"Hey Newtie!" You yell halfway across the Glade when you see your boyfriend, Newt, run through the walls. You sprint towards him from the fields and wrap him in a hug. You wrap your legs around him and he spins you, kissing you slowly.

"Hey Newt. You can shuck around with your girlfriend later!" Minho yells. "Come on. You gotta make your map!"

Newt sets me down softly and kisses you. "See you later love." He says. You kiss him again and he runs off towards Minho and then they run to the Map Room.

Then you have the most magnificent idea in the world: follow them to the Map Room and listen to what they talk about.

You smirk and take off after them. You know where the Map Room is so you aren't wandering around. You soon reach it without running into anyone.

"... I don't know Minho. It almost seems like she's trying too hard." You hear Newt say. You freeze and lean against the wall, pressing your ear to it. "Newt. She loves you. Any shank can see that." Minho replies. You smile sadly and look around almost lost. They continue to talk for a little while. Then six words completely break you.

"I don't think I do Minho." You stumble back from the wall dazed for a second. "No." You say, a little bit too loud that you would've liked. Then you regain your senses when the door of the Map Room swings open and Newt and Minho exit, still talking.

You shake your head and run around the side of the building. A few branches break underneath your feet, but you don't pay them any mind. Silent tears stream down your face. "No." You say. Newt didn't love you.

Newt didn't love you.

You finally break and collapse onto the ground, sobbing. No. No no no no. You're so stupid. Naive. You knew Newt didn't love you. He never could. There would be other girls in the world when we escaped. He doesn't want to be tied down to a girl. To you.

You shake your head and try to gather yourself. Keep it together Y/N. You say to yourself. You finally gather yourself and head back towards the Homestead for dinner.

You reach the Homestead and avoid eye contact with all the boys. Your eyes stay trained on the ground as you make your way towards Frypan to receive your dinner.

"Hey Fry." You say. "Hey Y/N. What's wrong?" He asks. You look up to meet his eyes and instantly regret it. His eyes are concerned and caring. You swear this boy is way older than he looks. You shake your head and walk away without your food. "Hey Y/N! Your food?!" Frypan yells. You ignore him and find a table all by itself and sit down.

You set your head down on the table and sobs rack your body. You're losing Newt. The best thing that ever happened to you. Another sobs rocks your body. No Y/N. You lost him. You're not losing him. You lost him.

A hand settles on your back and you instantly jerk away. "Leave me alone. Please. I'm tired." You say. The hand never leaves you back, instead it starts to rub small, comforting circles on your back. Without seeing who the boy is, you turn into his embrace and sob onto his shoulder. He continues to run your back and you slowly stop sobbing, until it's only a few stray tears.

"What's wrong love?"

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A/N

So everyone. I've decided to do this in two parts. Thanks for reading this!!