Nya POV ~
I was really happy that my parents came to visit, I felt really bad that they couldn't have a granddaughter or grandson as soon ad they thought. I'm really disappointed in myself, in my body. I don't understand what I did wrong, what I did wrong as a mother, a daughter, a wife. How could someone forgive me of what I did or couldn't do.

My parents soon left the hospital and now it was just me and Jay. Kai said he was going to come back up here tomorrow with Slylor if the doctor doesn't let me leave to go home. But the way the nurse has been talking to me, I think I might be staying another night here.
The nurse has come into the room multiple times to do testing and checking up on me. They have stated a few concerns like I might not be able to have another child which scared me so bad. I might never have a family with Jay and I feel like Jay might not love me anymore, one main thing Jay wanted was to start a family with me but now I might not be able to provide that. Another concern was that if I were to get pregnant again, there would be a good possibility that I could lose another child or that the baby would have special needs.
It kills me so hard that I might not ever be able to have kids again. If I couldn't make Jay or anyone else happy. What would be the point in living.

Jay POV ~
It is now 6PM and the nurse just came in to tell us that we could leave. I was happy to finally get home and lay in my bed. But I was mostly worried that losing a child might affect mine and Nya's relationship. I'm scared that she would blame me for losing the baby, but in reality it was no one's fault.

We were now packing our things to head home. I started to load things into our car while Nay got dressed and do whatever. As soon as we left the hospital, there was an awkward silence in our car. I looked over at Nya to find her just looking out her window. She looks sad. But that's what I expected, but I thought we would talk about it. Maybe it's too early, maybe she just needs time and space.

20 minutes later ~
We were now at home and I finally felt a little relaxed but for Nya, she just went to our guest room and locked the door. I didn't know what she was doing But I was probably none of my business.

Nya POV ~
I went to the guest room and locked the door behind me.
"I can't do it anymore, I can't deal,with the pain" I said out loud to myself.
I started to dig my nails into my scalp.
I went over to the dresser and grabbed out a blade from craft projects we have done in the past and started cutting myself. I was scared at first but I went deeper and deeper. Then I finally stoped myself before anything serious were to happen.
I went to the guest bathroom and cleaned my cut, put bandages on and rolled my sleeves down.  I quietly walked out of the guest room and went to the kitchen to get something to eat. As I passed by the living room, I heard Jay ask me something.
"Hey Nya, what were you doing in the guest bedroom"
"Oh, n-nothing I'm f-fine" I stuttered.
He shrugged and continued watching tv. I went into the kitchen, grabbed a apple and went to my room to take a nap.

A few hours later Jay POV ~
It was now 5PM and I ordered chinese for dinner. I went to go wake Nya up, but when I went to wake her up, I saw bandages on her arm. I didn't think much of it only that it might have been from the hospital.
I kissed her on the cheek multiple times until she opened her big blue eyes.
"Hey baby, I got Chinese food if you want some" I stated while still kissing her cheek.
"Aww thanks" Nya stated as she gave me a few kisses on the lips.
We then got up and ate Chinese together. I couldnt help but just stare at her bandages.
"What are those bandages from" I questioned
"O-oh umm..."
"Are they from the hospital"
"Y-yeah from the IV" Nya stuttered
"Oh ok" I stated with a weak smile.

After we finished dinner, we went to the living room, watched a movie and cuddled then we ended up falling asleep.

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So this book will not go on that much longer, I never planned for this book to be a long. So when I'm done writing this book, what should I write next. It has to be about:

- Jaya

- can't be inappropriate