Pain rushed through me

My hands shaky

Tears welling up in my eyes

Smearing my black eyeliner down my face

I looked like hell

Crying hard as I sit in the snow

It sparkles around me

Giving me this cold chill

I love this feeling 

It gives me strength

But I just continue to cry

My tears turning black

Staining the snow

I lay in the snow and drift off

Dreaming

..... Dreaming of happy days

           Of my own happiness.