"Love? Is that what you want to call it? Do you think I love you? Don't take me lightly, Y/N." Jimin said while grabbing me by the chin

"If it's not love, then what is it? Why do you keep doing this to me? Why do you keep playing with me? Why are you so obsessed with me?" I said trying to get his grip off of me

"I've done everything you asked of me! I married you just like you wanted, you got what you wanted from your father because of me! What more could you possibly want? Why won't you let me go?" I continued

He stood there silently gazing into my eyes. His aura filled the room with dread. Was I right? Was there something more he wanted from me?

Finally, he spoke. "And if I said I did love you, would you be willing to spend the rest of your life with me..?"

I froze not knowing what to say. Did he really just confess to me? Am I dreaming? Does he love me..?

"You don't have to answer it.." He said

"And you don't have to answer mine.."

"You really don't know me, do you? When I desire something, I yearn for it and then it makes me want it even more despite what may happen." He said

"Then, was I not what you desired? Did you not want me..?"

"Shut up! You know nothing about what I want. I'm treating you this way because your ill and if you weren't then I would have treated the same way as before."

"Let me ask you this. Do you even care about me, genuinely?" I spoke with a calm voice

"Stop talking." He said

Why was he acting this way? Was his pride in the way? There are the sides I do know, his caring and angry side. But one cannot over power the other and this causes him to be the way he is. A man who doesn't know what feeling is.

His facial expressions changed. He looked like he was trying to hold back his anger. His jaw clenched, his fists tightened. His eyes staring into mine intensely. For a moment I felt scared.

"Calm down, okay..?" I said

"Calm down? What gives you the right to say that?" He said

I didn't know what to do. I suddenly felt like I needed to hold him in my arms. I cupped his cheek in my hands and leaned towards him and planted a soft kiss on his lips. Was that the right thing to do?

His eyes widened at my sudden actions. I didn't know why I had done that, but in the moment it felt right. I felt like he needed comforting and I wanted to do everything I could to make sure he was okay. Did I feel something for him?

I was too embarrassed to even look him in the eyes. My actions must be replaying in his mind over and over again.

"You looked like you needed comforting-" I said as I was being cut off by Jimin placing his lips on mine once more

My heart began to race, but the feeling of his lips on mine was something I wanted to last forever. The kiss was passionate and loving, something I have never felt before coming from him. How I loved this.

Our fingers intertwined with one another as we both lovingly fell into each others arms.

Jimin broke the kiss by saying "One kiss isn't enough to subside my anger.."

Then suddenly our lips connected again and once more that feeling of someone hungry for anything returned to him. The kiss no longer felt warm and loving but rather the opposite.

"What? Are you not enjoying it, Sweetheart?" He said

"Jimin..." I said

Things started to intensify as he was taking things rapidly and my body couldn't take it.

"S- Stop please.." I begged

I tried my best to get him off of me, but I couldn't resist the temptation I was feeling. Although my body didn't want what he was giving me, my heart is what wanted it more. His hand against my skin and his lips against mine. I wanted it more and more. But I knew that if I gave in, I wouldn't be able to escape.

"Jimin, please stop. This is enough.."

"Once I've let go, I can't control myself."

"No, don't continue any further." I said as he was about to kiss me again

"What? Why?" He asked

I looked at him with a nervous face trying to think of an excuse and said "I can't continue. It's that time of the month."

He looked at me and chuckled. "Why didn't you say anything earlier?"

"I- I don't know.."

"Why are you suddenly being shy? Is there something your hiding?"

"No not that, I just have never told a guy anything like that before, so it's a bit uncomfortable.."

"You're really childish aren't you? How lucky you are." He said laughing a bit while pinching my cheek

He got up and started to walk away. I placed my hand on my chest feeling my heart beat increase. The feeling of relief overflowed within me. My lie worked, but who knows for how long that will last.

I couldn't stop my thoughts from interfering and suddenly tears started to come from my eyes. I didn't know I still had some left to shed.

"Why is it always me? Why is it that I'm the only one he desires? There are plenty of women who can satisfy his needs, but why must he always choose me?" I asked myself these questions all the time and yet they never seem to leave my mind.

Love is something you give to the one you have deep affection for. Is what we have for each other the opposite of love? Maybe it wasn't love to begin with, but rather who would gain dominance over the other.

I'm tired of living this horrid nightmare. I want him to see me as his wife, not as someone who can be taken advantage of. Every time I see him its always the same expression, lust.

Why can't he just love me..?

I couldn't silence the thoughts in my mind so I fell asleep hoping I could escape them just this once.

-Next morning-

"Y/N..? Dear? Are you awake?" Said a soft voice

I woke up to the familiar voice and there she was. Jimin's grandmother.

"Oh, Good morning!" I said while giving her a warm smile

"Good morning! Do you know where Jimin ran off to? I can't seem to find him.." She said sounding a bit confused

"What do you mean? Is he not in the house?" I asked worryingly

"No, but I have an idea of where he must be." She said and hurriedly walked out the door

I quickly got dressed and followed after her. We walked out to the back yard where the scenery was breathtaking. No words could describe the beauty I saw. Flowers that bloomed as far as the eye could see and in the middle, a bench surrounded by flowers.

And there he was. Sitting down on the bench staring off into the distance. What was he doing in a place like this? I would've never imagined him enjoying this place.

"Jimin built this place in dedication to his mother. She was so beautiful and loved being around flowers just like this. She would always go into the field and dance around with him in her arms. After she passed away, he continued to come here and mourn her once again."

I didn't what to say or even what I could say. I never knew that somewhere in that cold heart of his he could love someone as much as her. Could he possibly love someone like that again?

"You know Y/N, you remind me of her. Kind, sweet and most importantly, loving. On the other hand Jimin is like his father. His father never realized the love his wife had for him and when he did, it was too late. She had already passed away.

"What do you mean? Jimin isn't like his father at all. Unlike Jimin, his father is very kind to me." I said

"People change with time. It took him years to become the person he is now. When his father was about his age, he was just like Jimin, but now he is someone completely different from his past self."

She continued "I hope you both realize the love you have for each other. Tell him how you feel before it's too late.."

"Don't worry, I won't let that happen. When the time is right only then will I be sure of my feelings for him. Right now I don't know what I feel for him or how to love him." I said

"I'm sure you'll find the answer your looking for. Now go and fetch Jimin." She said smiling at me

I nervously walked over to where he was and sat down right next to him.

"What are you doing here..?" Said a calm voice

I turned around to face him and said "Your grandmother brought me here. She was worried because she couldn't find you. I hope that's alright.."

I continued "She told me wonderful stories about your mother. She seemed kind and loving. I admire her. She had people who loved her and she loved them back. I heard what you did for me inviting my father to the party. Thank you.."

He sat there in silence until he spoke and said "Let's go.."

Did he not hear a word I said? Was he ignoring me? I didn't know what to say so I said "Okay.."

We walked back into the house and there stood his grandmother greeting us.

"There you are! You left me there all by myself..." I said

"I thought you two could use some time alone." She said giving me a smile

"You should never let her wonder off on her own. She's like a child whose lost their parent." Jimin said

"W- What..? A child? I am not a child." I said

"You may look like your grown, but you have the mentality of a 5 year old. It's hilarious." He said

"Stop it! I'll say it again, I am not a child." I said sounding aggravated

"How childish." He said

"Jimin be nice. That is your wife. That's no way to speak to her."

"I'm not being rude simply stating what is true." He said

There are days when he infuriates me and there are days when I just give up trying to argue with him. When we fight like this, it makes it feel like we are a real couple.

"I forgot to ask, have you seen Eun-a?" Said his Grandmother

"Eun-a? The last time I saw her was yesterday. She was with Jimin..." I said

"How did you.." He asked stopping before he could finish

He looked at me with eyes of confusion. Should I have not mentioned what I saw yesterday? I don't know what to do..

"I saw you with her, is that such a surprise..?" I said while looking away to avoid eye contact

"I see. She must be resting somewhere then." He said

"Oh.." I said

"Let's just eat our breakfast quietly." He said

He continued "I'll be leaving for a business trip and won't return for 4 days."

"4 days..?" I asked

"What? Afraid you'll miss me?" He said chuckling

"It isn't like that..."

"I'd rather you not miss me."

Soon after he left, but he didn't return after 4 days. I started to worry, I started to miss him. I felt empty and lost. What do I do? My heart is beginning to yearn for him and the pain I'm feeling is unbearable.

His voice, his presence, everything about him, I started to miss all of that. I wanted him, I wanted him by my side. I couldn't even pick up the phone to call him because I was scared.

So many thoughts crossed my mind. Is he safe? Did something happen to him? Why hasn't he come back to me? He told me he would be back after 4 days, but it's already been 8 days.

Am I doing this because I love him..?

How could I possibly love someone whose treated me so terribly? Could it be true?

"Y/N? Dear..?"

I came back to reality and there she was, smiling at me. Jimin's grandmother.

"Sorry I was just thinking-"

"Thinking about Jimin?" She said

"N- No it's not like that-"

"How many times are you going to keep denying it? You miss him. No need to hide it. It's written all over your face."

She continued "You see only what your eyes want you to, but you ignore the other sides he has. You light up his life in many ways that I have seen. Why can't you believe that? Listen to me not because I'm his grandmother but because I have explored every side of the person I loved."

"Jimin won't listen to me, but I'm sure he'll listen to you. Your the only one he cares deeply about." She concluded

She walked out of the kitchen leaving me there alone. What was she talking about? Did Jimin have more sides to him I didn't know about? This pressure I'm feeling is overwhelming and I'm not sure what to do.

I made my way into the room I shared with Jimin and laid down.

"What is he doing right now? Is he with someone else..?" I asked myself

Was I desperately wanting him to be with me? What am I thinking? But why is it that every time my mind wonders, I think of him. Why do you make me feel this way? Please someone tell me that I don't love him. Someone tell me this is only make believe.

Suddenly I heard a familiar voice coming from the living room. I got up to see who it was and there he stood.

"Suga...?" I said

He turned towards me and gave me a smile.

"Did you miss me? I thought I should visit this place. It's been years since I've been here. I'm surprised to see you here, Y/N." He said

"You know Y/N?" Said Jimin's grandmother

"I do. Very well actually. After all, she's my girlfriend." He said giving me a smirk

My eyes widened in disbelief. How could he say that, especially in front of Jimin's grandmother. What was going through his mind?

"What do you mean? How is she your girlfriend when she's married to my grandson? What kind of nonsense is this?" She said

"Believe me when I say it isn't true-" I said

"Not true? Why tell such lies Y/N? It's true that your dating me, why deny it?" He said

"W-What..?" I said

I turned to look at Jimin's grandmother who stood there looking at me with a face of disappointment. Who knew this could hurt so much. My heart aches just looking at her. I didn't want her to think of me in a negative way. I feel like I let the only person who understood me down.

"Please don't be disappointed. The one you should be disappointed in is your grandson. He took her from me and refused to give her back. She's the one I want by my side." He said

He walked towards me and grabbed my hand.

"Suga what are you doing?" I asked

"I want to talk to you. Come with me." He said while grabbing my hand and dragging me outside

"Suga let me go." I said trying to break his grip

"Why did you deny our relationship? Do I mean nothing to you?"

"Please try to be understanding-"

He came closer and placed both hands on either side of me trapping me in between.

"Your mine, Y/N."

"Suga have you forgotten I'm married? You can't just-"

"Leave him. Be with me instead."

"Get off of her." Said a familiar voice

"Jimin..?" I said

He came closer to us and pulled Suga off of me.

"Wait! Don't hurt him-" I said

"Hurt him? Is that what your worried about?" Jimin said grabbing me by the hair

"That's enough!" Said Suga

Suddenly Suga punched Jimin making him back off a little.

"What the hell?!" Jimin said

I didn't want to see what was unfolding in front of my eyes. Was he really going to kill him? Was he going to kill Suga? Suddenly he froze dropping the knife on the ground.

"I- I'm sorry, Suga.." Jimin said walking away and returning to the house

I looked at Suga who stood there frozen also. Fear filled his eyes as he came back to reality.

"Suga are you okay..?" I asked

"I- I'm fine. The one you should worry about is Eun-a. I beg you, stay away from her!" He said

"Eun-a? Why?" I asked

"She went missing a few days ago. I don't know what she's up to, but keep a distance. If she returns, act like you know nothing. She loves Jimin and will do whatever necessary to keep him close to her."

"I promise you that I will." I said

"Good. I should get going now."

And with that he got up and left like nothing happened.

Jimin POV:

I took a look in the mirror to see more scars on my body.

"What a miserable life this is.." I said

I recalled my last assignment and the gruesome acts I had to commit. I kept remembering the things he said to me.

"You killed your mother and now you should pay with your life!"

"I didn't kill her you idiot!"

I kept repeating that event over and over again until tears had formed in my eyes.

"Did I really kill her?" I asked myself

With all the anger built up inside I had no way of releasing it. I grabbed a vase and threw it against the wall.

"Why does everyone believe I am the bad guy? Why do they think I hurt others for my own amusement? Tell me what I'm doing wrong! I don't kill the innocent, only those who've done wrong in this world. Is that so hard to believe?" I continued

My anger wouldn't subside and it only grew worse and because of that I could only throw things across the room.

Suddenly I heard footsteps nearing the room. The door opened and there revealed Y/N.

"What's going on here?" She asked

"What? Do you think I'm a monster too? Is that who you think I am.."

"W-What..?"

I walked towards her making her take a few steps back until she reached the wall.

"Are you afraid of me Y/N? Why are you walking away from me?"

"Jimin please try and be calm.."

"How can I possibly be calm when I just saw my wife with another man.."

"It isn't what it looks like-"

"Do you love him?"

Suddenly she hugged me. Her embrace felt warm and loving. I didn't want her to let go.

Y/N POV:

I couldn't bare to see the pain in his eyes. He was hiding how hurt he was behind all the anger and his eyes were cold and dark. 

I remembered what his Grandmother had said to me and I felt like I needed to hold him a little longer. I wanted to show him how much he meant to me, how much I loved him..

"I don't know what's wrong, but let me comfort you. I don't hate you, how can I when your like this.."

"W- What? How can you not hate me? Even after everything I put you through.."

I cupped his cheeks in my hands and planted a kiss on his lips. Suddenly he grabbed my waist pulling me closer to him. Our bodies were pressed against each other as he kissed me so deeply.

He broke the kiss and said "I need you.."

He picked me up and laid me on the bed as he hovered over me. His gaze wondered throughout my entire body. He kissed me again with his hand roaming my body. He unbuttoned his shirt and threw it on the ground and soon after mine were no longer on me. 

Jimin POV:

She called out my name and that made me want her to say it louder. 

"Jimin, can we stop here..?" She said as she covered her body with her hands

She pushed me with what little strength she had and said "Why is it that you only want my body? Why can't you just love me.."

"Isn't this what you wanted?" I asked and continued anyways ignoring what she had to say

Our bodies against each others, our lips connected to one another. This feeling was unimaginable and I wanted it to continue. 

"Your mine and only mine.."

"Stop please.."

"Stop? It's clear to me you want me just as much as I want you. What's holding you back?"

"This isn't the type of relationship I want where no love is shown. I don't want our relationship to be solely based on lust and desires. I'm willing to give you what you want, but I want you to love me even if it's just a little."

"You believe love makes you weak, but I believe it's a strength and I want to prove that to you. Can't you just share a bit of your happiness with me? Won't you change for me? Love isn't just something you feel, but rather an emotion that can be shared. I want you to love me so I can finally feel complete. I've already fallen for you, Jimin.."