09 Things Left Unsaid

I had fallen asleep for an hour when Xavier woke me to use the bathroom, he quickly fell asleep again and I stayed awake. I knew Juan and his loyal pets would continue searching for me. I knew they would not stop, and knowing that Alejandra knew I had two brothers in California they would come after me there. I stayed awake the whole time making sure this train was only going to do a one-stop when it finally reached California.

Thankfully the phone I managed to grab had an easy-to-guess password I turned off all tracking devices and called Ellis to let her know why I did what I did. After I got married, both my brothers moved to California leaving me alone for some unknown reason and all I had was my no-good husband and my son, Ellis was not just a teacher who adored my son and me but she was a mother figure who has helped me a ton. The phone rang three times before she picked up groggily and like the sweet soul she is she listened to me from start to finish not minding that I woke her up from her sleep. I told her Juan was allowing us to stay with him for the time being. But I had to get out fearing what Stephen would do. I left out the attempted murder and the multiple times they have threatened to kill us, and how we were held hostage and told her I needed to get away from Stephen, he was no good for us and he was going to come after us.

She told me "I told you so" a couple of times throughout my storytelling and continued to listen to me rant. I told her I needed out of New York and I did not want to go back. I apologized for ruining her night but she quickly stopped me and told me I did not ruin her night, the night was beyond successful, and I told her where I left the abandoned car where her employee could find it. And then she unexpectedly asked me about the young attractive guy I brought to meet her, Juan. I quickly denied the relationship with him and told her it was not going to work he was just allowing us to stay with him for a few days. I also said I was not ready for anyone and she dropped the subject. I wished her a good night and she wished us the very best and hoped to see us again. 

I knew I had to come up with a plan fast. We got away because of luck, and luck always runs out. For the next several hours I was awake and when the sun finally appeared Xavier was up and was eating I knew that we would reach California soon and I needed to get in contact with my brothers.

I reached into my bag pulled out the list of numbers I wrote down before leaving and dialed Jose's number he was the nicer brother Luis was always the tough cookie of the family. Nothing ever gets by him and he never forgets or forgives. I knew I had a better chance of staying with Jose than him.

The phone rang and it wasn't until the fifth ring that it was picked up "Hello?" Said an out of breath Jose. I inhaled harshly as I heard the voice of my brother for the first time in years. "Hello?" He said again "shit" I heard him mumbled. "Jose it's me," I said watching Xavier play with his small toys. "Who the fuck is me? I don't have all day I'm in the middle of something make it fast." That's when I heard a voice of female say "Just end the call, Papi, we're having too much fun" she said loudly.

Before he could hang up I rushed out and replied: "It's me, Camila, I need help." I immediately heard some shuffling around and heard him grumble a couple of things under his breath and then I heard the girl he was with asking him who Camila was.

I guessed I interrupted some of their fun time, oops.

"What do you mean you need help, Camila? And where the fuck have you been all this time?" He asked angrily. I can only imagine how angry he can be because for the longest time, I have been angry at myself for allowing Stephen to control who I can talk to and who I can't talk to and somewhere in our relationship I just accepted the fact I will never be able to talk to my family. And that it had to be that way until I saved up enough and left for good but I needed him not in a romantic way but to have a roof over our head and food in our bodies. I knew any ounce of love I had once for him and left my soul. I can't say I regret meeting him because, in the beginning, he was good but that wore off and he became a monster who gave me one of my biggest blessings, my son.

"I'm on my way to California I'll be there in a couple of hours and I need a place to stay," I told him. It will come as a big surprise when he picks me up and notices I brought along a companion. A young boy who already knows who his uncle is but his uncles have no knowledge of his existence.

"What do you mean that you're coming here? Why the sudden desire to come here? After all these fucking years you decide to come now? And after you rudely interrupted me-" I cut him off "interrupted your little session. I know but I wouldn't have called if this wasn't serious. I really need your help." I told him quietly not wanting others around to hear me. "I understand I'm probably the last person you expected to hear from I don't have anyone else to turn to, to help me. Just know I needed to leave New York." He stayed quiet on the line and then he finally exhaled loudly "I guess I can stop by and get you. And I guess you can stay in the guest bedroom for the time being."

I thanked him and we said goodbye after I gave him the information about where the train will be stopping. A couple of hours passed when the train slowed down as we neared the station. I packed everything up took ahold of his hand got up and waited until the doors opened and out we went. I started following the crowd outside where everyone was greeting their loved ones or getting into taxis.

"Mami where's tío?" Xavier asked pulling my hand and making me turn my attention to him "he's on his way baby. He will be here soon. I hope" I said whispering the last part to myself and stood up straight and continued looking for him. My eyes jumped from face to face and I almost gave up until my eyes landed on his face.

Not Jose's but Juan's I started pulling Xavier's hand and started walking in the other direction.

How the fuck did he make it here so damn fast?

"Come on papi, Jose is this way we got to go fast," I told him and pulled out the phone and dialed Jose's number. "Pick up Jose pick up" I mumbled "Hello?" Jose said on the other line. "Where are you?" I asked him cutting through people. "I'm here I'm waiting for you. I'm in a black Mercedes Benz I'm behind a red car. I looked over to where the cars were lined up waiting and saw a red car and behind it was a Mercedes. "Ok, can you make sure all the doors are unlocked don't ask why just do it," I told him as I saw Juan looking over at the crowd as he stood in front of Jose's car. "Uh ok," I ended the call and gently placed the phone in a lady's purse who passed by me.

"Shit" I muttered to myself I picked up Xavier "Hold on tight Xavi" and with that, I started jogging to where the car was. I slowed down as I got near the car and turned my head to the side so he wouldn't catch a glimpse of my face. I took hold of the handle yanked it out and got in "Mami I know him" Xavi yelled. And I quickly closed the door as Juan turned around but luckily Jose's car had tinted windows. "Please start driving" I pleaded as I buckled in Xavier and then myself. I saw Juan's eyes squinting as he tried to see who had just got in the car but it was too late because Jose didn't ask questions and just sped away. I did not miss the number of times he looked at the rearview mirror as he looked over at Xavier who was staring out the window as he took in the city that was the absolute opposite of New York.

After 30 minutes or so we pulled into a luxury apartment complex. I looked over at my brother and took in his appearance we were never rich growing up we made enough money to live by and then some, our parents did leave behind a will that can explain how my brother could afford a place like this. But career-wise wise he didn't go to university I mean he barely even finished high school. I had no idea what he had been up to the last couple of years and I hope he was doing legal things. I hope no matter what he had gone through in life he did not turn to do any illegal activities to make some money. He parked the car in his spot in the garage and did not say a word as Xavier and I followed closely behind him to get into the elevator. He quickly pressed PH2.

My eyes snapped shut and I felt my jaw drop to the floor it was one thing living here in this luxurious apartment but it was a completely different thing. The elevator came to a stop and he swiftly unlocked the door and we all stepped in. I know for certain I can speak for Xavier and myself we were both amazed at what we saw. And each step we took getting further inside we became more amazed.

"I'm going to show you to your bedroom room and then we can think about what we are going to have for dinner," Jose said walking up the stairs as I tugged Xavier behind me knowing he wanted to stop and stare. "This will be you guys' bedroom," he said opening the door and allowing us to see it.

"I hope it's enough for you guys," he said scratching his head I nodded my head at him "its more than enough thank you," I told him. I felt Xavier let go of my arm and before I could stop him he ran to Jose and hugged his legs "Thank you tio I love our new bed" Jose smiled awkwardly at him nodded his head and patted his head.

He quickly left after Xavier let go and Xavier and I both settled in organizing the small amount of stuff I brought. After a couple of minutes, we both followed the path followed before to meet Jose in the kitchen. "Do you want Mexican or Thai food? I know some great places nearby." "Thai sounds good," he nodded his head and ordered the food probably remembering what we all used to order years back. He had us follow him to the living room where he turned on the TV and put on Nickelodeon, which was playing SpongeBob, for Xavier and he gave me a look that screamed follow me. I told Xavier I'd be right back and kissed his forehead I knew he would be entertained.

I round the corner and see him enter a room, his home office. He sat down quickly and eyed me as I sat in front of him and started answering the questions I knew he was going to ask. "before you ask yes, Xavier is my son. And yes Stephen's his father. My reason for being here is that I needed to get away, I needed out of New York," I told him and he just stared at me.

"Let me get this straight you went MIA on us for years, got married to the guy neither of us liked for obvious reasons, had a kid with that damn fucker, then when there's trouble in paradise you come out and reach out to me. And I assume you went to me because Luis would've been harder to crack and probably would've hung up the phone on you. I wouldn't blame him though you left us." I winced when he mentioned going to MIA and getting married. I wanted to yell out it didn't go as I imagined it would've been like. We were in love but that all changed and I didn't have a choice but to stay until I was ready to leave. But instead, I just nodded and stayed quiet.

"You're right, I'm at fault here. I am grateful you are allowing us to stay here for the time being. I will make sure our time spent here will be short. I have plans on finding work and getting Xavier back in school." I told him telling him my plan.

"You both can stay here until you get settled in Los Angeles. I think I can speak for all but we're so disappointed in you. How do you leave your family? The only people who wanted nothing but the best for you? We were a team and you just got up one day and left. Who the fuck does that Camila? I understand you leaving if something bad truly happened with us but nothing happened. We were all happy we had plans to do things and get our life together and be happy." He said angrily. "Was it worth it Camila? To leave everything and everyone you knew for some dick?" He said angrier than before. The tears in my eyes threatened to come out "Well that piece of dick gave me my fucking son, your nephew, and that little boy is the reason I'm still here. The reason I'm standing here today in front of you and the reason I'm going to keep going and overcome everything my fucking life throws at me." I told him "And if that's all that has to be said I'll be with Xavier, I'll make sure our stay here will be short. I'll start looking for work tomorrow morning. And we will be gone before you know it." And with that, I left his office and went to where Xavier was and sat with him until the food came. It was a silent dinner mostly on Jose and I's part Xavier tried talking to Jose and I was grateful he wasn't rude to Xavi. Xavi is an innocent boy tied up in my messy world.

Authors note

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