WARNING: I'm not a doctor or therapist, whatever I wrote it's based on shitty research ⚠️ talking about anxiety attack ⚠️

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Jungkook admitted in hospital.

Taehyung had teary eyes, salty droplets threatening to fall down on his cheeks. He looked so devastated after what he saw. A wave of panic travelled through his body when he bring Jungkook to hospital. Pale face, almost looking lifeless.

He never saw him like that, it scared him to death. His body was numb, unable to think anything.

“Taehyung? What happened?”

Taehyung snapped his head towards the voice. His gaze met with Yoongi who looked relaxed after seeing Taehyung as the male got panicked when he received a call from him saying about emergency situation of admitting in hospital.

“Hyung!” Taehyung just broke down on Yoongi’s shoulder.

"What happened?" Yoongi asked, hugging him back and caressed Taehyung's back.

"J-Jungkook just fainted on me. I don't know what went wrong!!" Taehyung cried into Yoongi's shoulder.

A cease drew between Yoongi's brows as he didn't recognise the name that Taehyung just said.

"Oh, don't worry, he'll be alright." Yoongi comforted him. "Don't distress yourself!"

Taehyung sniffled, shaking his head. "I did this to him. He's here because of me."

"Tae, don't put the blame on you. He'll be alright."

Taehyung broke the hug, sliding down on the waiting seat of hospital. He shook his head, silently crying to himself. He lowered his head, hands cupped his nape while he cursed at himself.

"Taehyung–"

Yoongi got cut off when the cabin's door opened as the doctor who was with Jungkook came out of it.

Taehyung snapped up his head and stood up from his place.

The doctor turned to Taehyung whose heart was accelerating after seeing the expression of the doctor.

"He's doing fine now." The doctor said before pursing his lips into a straight line.

"Are you his family members or friends?" The doctor asked.

"No, I'm his boyfriend." Taehyung said, gulping. "Something wrong?"

"Just wanted to talk to his family member. But I guess, I can also tell you." The doctor said, whirling around. "Please follow me."

Taehyung turned to look at Yoongi before following the doctor.

"Are you familiar with Mr.Jeon's past, I mean when he was a teenager or younger than now?" The doctor questioned which caused Taehyung to shakes his head.

The trio walked into the doctor's cabin who takes off his stethoscope before sitting down his chair.

"Please take a seat–"

"Get into the point, doctor. What happened to him!?" Taehyung exclaimed, banging his palm on the crest rail of chair.

"I sent a sample of Jungkook's blood to laboratory for testing. I'm feared to see that he's been taking a great amount of anti-depressant drug for not so long."

Taehyung felt paralysed after what he heard.

"What?" Taehyung let out faintly.

"The amount he took is scaring, I think he had taken them in the past as well because a normal person or who are new to this drug wouldn't able to handle that much amount."

Taehyung's grips on the crest rail tightened.

"He looks so young to take this much amount of that medicine. Thank god, it wasn't a severe anxiety attack. Otherwise, we wouldn't know what would happen to him."

Taehyung's mouth went dry.

"I-I didn't know— he t-took them–" Taehyung stammered. Confusion was written on his face because Jungkook never had taken any kind of medicine in front of him. He never spoken about his anxiety attacks.

Jungkook always known for his bubbly personality in front of Taehyung. He doesn't like to be upset on something or doesn't like when someone around him would sad either.

Taehyung felt a pang of pain in his heart.

"It's really dangerous for his health, Mr.Kim. Um, something happens in between you two or between his family which forced him to take this medicine?" The doctor inquired further.

Taehyung looked hesitated.

"We had a fight before."

The doctor furrowed his brows at Taehyung's statement.

"Um, anyways, he's fine now. He needs some rest, maybe he was stressed after your fight. Make sure, he isn't taking that much amount of the medicine. It's totally unhealthy for him."

Taehyung nodded before leaving the room.

Jungkook....... anxiety attack? Anti-depressants tablets??

Taehyung couldn't able to connect the scattered dots. First of all, Jungkook never experienced anxiety or panic attacks in front of him. It's been almost 2 years of being together but–

He was so confused!

"Hyung, I think you should leave now." Taehyung said to Yoongi who looks so concerned about him.

"Are you sure?"

Taehyung nodded. "Jungkook would start to freaking out if he see someone unfamiliar and I don't want that."

Yoongi gave a knowing look to him before he walked away from there. Taehyung took a deep breath as he pushed the door of Jungkook's cabin.

"Hey," Taehyung muttered when he saw Jungkook who was sitting on the bed as if he woke up a few minutes ago.

"How are you feeling–"

"You know now, right?" Jungkook asked in a small voice, fingers fidgeting with the thin duvet, feared to look up.

"I do."

Jungkook felt the presence of Taehyung near him.

"You'll leave me now, right?" Jungkook clutched on the duvet cover. He felt two arms enveloped around him.

"You'll think i'm-i'm some kind of weirdo who couldn't-" Jungkook cried softly.

"Shush, baby." Taehyung shushed him, his chin touched Jungkook's head.

"You're so strong. You went through many things yet you kept that smiling face. I'm so proud of you that you able to overcome it."

Jungkook stopped crying. However, his bambi eyes were still teary. He looked up at Taehyung.

"I-I'm strong?" Jungkook asked, eyes shimmer.

Taehyung nodded. "So strong." He plant a soft kiss on Jungkook's forehead.

Jungkook just closed his eyes which caused a small tear to rolled down on his cheek.

"I love you so much. I'm not going to leave you, no matter what. How many times do I have to tell you that, so you can believe it?" Taehyung let out, his deep voice turned soft and husky.

"Everyday." Jungkook uttered.

Taehyung grinned. "Okay." He mumbled, tightening his arms around Jungkook. He didn't ask anything further as he didn't want Jungkook to stress about anything, for now.

Jungkook got discharged from hospital after the day. Taehyung was by his side the whole time, scared to leave him alone. His fever subsided now and he was feeling better.

"C'mon, kookie, eat up!" Taehyung scolded, looking at Jungkook who was hiding himself under a blanket.

"I'm full, Tae!"

"Shut up, you haven't even eaten anything for breakfast." Taehyung said. He was holding a bowl of rice and some vegies.

"No vegetables, please." Jungkook puffed out his bottom lip, cutely looking at Taehyung.

"It's not going to work. Eat up!" Taehyung said sternly.

Jungkook got defeated. "Okay, mom." He grumbled before he opened his mouth and Taehyung just feed him. He also wiped a napkin on Jungkook's mouth after feeding him.

Jungkook side-eyed Taehyung who just walked out of his bedroom with discarded plates. He nibbles on his lower lip before opening the drawer of his nightstand. He takes out a small bottle of pills, conflicting over whether he should take them or not.

It's coming back, Jungkook closed his eyes, concentrating on his breathing, his grip the bottle tighten–

"What are you doing, Jungkook?" The voice came which caused him to hide the small bottle of pills under his pillow.

"N-Nothing." He stammered, it's better if i stop taking them.

Taehyung furrowed his brows when he saw the drawer of the nightstand was opened. He also noticed the tensed body behaviour of Jungkook so he decided to drop the topic for now. He doesn't want Jungkook to have another anxiety attack.

"Oh-" Jungkook got pulled over his boyfriend's body.

"Cuddles." His silver head boyfriend pouted, chests pressed against each other. Heartbeats matching with each other while their hands interlocked.

Jungkook snuggled up to Taehyung's neck, slightly sniffling Taehyung's cologne. He felt like a home.

"Sleep, kookie." Taehyung breathe out, eyes closed, gently patting Jungkook's body to help him in sleeping as well.

Even after minutes later, Taehyung's  patting came to stop as the male drift into deep slumber. Jungkook heard soft snoring of Taehyung as he knew Taehyung hadn't slept properly the previous day.

Jungkook began to kissing on Taehyung's neck who didn't budge from his position. He rolled off of Taehyung who squirms in sleep at the loss of body contact. Jungkook covered him with a blanket and sat on bed.

It's coming back, but why?

Jungkook gazed at Taehyung who shifted in sleep, turning away from him. His back was facing Jungkook, without any second thought Jungkook laid down beside his boyfriend and threw his arm and leg over Taehyung's body before closing his eyes.

He have to meet his mom.

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any theory abt jungkook's past?

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