Nya POV ~ 

I woke u at 2 in the morning crying. I was having a bad dream that the surgery that I am going to get wont work. I quickly whipped my tears away and slowly getting out of bed trying not to disturb Jay. I thought to myself again, 'what's the point in living'.  I really didn't feel positive about this surgery, and I would talk to Jay but I don't want to wake him up. I didn't know what to do with my stress and self-esteem so I went to the guest room. I went to open the door to find that it was locked.

"shit, what am I suppose to do now" I said to myself.

I then remembered that we have knifes in the kitchen, so I went towards the kitchen to find them. As I tried to open the cupboard, it was locked.

"WTF, why is everything locked" I said quietly to myself.

I then remembered that Jay had locked anything that had anything I could harm myself with. So I went back to our bedroom and started to look for the key. I looked in our dresser, closet, nightstand but it was nowhere. Then I checked underneath our bed and...

"ah, ha" I said to myself very quietly to not wake up Jay.

I got the key and went to the kitchen, unlocked the cupboard and grabbed out a big sharp knife. I placed the tip of it on the wrist, right on top of a vein. 'should I do it', 'should I risk it', 'you don't matter', 'if you cant have a kid or make Jay happy, what's the point of living' I thought all at once. I then started to put more pressure on the vein and started to cut. It was a lot. A lot of MY blood dripping on our hard wood flooring. I then began sobbing and started to go deeper and deeper until my vision became blurry and I felt dizzy.

Jay POV ~ 

I heard sobbing coming from outside mine and Nya bedroom. I looked over on the other side of he bed to find she wasn't there. I then began to panic. I quickly went underneath our bed to search for the key to find that it isn't there. My heart began to race. I ran out of the room, straight towards the kitchen to find Nya losing her balance.

"NYA!!" I yelled as I ran towards her.

When I grabbed her arm, she lost balance and fell into my arms. I grabbed the knife away from her and fell to the ground.

"NYA, NYA HONEY CAN YOU HEAR ME" I yelled as I was dialing 911 then Kai.

Kai POV ~

I woke up to see my phone ringing. I rolled over to my side, reached over to my nightstand and grabbed my phone to see Jay calling.

"hello?" I questioned.

"KAI, NYA WENT TO FAR THIS TIME" jay yelled into the phone.

"what are you taking about Jay" I stated as I sit up on my bed.

"I found Nya cutting herself again, but this time she cut too deep" Jay stated while crying

"I'M ON MY WAY" I stated as I threw on a jacket and my shoes and ran out the door.

10 minutes later ~ 

I have finally arrived at Jay and Nya's house to see that the paramedic's had just gotten here. I got out of my car to see Nya being carried away in a stretcher and Jay right by her side. I put my hand over my mouth in shock to see Nya pale as a ghost. I walked over to jay and gave him a hug. I could tell he was scared as he was shaking in my arms.

"it's going to be ok Jay" I stated trying to calm him down.

"No Kai you don't understand, she cut right on her vein, if I wasn't there in 2 minutes then she would have probably died' Jay stated and cried.

"sir are you going to take a ride in the ambulance or with someone else" the paramedic asked.

"I-I'll ride in the ambulance" Jay stuttered

"I'll follow right behind you Jay, I promise" I stated as I got in my car to follow the paramedic's.

On the way there I was thinking to myself as to 'why would Nya cut herself that deep'. I'm just going to assume that she was thinking to much about the surgery and becoming a mother.

When we got to the hospital, they rushed Nya inside and gave her a room. The nurses told me and Jay to stay out of her room while they clean her wounds and stitch them. So me and Jay sat in the waiting/family room. Jay had his leg bouncing like crazy probably because he was nervous for his wife.

Jay POV ~

'it's my fucking fault that she's here', you should have hid the key better you whore', 'get your life straight, either you make it happy or don't exist at all'. All these thoughts ran through my head and I couldn't take it. I stood up and went to the bathroom. when I got to the bathroom, I broke down in tears. I then got out my phone, took the case off and took my blade out that was in between the case and phone. I soon started to cut myself until I heard the door open.

"Jay, WTF" Kai yelled taking the blade away from me.

"s-stop, what are you doing" I stuttered while trying to get the blade back from Kai.

"no, what are you doing. Do you realize that the only reason your WIFE is here is because of this reason" Kai stated

"..." 

"I thought you were doing better. I thought you Both were doing better. But it seems like you both just keep getting worse and worse. I get that you both don't want to hurt each other but you both are blind to the subject that you cant hurt yourself either. Cutting is not the fucking option." Kai stated angerly.

" Me and Nya are FINE now leave us alone" I snapped while I grabbed my razor from Kai and stormed out of the bathroom.

What am I doing, we're not fine. Fuck Jay cant you understand that you just make the people around you hurt when you do this shit. I then walked into Nya's room to find her sleeping and still a little pale but got most of her color back. I went over to her bed and sat in the chair while I held her hand and started kissing it.

"I am so sorry baby for not taking care of you. I love you so, so much and I don't know what I would do without you" I stated while crying

"It's o-ok baby. This is n-not your fault and know that I l-love you too. I promise that I w-will never cut myself again" Nya stated with a scratchy voice.

I looked up and smiled at her. I then saw her look down at my arms to see dry blood.

"b-baby, have you been cutting y-yourself again" Nya questioned

"y-yes..." I stuttered.

I then saw a tear drop from her cheek and it broke my heart. 'wow Jay, look how blind you are, you jus made your wife cry' that thought ran through my head but I then brushed it off and focused on what was important and that was being here with Nya.

Nya then pulled me into a warm hug and whispered 'I love you Jay Walker, but please stop' 

I then soon whispered back 'I Love you too Nya Walker, and I will'

words: 1270 (lmfao well shit)

lmao this is crazy, I just posted chapter 10 not even 24 hours ago and here I am posting another. Sorry if this chapter was too much(TMI) or you didn't understand it. lmao it is 12 AM where I live right now so I'm a little tired.

But if you didn't understand, then please tell me so I can either change this chapter or explain a little more in chapter 12. 

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