Chapter 4
"I won't kill you. I don't want to kill my only obsession." He said looking at me with those eyes of his
"The game has only just begun Sweetheart. Everyone wants you because your the wife of a Mafia king, your only safe with me and you know it. Don't forget it." He said as he poked me with the gun and demanded his guards to untie me and bury the coffin of the little boy
He truly was heartless. Showing no sympathy towards the little boy, not even the slightness bit of pity.
He began making his way towards the door until he stopped in his tracks and looked at me and said "Aren't you coming?"
"I- I'm coming.."
We got in the car and it was silent the entire car ride home. I wondered if he was mad at me for something. I pondered the thought a little but came back to realization and quickly brushed off the feeling. I thought to myself why do I care if he is or isn't? But I also don't want him to get the wrong idea about me either.
"J- Jimin.." I said in a low voice as he turned around to face me with his cold expressionless face
I quickly realized that I had called him by his name. He began walking towards me without breaking eye contact
"I- I'm sorry.." I said as he slowly made his way closer to me making my back hit the wall behind me
"M- Master.."
"Don't say a word. I don't want to hear anything from you." He said as he put his finger on my lips to keep me from saying anything else
He leaned closer to me and whispered "I'm not in the mood for giving you a punishment today, but I want to give you something very intense."
"W- What do you mean..?"
"Just you wait and see." he said as his breath was hitting my lips. Our lips were almost touching.
We were lost in each others gaze until a hand hit the wall beside me. I turned around in confusion only to see Suga standing there with a darkened expression looking at me.
"Hey! Jimin! How dare you touch my girl! My girl!"
Jimin scoffed at his statement and turned around to look at him pulling me away him.
"Your girl?"
Jimin grabbed my hair and put it to a side revealing the marks he had left me on my neck and jawline.
"I don't see your name on her, only the marks and the bites that I made, so you can't claim her." He said while smirking at Suga
Suga's expression became darker and his eyes looked like they were filled with anger.
"Suga, she is my wife. I only have right on her."
"Wife? Do you even treat her like one?" Said Suga as he scoffed at Jimin's remark
"That's our own matter. No need to get in between."
I looked at Suga as I knew he was right. Jimin never did treat me like his wife. He only married me for the damn company he so much adores. I felt used and unwanted by him. It made me feel weak and powerless.
"Why don't you just leave her for another girl? It'd make things a lot easier between us." Jimin said holding onto my wrist tightly
"Why would I do that? It will only hurt my pride and have you forgotten about your dear Soona? Once she's back Y/N is mine. Am I right Jimin? Your a man of your word and I know you wouldn't let your desire go that easily."
"Come on Jimin, do you really want to leave the only thing you've ever desired for Y/N? That'll only hurt your pride even more, so just hand Y/N over to me and go after Soona." Suga finally concluded while patting Jimin on the shoulder
Jimin turned his gaze off of me and turned towards Suga and said "Fine, I'll let her go once I've been completely satisfied with her." Jimin said while pulling me away from Suga and dragging me to his room
"M- Master let go of me.." I said wincing in pain
Suddenly he turned me around and pinned me to the wall with both hands on both sides of me. I was terrified of what he was going to do and I just froze in place not knowing what to do. I could tell there was anger in his eyes when I looked at him.
"Don't you dare try to look at me!"
"W- What did I do..?" I asked in confusion
Jimin POV: Her eyes. Those eyes of hers that have me obsessed with her. Those eyes that make me want more of her. Its like her eyes are playing with my heart and its getting annoying, but I can't resist looking into them.
"M- Master let go of me.."
"Stay quiet will you." I said raising my voice a little making her flinch
Her voice made me weak and I just couldn't hold it back anymore.
"M- Master..?"
I looked at her as I could tell she was confused and said "Are you ready for your punishment Sweetheart?"
She looked down at the floor and shook her head no.
"But darling you know I love giving you punishments." I whispered in her ear making her breathing heavy
"I- I don't w-"
"Do you want it to hurt? Huh?" I said as she quickly shook her head no
"Now let me ask you a question. Who do you belong to?"
She stayed quiet but I was becoming impatient and said "Answer me Y/N!"
"I don't belong to anyone and I'm not property either!" She said looking up at me with her eyes filled with tears as she began to try to push me away from her
"Hey! That's enough!" I said grabbing her hands and pinning them to the wall
She was struggling to free herself from my grip but she ended up giving up.
"Your a strong girl aren't you? But not stronger than me Sweetheart." I said leaning closer to her making her close her eyes in fear
"Don't worry I'm not going to do anything to you, just go make me dinner. Understood?"
Y/N POV: I've never seen Jimin like this, it makes me think why he did what he did. His actions shocked me.
I didn't understand why he couldn't treat me right just once, even the maids are treated better.
I stood there preparing his food until I heard his footsteps walk into the kitchen. I turned to see Jimin sitting at the dining table.
"What did you prepare for me?"
I quickly placed the hot pot on the table and opened it.
"U- Um I made Ox- bone soup and kimchi fried rice to go with it.."
I saw his expression change. It seemed as if what I made had reminded him of something, but I wasn't too sure. I didn't want to over step my boundaries again, so I kept quiet.
"What's wrong? Is there something wrong with the soup? Should I-" I said getting interrupted by Jimin cutting me off
"No it's okay.." He said in a calming tone that sounded so gentle
I grabbed a bowl and began pouring the soup. I stood beside him waiting for him to try it.
Jimin POV: I saw her standing beside me waiting for me to try it.
"Eat with me.." I said looking right at her
"W- What..?" She said with a confused look on her face
"Do I have to repeat myself?"
She shook her head no and grabbed another bowl and poured herself some.
I couldn't stop thinking about how she made Ox- bone soup. It had brought up something from my childhood that I didn't want to be reminded of, but I had to distract myself from going too deep in thought, that's when I noticed something.
"Same flowers.."
Y/N looked up in confusion and her gaze suddenly went to the direction I was looking at.
"Oh, there was an empty vase so I picked some flowers from the garden."
"She also liked those flowers.." I said in a low voice
Those flowers reminded me of someone. Those white flowers she loved so much.
Y/N had said something but I was already lost in thought as I remembered that day. The day she told me how much she loved those flowers.
"What's wrong..?" Y/N said bringing me back to reality
"Nothing.." I said looking down at the bowl of soup
I was about to take a bite from the bowl when she stopped me.
"That's not how you eat it. You don't know how to eat Ox- bone soup." She said grabbing my bowl and throwing in some vegetables and a sauce.
"Stop copying her!" I said raising my voice
"Copying who..?"
And yet again I was lost in thought thinking about the same person. Everything that Y/N was doing was they way she did it. Why do I keep being reminded of her?
Y/N POV:
"What happened?" I said with a face of confusion
"Why are you doing this? Why?"
Jimin got up pulling the table cloth with him causing the food to fall on the ground. The plates were shattered, the food was everywhere, everything was a mess.
I looked at him with a face of disbelief and said "Why did you do that.."
"Shut up!" He said looking angry, but I couldn't help but notice that his hand was bleeding
"M- Master your hand is bleeding.."
He slammed his hand on the table and said "Don't ever try to make this soup ever again and those flowers-" He picked up the flowers and smashed the vase on the floor causing me to flinch at his sudden actions
He looked at me with his angry face while trying to calm himself down and said "Your a pain in the ass."
"What did you say? Your the one who wanted to marry me and make me life miserable all for your entertainment!" I said with tears rolling down my face
"I married you because I wanted-"
"You married me for your fathers fucking possession! The company! You could have chosen anyone in the world to marry but you chose me! No matter how hard I try to please you, you always end up hurting me in the end! Try to be human for once and have a heart and try to understand where I'm coming from! I'm not messing up your life, your messing up your own life because that's your job isn't it? To fuck everything up. You don't even have a heart. All you can do is kill innocent-"
"Shut the fuck up! You don't even know me, so don't try and act like you do."
He slowly made his way towards me and placed his hand on my cheek and said "You don't even have one clue who I can be, so I suggest you watch what your saying." and he said nothing more and went outside
I felt my legs go numb and I fell to my knees and began crying.
"I'm such an idiot. I thought that if I was kind to him just once, he would change who he is with me, but I was wrong once again."
I began to pick up the broken pieces off the floor and clean up the mess.
Jimin POV: I was so angry that I began walking until I reached the pier in the city. I stood looking at the water that was glistening with the city lights.
"It's not her fault.."
"Did you fight with your wife?"
I turned around to see the person I didn't expect to find me.
"Dad? What are you doing here?"
"I came to get some fresh air."
"That doesn't sound believable."
"Fine you caught me. I came to see you because you never have time to come visit me, so I came here." He said giving me a smile
I didn't know how to respond, all I could think about was her. Y/N.
"Is it easy, dad?"
"What is?"
"To love someone who doesn't love you back? To love someone to the ends of the Earth and have them feel nothing for you?"
He turned around with a face of shock. Like he couldn't believe what he just heard.
"What has gotten into you? You were never like this before? Does she mean this much to you?" He laughed
"I- It's nothing, I was just curious.." I said looking down at the water
He looked up to look at me, then he whispered "It's the most beautiful feeling in the world."
"Doesn't it make us feel weak? Powerless?"
"No not at all. There's nothing more powerful in this world than unrequited love. It's like a bond of no other. A power only you, the lover, can control that no one can take from you. Love like this only resides with you. We don't need the person to be there with us, unless your gambling in the name of love. Then you risk everything, but what is there to fear? Even if you win or you lose, you haven't lost anything in your heart, you only fought for what your heart desired."
"I guess you loved my mom so much." I chuckled
"I loved her more than anything in this world, but I couldn't confess that to her. It was already too late. Don't let what happened to me happen to you."
"What?"
"Confess your feelings to Y/N-"
"I don't love her."
"Soon you will. She's a very lovable girl. Don't take her for granted. There won't be another girl like her and for the first time I'm happy that you made the decision to marry Y/N. Promise me one thing? Don't let her go."
"I can't promise you that."
"Just don't regret letting her go. Also you have to attend the company party because you are the new president. I must get going now, take care son."
I couldn't keep focus to anything my father was saying. I only heard his footsteps slowly fade away.
Y/N POV: I haven't seen or heard from Jimin after our argument. I was starting to get concerned. What if something bad happened to him? I had no way of knowing.
It was already 2:40 AM at night and he hasn't come home. I was falling asleep but I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer.
"Mrs. Park you should get some rest, I'm sure-" Said one of Jimin's body guards
"No, I'm okay, don't worry about me." I said giving a weary smile
"Do you know where he is by any chance?"
"No, he told us not to follow him, he said he wanted to spend some time alone for a while."
I looked down at the floor not knowing what to do. I thought to myself maybe he must be really mad at me, but I should be the one who is angry not him. These emotions were too much for me to handle but I had to let it go.
I didn't care if he slept with another woman, all I knew was that the guard was right. I did need to get some sleep, but something was holding me back. I didn't know why I felt like I needed to be there for him when he came home, but I did.
So I sat myself down on the sofa and waited for what seemed like forever but eventually he came home. I didn't notice he came home until after I heard him calling my name.
"Y/N.."
"M- Master..? Are you okay?" I said in a sleepy voice
"Aw my baby was waiting for me?" He said leaning closer to me
"Are you drunk?"
"N- No..I'm not.." He said grabbing my waist and pulling me towards him
"You are drunk. Let me make some noodles to get rid of your hangover."
"No I want to sleep.."
"Okay then let me take you-" I said as he rested his head on my shoulder
Suddenly he fell down onto the floor pulling me down with him.
"Let's sleep here tonight."
"Your talking nonsense."
"What did you say?"
I tried rolling away from him, but he just just kept on wanting to be close to me. I found myself in a position where I could no longer move further because I was trapped beside the sofa beside me and Jimin blocking me with his arm.
"What are you doing?"
"Aw my Sweetheart is scared of me? I'm starting to like this." He chuckled
I didn't know how to respond to him so I lightly pushed him away and got up.
"Not amusing. Come on I need to get you to bed." I said grabbing onto his arm and wrapping it around my neck, carrying him to his bedroom
I slowly made my way to his room still holding onto him so he wouldn't fall. I kept thinking to myself how heavy he was. I pulled away the blankets so I could lay him down. I removed his shoes and covered him with the blanket. As I was about to leave I heard him call my name.
"Y- Y/N.."
"What..?"
"I feel cold."
I quickly touched his forehead and cheeks to realize he was freezing. I covered him again with another blanket and went to search for the thermostat.
"Let me find the-"
"No, I want you to hug me.."
"W- What..?"
"Do as I say-" He said barely keeping his eyes open
I knew I couldn't argue with him again so I did what he told me to do. I grabbed the blanket and laid down right next to him, pulling him closer to my chest so I could wrap my arms around him.
"Do you still feel cold..?"
"It's much better now.."
I knew if I moved or left he would notice, so I decided to stay the whole night with him.
"My princess.." He said in a soft voice but loud enough for me to hear
I looked at him with a face of shock. He's never called me princess before. Is he really that drunk? I couldn't know for sure.
"I need to tell you something..."
"What is it..?"
"I love you.."
I didn't know how to respond. I was speechless. H- He loved me..? I felt my heart race at those words. My mind was all over the place. I didn't have the strength to have words come out of my mouth.
"I love you so much, that not even words can describe the love I have for you. Why can't you love me back? All I want is for you to love me.."
Is he really drunk? He has to be, right? Why else would he say he loved me? Maybe he's talking about someone else. These thoughts won't stop crossing my mind. I thought to myself do I feel the same way? Do I love him..?
"I've loved you since high school, but why can't I get over you?"
"What?"
"I love you Eun-"
At that moment I knew I was wrong. How could I be so stupid for thinking he loved me? The name he was about to say wasn't mine. Who was this girl? What role did she play in his life? What did she do to him?
I didn't care anymore. I knew I should have focused on myself. How could I be so stupid? And to actually think I felt the same way. I only felt pity for myself. At least he had a heart. A heart that belonged to someone else, someone who wasn't me. Maybe I did love him. I couldn't know that for sure. I just had to wait and see.
-Next day-
I woke up to Jimin still deep in sleep. He looked peaceful and calm and not the face of hatred and anger. He looked like an angel with piercing eyes that made you fall so deep in them. I could only just admire him. In my eyes he was perfect.
That girl he mentioned last night had me curious about who she was. Maybe, just maybe she could change him for the better. Make him a better person.
What am I doing? I shouldn't be acting the way I am. My feelings are all over the place. I don't know how to act or feel. I was just confused.
I decided it was time to leave and make something to eat. As I was about to leave, I felt his hand grab my arm and pull me down making both of us make eye contact. We stayed like that for a few minutes until I decided to break the awkward silence between us.
"Good Morning, you were hungover last night so I laid you down on your bed. I don't know how I ended up sleeping here." I said as I began to shed tears out of no where
"Why are your eyes watery?"
"I just yawned that's all. Why? Are you worried?"
"No, it's not like that. I just don't really remember anything about last night. Everything was a blur. I thought I hurt you again."
"Yesterday, I saw the real you, not the scary man I know."
"How is it easy for you to be kind to people?"
"Because people haven't been kind to me."
Jimin POV: I looked at her. Her eyes were like water. I fell so easily in them. The only thing I could do was hold her in my arms because I was worried, but I couldn't tell her that. I had a bad dream about Y/N and I woke up to her by my side and I felt so relieved.
I didn't know what I was thinking of before, but once I saw Y/N, she was all I could think about. I don't know what I see in her, but there's something about her that I haven't figured out yet.
We laid there for what seemed like hours. I heard my phone ring, so I moved slightly so I wouldn't disturb Y/N.
"Speak."
"Your father invited you and Mrs. Park for lunch."
"Mhm." I said as a sign of okay and hung up the call
I got up from the bed and left the bedroom where Y/N was still sleeping.
Y/N POV: I woke up to see Jimin no where in sight. I got up from off the bed and scanned the room to see if he was in here. He wasn't, so I left the room and asked one of his guards where he was.
"Do you know where Jimin is?"
"He's outside."
"Outside? But it's raining? He doesn't even have an umbrella.."
I grabbed an umbrella and went outside. I saw Jimin standing there. He was still and didn't utter a word.
"Master? What are you doing out here?"
He didn't say a word so I tried again.
"Did something happen?"
"Just go.."
"But It's raining. You should at least come inside."
"Just go inside. I don't want to hurt you again."
Jimin POV: I didn't even look at her, but I could tell she was worried.
"I don't want you to get sick.." She said in almost a sad tone
How can she still care about me so much even when I hurt her the most. I didn't care if I hurt her before because I didn't know her, but now, it makes me uncomfortable to even think about hurting her because I got to know her. The real her.
"M- Master please.."
I grabbed her hand and pulled her into my soaking body.
"What are you doing?"
I grabbed her hair slightly and pulled her closer. She put her hands on my chest to try to push me away, but she couldn't. I leaned closer to her almost making our lips touch. Our eyes were locked with each others.
"Does a person like me even deserve your kindness?" I said while not keeping my eyes off of her
My gaze traveled down her face towards her lips. Just looking at them was turning me on. I lightly rubbed my thumb across her bottom lip.
"I don't want to have you as my obsession but every time your near me, I have to control myself and I'm getting tired of it. The only way to cure this obsession is to have another. You don't understand how much I want to have you, your body, your warmness against mine and our lips touching. I don't have patience anymore. I want to have you and having you is my new temptation."
(Author)
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