I was glad to hear you gained another friend
I didn't know it was her
Until she messaged me
Shaking
Crying
Scared
Scared you were about to do something stupid
Something you knew we would never forgive ourselves for
You did this night after night
And tried to blame me
It worked
I felt that blame
And couldn't escape it

I shouldn't have had to watch her sob over you
I shouldn't see her be afraid and hurt
I shouldn't have sat in that little room
Barely breathing
Thinking about how one person could
Be so fucked up
That they fuck up other people

I wasn't angry
When you didn't come to me
I wasn't left questioning
whether any of it was fair on me
My first thought wasn't
Why didn't he tell me any of this?
It was
How could he do this to her?

You took advantage of someone you knew
Wouldn't say no
You took advantage of her time
Her kindness
Her spirit
You left her tired and broken
Helpless
Scared

Now she's reluctant to open up
You've taken her voice
And distorted it
You've thrown it back into her throat
But it's not the same anymore
It's  a low shallow whisper
One that's trying to scream for help
For your apology
For your forgiveness
I am afraid she will whisper forever
You did not care about her
You still don't
No amount of empty words
Or bullshit apologies
Will ever change what you did
Or how you claim to feel

They say it takes strength to forgive
But you have weakened me
Weakened her
I may forgive you for the actions against me
But not for what you did to her

How could you take someone
So innocent
And undeserving
And destroy them?

Was she just another obstacle
You had to crash through
just to get closer to me?

Where do you get off using 14 year old girls as suicide hotlines?
Where do you get off destroying the people I love?

Why are you so cruel?