mind and gesturing me that it was okay.

I bent down and my lips captured hers and the moment it happened, I knew she felt the same way about me and I knew this wasn't a mistake, not in the slightest.

If I had just straight up kissed her instead of overthinking every little thing that crossed my mind, we could have spent some more time kissing because God knows every moment our lips touch, I just want more. 

This kiss feels different from the first one we shared, we're  both more impatient, more rough against each other, more hungry. The taste of her lips on mine could almost make me die, yet in fact, the kiss itself is what's solely keeping me alive.

It's only when I feel her fingers pulling my hair at the nape of my neck that I realize our hands are no longer touching and while hers are pulling my sandy curls, mine are travelling all over her body, slowly and gently.

She moaned against my mouth and we found ourselves taking a second, long break to breathe. Nicole wastes no time in wrapping her hands around my neck and pulling me down to meet her lips again, this time our tongues meeting in a battle for dominance.

We were hot and flushed and I'm pretty sure I was sweating already and she hadn't even touched me, right there. But by the trail her hands are tracing all over my body, it doesn't seem like it's gonna take that longer until she reaches the area where I needed her the most. 

Stop it.

I have to put a stop to this before it's too late.

"Nic-Nicole-"

"I know, I know." She responded, out of breath, looking down at the ground while I let my weight fall on the desk behind me as I sat down.

I gave her an apologetic look that wasn't enough to show her how sorry I was that we weren't acting on our wishes.

"I'm sorry, Nicole. I just don't want us to do something that we might regret later, that's all."

"Do you believe that?" I noticed my hands were still gently tracing random patters on her thigh, but she did nothing to stop it and neither did I.

Her question came out as a whisper and I felt my heart literally clench in my rib cage.

Do I? No.

"No." 

"Lucas, I think that if we both don't believe that this," She gestured between the two of us and wiggled her eyebrows in the most adorable way as she looked at me through her eyelashes. "will constitute any future regret, of any kind, nothing's stopping us."

God, she wanted it just as much as I did and this was the confirmation I needed to grow a pair and cup her face in my hands, crash my lips against hers in a hurried kiss, while leading her out of the office with me and going into my bedroom. 

We were stomping on each other's toes, each one of us walking faster than the other while our arms wrestled and tangled as we touched each other frantically, like this was going to be our last day on Earth. 

I felt her fingers wiggling through the buttons of my shirt as we entered the bedroom and that was my cue to gently pull at her top and next thing I know, we were both undressed above our waists, clothes thrown care-freely on the ground. 

I turned on the lights on the bedside table and stood glued to the ground just looking at her body in front of me. I was truly speechless. There was never no woman that I've ever been with that looked this beautiful and I am one hundred percent sure that there will never be no other one. 

She had a lacy white bra on that highlighted her tan skin, making it look like it was made just for her and for her only. Her chest was rising and falling as she took shallow, uneven breaths and I could not look away from the view in front of me.

"How are you even real?" I managed to say quietly. I brushed my fingers against the smooth skin of her stomach until I reached the lacy fabric, looking at the goosebumps I caused to rise. 

She trailed her hands across my bare chest before wrapping them around my neck again and pull me down for a passionate kiss until we reached the bed and I turned us around, allowing her to lay down on the mattress before me just before she leans up and unbuttons my jeans with steady fingers, all her inhibitions fully out the window by now. 

I do the same and I unzip her skirt, pulling it down alongside with her tights, taking my time to touch her legs gently as I do so, enjoying the feeling of my hands on her calf. 

With nothing but underwear between the two of us, I get up and supporting all my weight in the palms of my hands that rest on each side of her body, I hover over Nicole's goddess body, wasting no time in smashing my lips against hers again, what has proven to be a never ending urge. 

"You're so beautiful." I say once we break the kiss as we both gasp for air. 

"You too." She said in a whisper while looking me right in the eye, before kissing my jawline and my neck, then kissing my lips again. 

She wraps her legs around my waist to turn us around so now I'm the one lying on the mattress and she's sitting on a very protuberant area of my body, causing me to start shifting underneath her. 

My hands travel through the parts of her body that they haven't visited, and I can feel through the fabric of the matching white lacy panties that she's as ready as I am.

I hear her whimper through our long lasting kiss while my fingers made their way under her underwear, touching her where she ached for me while she gently rolled her hips against my digits. 

Without thinking twice I wrapped my arms around her back as I rolled us around in the now ruffled bed, and took my chance being on top to take off my boxers and her panties. After doing so, I led my mouth down her thighs, my lips gently grazing her skin until I reached her core and licked her clean. 

The sounds that came out of her mouth after my tongue did its' job were enough to cause my member to twitch - I wanted to be inside her, I needed to be inside her.

"Once we do this, there's no going back." 

"I'll take my chances. Do you?" She didn't even need to tell me twice.

The speed with which I rolled on a condom had to be a record.

The moment our bodies joined into one in a swift movement while we kissed each other passionately was the moment I wanted to live in forever, until the rest of my life. The way her lips parted as she moaned against my mouth while I rocked against her sent chills down my spine and I, too, found myself groaning in pleasure.

I kept moving in and out of her, first slowly giving her some time to adjust to my size, not wanting to hurt her. Then the urge became too urgent, her moans were driving me crazy, and I slammed inside her faster and harder. I was reaching my peak and from the sounds she made, so was she.

I brought my fingers to her bundle of nerves that I touched rapidly, twisted and pinched, causing her to scream my name in my ear as she squirmed on me. Needless to say that was music to my ears and I exploded. 

I felt like a lightning bolt had hit me when we both finished, the feeling of Nicole clenching around me as she rode out her orgasm and I rode out mine, was undoubtedly what heaven felt like, I was sure. 

I don't know why I thought this negatively but I was expecting Nicole to turn to her side of the bed after I pulled out of her and laid next to naked body, but instead she pulled the covers on top of both of us before she tangled her legs with mine and rested her head in the crook of my neck and draped one arm around my chest. 

I brought my hand to her cheek, caressing it gently - the gesture caused her to smile at me, her teeth biting her bottom lip softy. The adorableness of this sight had my head in the clouds. 

"I'm so glad we did this." I admitted truthfully as I turned my head to her side, our noses barely touching. 

"Me too." She nodded. "I could never regret crossing this line with you, Luc." I felt her index finger tracing my jawline one way and then back. 

I let my fingers wander to her back, tracing her spine alternating my pressure against her skin while she traced small kisses on my neck, while at the same time I admired her features in the dim honey colored light.

I turned around to turn off the light and returned to the warm embrace in which we both fell asleep, peacefully and soundly, earning us ten blissful hours of sleep. 

 * * * 

"Uh, I'm sorry, did I wake you?"

Her raspy sleepy voice sounded even better at ten o'clock on a Sunday morning.

"No, not at all. It's pretty bright outside already."

She shrugged as she turned around in her heels. Standing by the edge of the bed in nothing but the panties she's managed to retrieved from the floor and my shirt barely buttoned, she looked like an angel that fell straight from heaven. 

"I'm sorry, I was cold." She explained as she made her way under the sheets and found her place next to me.

My head was resting against the palm of my hand as I propped myself on my elbow, to properly look at her face as she laid her head on the pillow, her brown eyes looking at me, looking right through me. 

My index finger traced the side of her face gently, causing her to smile. The feeling of her cheeks softly lifting as her lips curved into an upward position was what I lived for. 

I was intoxicated by her smell, I was high on it.

"You're the most amazing girl I have ever met."

I thought she hadn't heard my whisper at first, the blank expression on face eating me alive, but not too long after, she replied.

"You're the most amazing guy I have ever met. I'm not just saying that, you're... perfect. But I do have to admit that we're... we're probably going to fast."

I understand her completely, we're on the same page - this thing that we have, happened too soon and too fast for our own good, and it felt like jumping off a plane without parachutes. 

The adrenaline of our cosmic connection had my blood pumping every time our eyes met and our hands touched and I felt like it was giving me a reason to live, to really live, not just breathe, eat, work and sleep, which I now realize it seemed to be my routine for the past years.

"I'm not saying I want it to end, though." She said, this time more loudly. I smiled.

"Me either. That's the last thing I want."

Once again I realized that this is not the easy part, as opposite to what I thought previously. This is the hard part because I feel absolutely naked with this woman - literally -, to the point that it scares me, because I know that we have so much that brings us together, yet I also know there's a lot of things that can take her away from me in a blink of an eye.

And that's the last thing I ever want to go through.

Losing her now, after all that we've experienced together, would kill me. 

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Author's Note: 

Hey pumpkins! I warned ya this one was going to be steamy and cute - I didn't lie, did I? 😉 

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