CHAPTER 6
FAITH POV:
My heart beat faster than I had ever felt it before.
It beat loud too, so much so that it sounded like a drum playing inside my chest! I wasn't sure if I was dreaming or not, or if I'd just gone back in time, but one thing was for sure...Seth wasn't behind bars anymore!
''I'm going to let go of you now, but I need you to promise me you won't scream'' he whispered, and I nodded my head nervously, then breathed a loud sigh when he slowly let go of me.
My hands were practically shaking from the shock of seeing him again, and I watched as my cigarette fell to the floor by my feet. I took a deep breath, and slowly turned around to face him...
It was really him. Seth Rollins. His eyes still scared me, not because there was no emotion in them, but this time it was because there was too much.
''You look like you've seen a ghost'' he smiled.
It took every fiber of my being to try and compose myself before I opened my mouth to speak...
''Well considering your dead to me, that sounds like a pretty fair statement'' I said calmly ''So...when did you get out?'' I asked.
''Two months ago...good behavior'' he smiled.
''I see you haven't lost your sense of humor then'' I retorted coldly.
''It's all true'' he smiled again, holding his hands in his pockets.
I slowly looked him up and down now, observing his weak taunt body under his tatty clothing, his worn out shoes, his scruffy unshaven face, his messy hair which had grown longer now, and even though he still visibly had his blonde streak, it had kinda turned a dull yellowish color.
He looked awful!
Ironically he smelt awful too, only this time I had no problem identifying it...he smelt dirty.
''Yeah I wanted to dress up for you babe, but I'm having my bathroom redecorated so...'' he tried to joke, but I just stood staring at him blank faced.
''Well look at y-you look good Faith, but then again you always do'' he smiled, looking me up and down now. I felt sick, and nervous all at the same time.
''Why are you here Seth?'' I asked calmly.
''This is all I know...'' he replied quietly, looking round the big arena with wistful eyes.
''Well needless to say, you're not welcome here'' I said, and turned to walk away from him.
''Wait! Please Faith, don't walk away'' he begged, quickly running ahead of me, while reaching his arms out in a friendly manner to try and stop me...
I glared down at his hands as if it were a serpent ''Be very careful Seth...'' I warned him.
He quickly put his hands back in his pockets, and stared at me with longing eyes...
''Please...'' he whispered.
That's when I blew up on him!
''Please what huh?!! You thought you could just waltz back into my life, after everything you've done?! Just act like nothing's happened?! You RAPED me Seth!!! And you hurt so many people around you! You set it up for Paige to break her god damn neck for fucks sake!! YOUR A FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!'' I screamed in his face!!!
He hung his head in shame...
''I know I don't deserve your forgiveness, bu...-''
''But NOTHING! You don't fucking deserve anyone's forgiveness!'' I yelled ''You deserve to rot in a jail cell for the rest of your natural days, for the amount of people you hurt!!'' and I could feel my eyes stinging with emotion, but I fought it back with anger and toughness.
''Your right'' he said quietly ''that should be where my fate lies, but I'm out now, and I feel that on some level, I've been given a second chance at life, and I want to use it to try and make amends...that's what I want'' he said nodding his head at me.
''Well, I wish you the best of luck asshole, but I can tell you right here and now, you'll be wasting your time, because evil like you never changes!'' I snarled.
''I have changed Faith. I know it may sound hard to believe, but I really have'' he pleaded desperately.
''Goodbye Seth!'' I said, began walking away again, because I sure as hell didn't need to listen to any more of this crap!
''Faith PLEASE! I'm...I'm begging you'' he said, running up ahead of me again and blocking my path.
''REMEMBER WHEN I BEGGED YOU!!!!'' I yelled, looking at him with fire in my eyes!
''I could never forget that as long as I live. I torture myself everyday with all the nasty things I have done'' he said, once again hanging his head in shame.
''GOOD! You should! You don't deserve anything in life Seth, except suffering and misery!'' I yelled.
''You're right, I don't deserve anything but misery from now on. And believe me when I say that that's all I've had since I walked through the doors of that Scott County jail Faith. But now that I'm out, there's something that I need...'' he said smiling down at me with a hopeful look in his eyes..
''What's that?'' I asked quietly.
''I need your forgiveness Faith''
I looked at him and gritted my teeth ''That's a luxury you'll never get Seth!'' I growled up at him.
''Please, look...I..I know I hurt you, I hurt you bad...but I...I didn't know just how bad...'' he said softly.
Were Seth's eyes tearing up...?
''What do you mean?'' I asked curiously.
I watched as he slowly unzipped his hoodie, and pulled out a copy of my book ''Just Have A Little Faith'' and held it up for me to see...
I looked up at him confused, and a little bit too shocked to speak.
''So as you see...'' he said taking a very calculated step closer to me ''...I know now just how much I hurt you babe...and I'm so so-''
''Don't say it! Don't even think it. I don't wanna know!'' I snapped, and immediately had to turn my face from him, as my own eyes began to water with tears...
''But I am...'' he said softly ''I'm sorry Faith for everything I've put you through. I don't expect you to believe me, and I certainly don't deserve your forgiveness, but for me to try and start a new life free of sin...I need your forgiveness Faith. So please, if you can somehow find it in your heart to at least accept my apology, I would be eternally grateful to you. Please Faith...please...please....pl..please....'' I turned to see a tear roll down his face just as his voice broke, as I stood there looking at the defeated man before me, holding my book in his hand. I all of a sudden felt very light headed, as every emotion I had kept stored in my mind about Seth over the past five years, slowly began seeping out in a stream of tears.
I was suddenly finding it hard to make sense of everything, so I took a long deep breath and said ''Look Seth, I um, I think it's great that you want to change your life around. So many people who have offended in the way you did, just come out of prison and do the same thing all over again. But for some reason Seth, I uh...I actually believe you'' I said, looking up at him and holding his gaze for few seconds ''...or maybe that's just what I wanna believe'' I said, looking back down again.
My god, it was so hard at times to read behind those eyes...
''But if anything, I'm glad you read my book'' I told him ''and if it's helped educate you in some way, that can only be a good thing'' I said, looking down again at my book in his hands.
''I'll accept your apology Seth, but as far as forgiveness goes...I'll never be able to do that'' I could still feel my hands shaking, as I was still incredibly nervous to be around him.
He sighed sadly.
''I thank you for accepting my apology Faith. I know that's more than I could ever ask of you. But Faith...please....I can't just leave things with you like this...too much has happened between us and I would like...-''
Just then one of the cleaners at the arena came out back to put some rubbish out, he gave us both a funny look, then leaned a little closer to look at Seth, before retreating back inside. I quickly pulled Seth to one corner and said ''Look, we can't talk here...um...meet me tomorrow morning at the downtown mall...I passed it on the way over, I think it's called the 'North Park' mall''
''North Park mall'' he said at the same time, and smiled.
''Of course...'' I said smiling to myself ''this is your hometown''
He was quiet now, but still looking down at me with such emotion in his eyes that It made me all nervous again.
''Um...meet me at 6:00am ok? And don't be late, because we got an early flight to Wisconsin for Smackdown tomorrow night'' I finished.
Seth just nodded, then said ''Thank you Faith. I never expected you would even give me the time of day, let alone talk to me, and I'm so happy that you're giving me a chance to see you again before you go, you have no idea how much this all means to me, the fact that you would do this for me is...''
''I'm not doing it for you Seth. But we do need to talk. I'll uh...I'll see you tomorrow''
And with thatI left Seth standing there, as I hurried back inside the arena. I rushed to the first ladies bathroom that I saw, held my head in my hands, and cried my eyes out!
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ROMAN POV:
She had to have changed by now...I thought looking down at my watch for like the fithteenth time already. With my patience running out a little, I picked up my cell to call her...
''Roman...?'' she said softly.
''Hey babygirl, where are you?'' I asked.
''I'm uh, I'm still inside, I'm just grabbing my bag now, I'm sorry to have kept you waiting so long...'' she replied.
''What's wrong baby?'' I asked, immediately detecting a sadness in her voice.
''Nothing my love, I'm fine, I'll be down in a sec ok''
''Ok baby, and hey I love you...don't be sad about anything, it breaks my heart when your sad'' I said softly.
''Your right Roman, I was sad, you know 'cause of what we talked about this morning, being in this state...I guess I just needed a little time alone'' she said sweetly.
''I can understand that babygirl, and I want you to know that everything's going to be ok, just hurry on down to me alright...I miss you already'' I smiled.
''I miss you too Roman, and I love you. See you in a bit'' she said, and closed the phone.
FAITH POV:
I hate that I just lied to Roman like that, but there was no way on god's green earth, that I was ever telling him Seth was outta jail. I'm pretty sure he would find some way to kill him! No, I needed to quickly gather my thoughts and decide how I was going to do this...
I turned the corner now to go back upstairs to my locker and grab my stuff. When I did, I nearly fell over with shock at what I witnessed in front of me...
I quickly ducked back behind the corner again, and looked down at the ground with the most confused look on my face...Did I really just see that?!
I took a deep breath, and ever so quietly peeked my head back round the corner to look again...there was no mistaking it. Right there by some of the storage equipment was my boss Stephanie McMahon, leant against the wall, and kissing a man that wasn't her husband, but rather a very hungry viper...Randy Orton!
I just stood there dumbfounded, with my mouth still on the floor in shock! My god, I can't believe she would cheat on her husband like this! I mean Randy was cute and all, but still...
I just never envisioned Stephanie as the type to have an affair, but now that I thought about it, there had been a couple of occasions in the past when I would see Randy hanging out by her office, but I never really took any notice before...I guess the cats out the bag now.
I liked Stephanie, I really did, I mean if it hadn't been for her, I wouldn't be here today. So I decided to look the other way and not judge her. It was none my business anyways, I just hope that her personal life was ok.
Besides, I had my own personal life to get back to, and that as with my handsome boyfriend Roman, who I had already kept waiting so long.
What a night!!!
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