" i choose " i sighed and looked around, i saw Jasper was on his knees with his head down. (If vampires could cry) i thought to myself as i slowly walked towards him. When i got in front of him i crouched down on my knees and held his face in my hands. I could feel the coldness of his skin, the smoothness of his perfect face only to be slightly interrupted by the old bite marks. " my darling, look at me" i whispers only to be heard by wondering ears. He slowly raised his head and placed his forehead on mine not daring to look me in the eyes. "please'' his voice came out in a whisper, my heart shattered at how desperate he sounded, how broken. "i choose you" i pulled back slightly to see the light in his eyes become noticed again. He pulled me into a tight embrace afraid to let me go again. He whispered apologies, it was like his voice was on repeat with those words. " i forgive you my mate" i whispered back smoothing his worries. " my child " my mother's words interrupted our moment. I got up with Jasper by my side and faces her. "I'm sorry my mother, but my home is here" i turned and smiled at the people i call my family. She let out a sad sigh and faced away. " As you wish my child" her voice carried in the wind as she disappeared into the night. "Ash" Carlisle started " can we talk about this back at the house" we all agreed and walked back to the big glass house in the forest.  When we walked back to the house Jasper took me to the over seat and sat me on his lap, not daring to let me go for a second.  Everyone sat down to form a circle. "I'm sorry, i felt like i mess things up and shouldn't be here, i mean  my mate was fearful of me so i ran" tears sprung in my eyes as i lifted my and up while lightly the tips of my fingers on fire, i closed my hand into a fist getting rid of the fire. "Darlin' i'm so sorry" Jasper whispered holding me tighter like i would disappear before his eyes. I didn't like my mate so upset and started purring to calm him, i got a positive response as he calmed slightly. I heard the family leave as they gave us so time alone. "I could of lost you" he lifted his head to look  me in the eyes. His eyes held so many emotions, hurt, anger, and fear." "I'm so sorry" i whispered back while putting my forehead on his and holding his face with my hands. "I love you" We both whispered at each other soaking up each others presents. (Back where i belong, home)