(Not a part of the series but I wanted to write it as it is something I'm currently experiencing. This is inspired by This Is Me Trying by Taylor Swift. I love that song so much- listen to it !!! The numbers is the grading system used in my school. Enjoy and review :) )

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I was good in school
I tried
I watched
I listened
I learnt
I improved
I had high grades
Many achievements
Multiple certificates
Numerous points

I was told I was a good writer
I could do good things
Great things
I could achieve more than most
I could get out of the graveyard I've grown up in and make something of myself

The grades got lower
The achievements lessened
The certificates reduced to scraps
Points still at 20

I stopped trying
I sat in lessons staring
Thinking about the girl I could have been
I didn't listen
I couldn't focus
My thoughts just swam around my head
Clouding my judgement , my ability to work

You need to try harder
You're going to fail
You've fallen behind
You need to get back on the wagon
What happened to you?

The truth is I don't know
I don't when I started to fail
I don't why it happened
All I know is that I don't want this
I want to be perfect
I have to be perfect
I need to be perfect

But I can't
Because I've fallen behind
I've fallen behind and i don't know how to carry on
I don't know how to lift my head up high and walk forward
I don't know why I can't be smart any more

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Help me