Dear Diary,

So I opened this thing up with Jess and Lester kasi alam kong sila lang ang makakapagsabi sa 'kin kung tama ba yung ginagawa ko or natatanga na talaga ako. And it was obviously the latter. So civil na kami ni Migs, we're exchanging 'hellos' pero palagi pa rin syang nakasimangot kapag nagagawi ang tingin nya sa 'kin.

Over dinner, nagkwento ako kina Jess at Lester. At ang dalawang gaga, pinapa-spill ang details! Muntikan na akong mawalan ng gana.

Tapos hindi nila ako tinipid sa lecture. Normal lang daw yun. Thankful nga raw silang hindi ako inabot ng trenta bago ma-de-virginize! Kaloka sila! But they kept on laughing at me, in the end, natawa na lang din ako. They said it was stupid of me to make a big deal out of it. Mahal daw naman ako ni Migs and I love him back. They said that it was normal for people in love to give themselves so someone they're with.

Pero paano mo nga ba madi-distinguish yung lust with love? Kasi pinoint out ko yung affair ni Lester with my cousin and they were both speechless for a few minutes.

Ang kinakatakot ko kasi, paano kung hindi kami magtagal ni Migs? Paano na yung next guy na magiging boyfriend ko and possibly, asawa? I feel so tainted, diary.

I still think I never should have done it. Pero ayun nga, nadala ako e.

Tao lang,

Ingrid

P.S. Nagulat ako sa text ni Migs. "Sorry. If you want to break up with me, I won't stop you. But I'm not sorry we did that. It was love for me." Naiyak ako dun, diary. Walang halong biro.