hi all <3

so this book is finally complete. i plan on including a little "acknowledgements" bit at the end of all of my fics, but i feel like it's especially important for this book in particular.

writing this was the most, life changing thing i could have done for myself. i don't really like to get sappy on my account, but this is genuinely, the most interesting (life changing was a little bit of a stretch) thing i've done in a long time.

the moment in my life that i'm writing about is definitely something that i haven't experienced before (and im not sure if i'll ever experience it again). i was in a kind of weird point in my life when this happened because i had realized that my friends from middle school had treated me like shit, and i was kind of in my emo, mysterious, closed-off era?? like idk. and i was going into a new school which just made things even weirder.

and then this happened. i mean, it happened before summer, but i realized that was feeling this weird love shit like late summer-early school year.

a lot of people (mainly adults) talk about how "falling in love" and junk isn't "real" when you're a teenager because people can be trash as teenagers and all of that good stuff. coming from a teenager, i feel like that's kind of wrong to say. sure, i'm potentially gonna look back and think the same thing, but i want to come on the record and say that i don't necessarily believe in the belief that teenagers don't really know what love feels like.

yes, i–as a person–love things very easy. it's in my personality, i just love things and people easy. but, when i was loving the person that i wrote this about, it felt different. like i love the people that i've loved to death, but i haven't give them a poetry book that's as personal as this book. i just feel like, it's unfair to generalize teenagers as not being capable of truly loving someone. all teenagers are different. and, if you love someone and feel like it's wrong because of what people tell you, i just want you to know that your feelings are validated, and my dms are always open. and you can comment your stories anywhere here.

this book was, essentially, kind of published for that reason. when i finally "got over" the person that im writing about, i decided that i wanted this book to be more centered around falling in love as a teenager, instead of it being solely about the person that i wrote about. this is a safe space for all of you, and i just want you to know that <3

okay now for the actual acknowledging part.

i want to thank my friends in the real world. i know they will never see this, but i just want to go on the record and thank them for putting up with me. they really tried to get me to at least talk to the person that i wrote about. and they read a couple of my poems from here. they had to listen to me talk about this shit, cry over this shit, and they helped me deal with this shit. i'm genuinely thankful for them.

i also want to thank / acknowledge whoever came up with the idea that teenagers can't feel love

🖕look at me now, bitches 🖕

and i want to thank all of you for taking the time out of your day to comment, and read, and vote, and just look at this book. i really put so much into it, and it makes me so happy that it has even one read on wattpad.

but yeah there we go

self-promo moment tehe

if you liked this, and want to see more of it, i just created a poetry account (-wavvingpoetry). i really loved writing the poetry for this book, and i have a bunch of other ideas. writing is just a really therapeutic thing for me, and writing poetry is like a small thing i can do to take care of myself if i don't feel motivated to work on one of my actual stories. so i'm definitely excited to write more poems!!! There will also be a copy of this book on that account, so like do show some love <3

if you did like this, but are feeling in the mood for something more story-like, you can check out my other fics (and hey, drop a follow because it's spontaneous and cool i'm a really slay person). i'm gonna publish some stuffs and i've been editing the shit out of the fics that are currently up, so do with that what you will <3

but yeah :)

I feel like it was really important to include this long ass acknowledgements chapter, especially because there was no authors notes in this book at all. i would've put them in, but it just didn't fit with the vibes, so i'm really glad that im putting this in to talk about stuff.

but yeah, thank you so much for coming by, and reading this, interesting, fascinating, weird ass poetry book that i'll probably make an announcement about along the lines of "my poetry is shit and i'm gonna revamp the entire poetry book."

that was a weird sentence omg–

run on moment??

idfk

i love you all <3

Thanks for bearing with me. :)
Until next time.

~crrashingwavves

sign off gif by @/Trashmouth_Sahra