{Note :- This update picks up right after 'Those who are born and those who are Wed'.
Mature content, readers discretion advised. I will tag it with A/N at the start and end.
Almost the entire update is actually adult content.}

"Lan Er gege... Ah." Wei Ying moans louder as Lan Zhan's lips land on the nape of his neck.
Lan Zhan sucks hard.
'I want... Mine.' Lan Zhan's mind screams.

Wei Ying pants throwing his head back. Exposing his beautiful long neck.

"Hanguang Jun... Please... " Wei Ying begs. His hands find their way into Lan Zhan's hair.
Lan Zhan sucks harder. His hands move from Wei Ying's waist and settle on his thighs....steadying the younger man.
'Mianmian.' Wei Ying remembers the smile that had played on Lan Zhan's lips when the woman's name had been mentioned. 'She is a married woman'. Wei Ying recalls. 'Then... why did Lan Zhan smile that way.'

"Lan Zhan. .. just... just.. a moment... Ah!" Wei Ying moans when he feels Lan Zhan's hand move from his thigh to his behind... squeezing... kneading.
"Ah.. Yes.. But.. Ammm.. Lan... Lan Zhan... one.. Lan.. Zhan." Wei Ying pants unable to form words. Lan Zhan's hands on him feel really... really good.

But Wei Ying needs to know. He needs to know what made 'His Lan Zhan' smile like that... that smile is his... only his! No one... absolutely no one should get to have that smile... married or not!

Wei Ying pulls on Lan Zhan's hair a little to get his attention.
"Lan Zhan!" Wei Ying says sternly.
Lan Zhan finally looks up. His eyes are dazed and unfocused.
'Never did I ever think that the mighty Hanguang Jun would look so... so.. so unnerved.' Wei Ying thinks cupping his husband's face.
"Lan Zhan, earlier... why did you smile when you mentioned Mianmian?" Wei Ying asks caressing Lan Zhan's brow.

"Mn?"

"Mianmian." Wei Ying reminds him again, moving his hand over his heart.

Lan Zhan blinks. He remembers now. His brows crease.
"Don't talk about her." Lan Zhan says definitively and drops his eyes.

Wei Ying lifts Lan Zhan's face to meet his eyes again, "Lan Zhan... Did you have feelings for her before... "

"No... " Lan Zhan cuts him off, "Only you. Always you." Lan Zhan says looking Wei Ying straight in his eyes.

'He is telling the truth...That should be enough.' Wei Ying convinces himself and smiles.

{A/N for language and content}

Lan Zhan's eyes get a dazed almost lost look. His hand moves towards Wei Ying's inner thighs and palms his husband's clothed hard member. Wei Ying yelps at this sudden act. 'Lan Zhan didn't ask for my permission before touching me like this.'

Lan Zhan leans in to capture the younger man's lips briefly and let's go.

Wei Ying throws his arms around Lan Zhan's neck and holds on.
Lan Zhan's hand gently start stroking Wei Ying's clothed erection, looking intensely into his eyes.

Wei Ying hisses when Lan Zhan increases his pace a little.

"Er gege... slower...Er gege...if you don't... I will make a mess." Wei Ying whispers without breaking eye contact and then bites his bottom lip.

Lan Zhan's eyes widened. He leans in and takes those gorgeous bow shaped lips between his and squeezes them gently...tilting his head slightly further to the side, he opens his mouth a little more and traces Wei Ying's lips a little bit with his tongue.
"Ammmmm.... " Wei Ying hums his approval.
Lan Zhan continues to nip and trace Wei Ying's lips a few more times all the while increasing the pressure.

Wei Ying's lips tingle and he rolls his hips, thrusting into Lan Zhan's palm.

Lan Zhan extends his tongue a little more and touches Wei Ying's tongue.
Wei Ying reciprocates. He makes slow circling motions with his tongue around Lan Zhan's and licks his lips...teasing him.
Wei Ying breaks the kiss slowly till their lips are barely touching.

Wei Ying touches Lan Zhan's neck and jaw feeling lightheaded. He looks down where Lan Zhan is still stroking him.

"Lan Zhan...I don't want to come yet... Ammm." Wei Ying says as he removes Lan Zhan's hands from around him and puts it on his chest, "My body... it feels like it's on fire... Like it's buzzing with energy... Amm!" Wei Ying hums again when Lan Zhan starts tracing the younger man's nipple with his fingers.
Lan Zhan takes it between his fingers puts slight pressure on it.

"Ah.... Do it again Er gege."

"Do you like it?" Lan Zhan asks paying attention to the small bud between his fingers.

"Mn... Er gege... your mouth.. Ah." Before Wei Ying can voice his demand Lan Zhan's mouth closes over the younger man's nipple. He moves his tongue over it till it becomes hard and then he sucks.

"Hanguang Jun!...Fuck!." Wei Ying moans deep.

His breaths become heavy and his heart starts pounding.

"Lan Zhan... I want.. Fuck!...Lan Zhan...more... harder... Ah!" Wei Ying moans again.
Lan Zhan takes the small bud between his lips and pulls a little while his other hand pinches the other nipple.
"Ah... Hanguang Jun... Please..
Please be gentle....Fuck.. !" the Yiling patriarch pants between broken desperate moans.

"Lan Zhan... stop.. wait... hold on..slow down...." Wei Ying says again.. panting. He tries to catch his breath.

Lan Zhan stops.
He looks up at Wei Ying...his hands come up to gently caresses the younger man's cheek... moving to his neck... tracing his shoulder...Lan Zhan's hands move between Wei Ying's chest... then to the sides stroking the small hard buds moving lower to his abdomen... Pinching just above the navel.

"Ouch... Lan Zhan!...I am not your zither!" Wei Ying scolds.

Lan Zhan smirks, "But I want to play tonight."

'Fuck... did he just flirt with me.' Wei Ying wonders.
"Lan Zhan... that was shameless" Wei Ying says trying to imitate the light bearer and adds, "I love it... Lan Zhan... how are you planning on playing with me?"

Lan Zhan looks over his husband's frame. 'Beautiful.. Mine.' Lan Zhan's mind supplies.
He intertwines their fingers together and kisses Wei Ying's knuckles one by one before untangling them again. He puts two of Wei Ying's fingers into his mouth...sucking them. Taking them in and taking them out.

His eyes never leaving Wei Ying's.
Wei Ying asks, curiosity getting the best of him.
"Lan... *gulp*...Lan Zhan... what are you doing?"
With a pop Lan Zhan finally takes Wei Ying's fingers out of his mouth.
Lan Zhan's lips look red and wet....spit slicked.
'Hot...so hot... If only....' Wei Ying thinks... Wonders... He had been thinking of Lan Zhan's beautiful mouth around him for some time now... But how could he ask such a thing of the pure and innocent Light Bearer...he would never agree for such a thing.

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"Wei Ying... Did it hurt?" Lan Zhan asks curiously.

"Mn?"

"Did I hurt your fingers...did I scratch them?" Lan Zhan asks uncertain.

Wei Ying gulps.

"Why are you asking me that Lan Zhan?" Wei Ying asks as a doubt starts creeping into his mind.
Lan Zhan finally drops his gaze.
"You said you had been thinking about.... " Lan Zhan doesn't finish his ears turn red.

Wei Ying had read naughty books... It was a long time ago... It was in a different lifetime.
He had not known his heart then. He had not known that he would fall in love with a man... that he would become a cut sleeve.
Thus it was perfectly normal to have not read about what and how of such matters.
All Wei Ying had known was how he had felt with his hand around his hard member. And now he knew for certain that it felt far better when it was Lan Zhan's hand on him... Yes definitely better.... No, it felt best.

From the books he had read, he had come to the conclusion that it would feel good with his member inside a mouth or inside a woman.

But now that the woman was out of the equation he was kinda lost. Maybe kissing and hands and mouth was all there was to it.

{A/N for language}

But... since realizing his feelings for Lan Zhan and on occasions when Lan Zhan's hand had grazed his entrance, he had felt excited... He had wondered how it would feel to have Lan Zhan enter him.. Just like in the books... But how would that work???He was a man afterall!'
The thought of Lan Zhan inside him made him feel hot and blood started to rush to his shaft again.

"Ah... Lan Zhan.... " Wei Ying suddenly moans... his hand moves between his legs and touches Lan Zhan's who had started stroking him again.
Lan Zhan stops....uncertain once more,"Don't you want this anymore?"

"Of course I do!" Wei Ying says urgently Lan Zhan's hands to stroke him again.

{A/N end}

He pulls Lan Zhan towards him slowly and plants a kiss on the tip of his nose.

"Lan Zhan... I need to tell you something... Ah... Lan Zhan." Wei Ying realizes that he needs to tell his husband the truth about his...knowledge... But he really can't think when Lan Zhan is touching him like this.
"Lan Zhan... " Wei Ying says removing Lan Zhan's hand from around him moves it to his waist.
Lan Zhan looks confused.
"Lan Zhan...remember I said some things about how I want to do things with you? "
"Mn."
"Ammm... Lan Zhan... I..have...I can't...I don't know much." Wei Ying finishes biting his bottom lip.
The grip on Wei Ying's hips tightens considerably.
"Ouch Lan Zhan!...focus!... What I am saying is that I don't know either...what... how to do... more." Wei Ying confesses.

When Lan Zhan still doesn't speak Wei Ying continues, meeting Lan Zhan's eyes,"I know what to do... technically..with a woman.... Ouch... Lan Zhan stop pinching me!" Wei Ying scolds before continuing, "I don't know if I am any good....Lan Zhan, remember I tricked you into looking at a naughty book years ago?"

"Mn." Lan Zhan remembers.

"Well Nie brother had given it to me... He had said that it was for cut-sleeves and would anger you more so I had given it to you... Then you destroyed it... I regret now...I wish I had read it." Wei Ying finishes.. shy and embarrassed.

"I did." Lan Zhan says, in a barely audible voice.
"Mn?"
"That book.... I read it." Lan Zhan clarifies.
Wei Ying is stunned. 'He read it???'
'When did he read it? How... It was destroyed!...But, more importantly why did he read it?' Wei Ying wonders.

For the first time Wei Ying's mouth had failed to produce words.

When Wei Ying doesn't speak Lan Zhan continues hesitantly, "I know... what... how... Wei Ying... What do you want?....Do you want me to.... do you want my mouth?" Lan Zhan's whole being is flushed now...he drops his eyes again.

Wei Ying is shocked at this admission.
He starts thinking back on the things that he had taken for granted the past few days... maybe years.

He realizes that since he had been back, lan Zhan had denied him nothing. He had been putting Wei Ying first...in everything. Lan Zhan had taken care of him. Loved him. Protected him. Forsaken his reputation for him. Put his life on line for him.

'I read it. ' Lan Zhan's words echo in Wei Ying's mind.
'Since how long had Lan Zhan exactly been in love with him?' Wei Ying wonders.
'Only you.. Always you...All of you is important....the day you die is the day my body will leave this shell...' More of Lan Zhan's words come to his mind.
It hits him that even when they had made love, it was Lan Zhan who had been doing all the things to give him pleasure...He had never asked Lan Zhan what the older man had wanted from him.

It's too much to take for Wei Ying.
'I have been an ungrateful fool....always wanting... always asking... I did not even see what was right in front of me all this time... And now...he is even willing to... ' Wei Ying's eyes start to sting. He feels overwhelmed. He had thought that he loved lan Zhan more than than Lan Zhan loved him...but now he knew that that was not true.

His heart beats faster and he blinks setting the tears trapped in his eyes free.
"Wei Ying....what happened? Where does it hurt?" Lan Zhan says panicking.

'Did I say something wrong?' Lan Zhan thinks trying to move away.
But Wei Ying hugs him.

"Lan Zhan.... I love you... I love you..." Wei Ying repeats... over and over.

'His breathing his shallow? Is he getting an attack again... Why?' Lan Zhan thinks and starts rubbing soft circles on Wei Ying's back again.

"Wei Ying, we don't have to do anything you don't want to. Tell me want you want... Wei Ying." Lan Zhan asks.
Lucky Wei Ying calms down after a few seconds.
He wipes his tears with the back of his hands.

He looks at the Light Bearer...looks hard... 'Brows are knitted together, eyes hold concern... he looks tired...he looks drained.' Wei Ying's mind supplies.
'He transferred his spiritual energy to me.... to heal me... Maybe he transferred too much.'

Wei Ying feels guilty.
'I wish I had my core... I wish I could do for him, what he does for me.' Wei Ying thinks... his eyes begin to sting again.

He cups Lan Zhan's face and brings their lips together again. His hands move and come to rest on the nape of Lan Zhan's neck and he kisses... simple... innocent..slow....tender.

Even when his tongue enters Lan Zhan's mouth the kiss doesn't lose it's tenderness... it's gentleness. It's like he is kissing Lan Zhan for the very first time.
Because he has just realized the depth of Lan Zhan's love for him the very first time.
All the while his heart screams 'I wish I could do for you what you do for me.... If only.'

Wei Ying starts feeling warm and cool at the same time. Like he is standing on the shore and his hands are immersed in cool water but his body is radiating heat to counter it.
The cool feeling starts spreading and engulfing his whole body till it reaches his back.
He breaks the kiss when he feels Lan Zhan stiffen.

"Lan Zhan?" Wei Ying asks softly.

Lan Zhan puts some distance between them...leaning away from the younger man.

"Lan Zhan... What is it?..Why did we stop?..Is someone coming?" Wei Ying asks confused.

"No."

"Is there any danger?" Wei Ying asks trying to cover himself and looking around the room.

"No....How do you feel?" Lan Zhan asks .
'How did he know... ' Wei Ying wonders.
"What is it Lan Zhan?" Wei Ying asks when Lan Zhan's expression becomes unreadable.

"Lan Zhan?', Wei Ying asks again before his eyes fall on his hands.

His hands are glowing...he looks all over and he is glowing... All of him is glowing ... It's very faint... But it's there... He looks like the human embodiment of Bichen.

'I think I am going crazy... Why do I feel like I am glowing....thats just crazy... Am I seeing things? '

He meets Lan Zhan's eyes.

He feels strange. His body starts to tingle. The tingling sensation on his back is most prominent.

"Lan Zhan... " Wei Ying starts hesitantly.

"Mn?"

"Can you take a look at my back?" Wei Ying asks.

'His wound.' Lan Zhan remembers while Wei Ying turns his body and sits with his back to Lan Zhan.

Lan Zhan doesn't say anything.
"Lan Zhan... "Wei Ying says softly, "What is it?... Say something."

"Wei Ying, how do you feel?" Lan Zhan asks instead of answering.

"Like my body is hot and cold at the same time... Like something is touching me but I don't know what... I thought earlier that it was because of...you" Wei Ying says simply.

'Because of how I was making him feel.' Lan Zhan's mind supplies, Hanguang Jun blushes slightly.

Lan Zhan carefully touches Wei Ying's back... at the place where the whip wound was the deepest.

"Does it hurt when I touch you here?" Lan Zhan asks.
"No, it doesn't. Lan Zhan..." Wei Ying answers hesitantly and gasps when he feels Lan Zhan's lips where his hand had been a few seconds back.

"Lan Zhan?" Wei Ying asks trying to turn and face Lan Zhan.
Lan Zhan holds his shoulders.
"Wait." Lan Zhan orders.
Wei Ying stops moving.
"Wei Ying, summon your sword." Lan Zhan instructs.
"Lan Zhan... I can't. You know that." Wei Ying says in a small voice.

"Just try it. Please." Lan Zhan urges the younger man... holding his hand out for him.
Wei Ying holds out his hand and closes his eyes.
Wei Ying feels an object land in his hand. He opens his eyes to look at his hand.
His eyes fall on 'Bichen'.
Lan Zhan's hands fall away from Wei Ying's shoulder.
Wei Ying turns.

When he looks at Lan Zhan there are a million questions in Wei Ying's eyes.
Lan Zhan's eyes are soft. He is smiling gently and there are tears in his eyes.

Fear and guilt grip his heart, "Lan Zhan... What did you do?"

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