Caroline's point of view

My mouth hang open a bit at his question. Everything as been going so fast. I could not even wrap my head around the fact that he has my underwear in his pockets. This man will be death of me.

"As in a date- date?"

"A date as in a date. I understand if you are not ready, it's okay. Don't feel as if you owe me anything."

He can't be for real. I'm starting to believe that am either dreaming or am stuck in a delusional. He is pure shade of blue.

Yes, the sex was great, yes, I've never felt so at peace before, yes, I've never had real sex to know the meaning behind it but is this what everyone experience? What is this ? Ever since I've met him all he has been doing is saving me, over and over again.

Do I even deserve all this?

I sigh in depression and closed my eyes.

"Hey, don't do that," I felt his hand under my cheek and I felt his wet lips on my forehead.

"I'm here for you, I got you, I just need you to let me proof it to you . Let me be there for you. Let me in Caroline, that's all am asking."

I can never one hundred percent describe the feelings Talat gave me. Each and every time this man touches me, or enter my personal space; all my brain cells seems to slow down or blow up. I have no idea how someone can feel so much for another.

Yes, am questioning the universe, is this my time to let go? Is it my time to just let someone care for me for a change?

"I'm trying so hard to show you that good people do exists, they are rare to find but they do exists."

"What if you hurt me?"

I closed my eyes briefly at his touch, he rest his chin above my head and hugged me go him.

"I promise it wouldn't be intentional."

"I just don't have it in me to get hurt anymore. I'm in so much darkness, I can't hurt you by bringing you in with me, am selfish but not that selfish."

"I'll be the light in your darkness."

I pulled back from his chest and standing in my spot; we looked at each other. His is so perfect, both bad and good. He knows just the right words to say. So, we stood drinking the sight of each other.

"What's in it for you?"

"A innocent she-devil, someone that I met for a reason, you are no Diana, no Akim, you are just you, normal red head Caroline."

I frowned at that and come to think of it, I should just accept that date, maybe then we would see in each others closet.

"I'm not a born red head."

His nose did a weird jump as he leans closer to my hair, he will see pure red.

"What?-how?"

I pulled away slightly and take a deep breath.

"Just a present from Pauline, a few years back."

"Present?"

"Let's just say, yes, the answer is yes, I'll come with you on a date. Maybe you will see how damage I am and you wouldn't want anything to do with me."

Defense is back to my motion, I thought having sex with him will make me loose the edge and the attitude but no, sex won't do.

"Well, you'll definitely be a hard nut to crack, look at you, back to your stuck up self, you need to chill a bit Caroline, are you even looking at yourself? Each time you take a step forward, it's like you took ten hundreds step Back," He wipes his hand over his face and huff.

"I won't bite you, am not Pauline for fuck sakes. You are going to get me blowing at you like a fucking bomb, each time you backfire at me, I'll show you what's it like to be a devil. I'll be the most controlling freak you have ever met in your entire life and each time you leave here, I'll chase you all the way to hell and back, just to show you that, until I decide to leave you alone, you are not going anywhere. You are not going to succumb to darkness and walk around like some fucking old doll."

I shuddered at this side of him, and I sigh. There is more to him and always will be more. Only a physio will behave like this, I need to ask his grandmother if he is bipolar or suffers from some sort of personality switch.

"You'll just let me hate you."

"Let's see you try, let's see you hate me and like me at the same."

"I didn't ask for your lecture, just because we had sex doesn't mean you have power over me."

"Sex is just sex with a dick and vagina doing magic together or whatever holes. I have power over you because I've seen you Naked, which means I've seen you weak, I've seen you strong, I've seen you bitter, I've seen you angry. I know that you like photography, it is something you are passionate about . I know that you love your dad, behind anything on this Earth. I know your favorite color is black, because you like to hide those scars on your back and you mostly wear black clothes, scars that I've remained shut up about. I've seen how much you protect your sister so imagine what you would do for your own kid. I've seen you Naked Caroline, but I haven't seen you truly happy. "

İf dumfounded was a person, I would be the definition of the dictionary. Naked. He had defined naked in a complete different way. Which just makes it hit hard, I've barely glimpse his nakedness, because he has been too focused on mine.

He haven't seen me truly happy.

When was I truly happy?

I can't even-

When I spent my day with Kimberly

It was just a short moment but I have not been happy In a long while.

"You keep slamming that invisible door in my Face Caroline, understandable, but you have met your match. Get dress, we should be leaving in the next half an hour, it's time to face the music. Allah help me so that I don't slam Pauline head into something for forming you into this ."

I may have lied and said I don't like his dominance but there is a submissive cell hidden somewhere in me, I figured, as I leave the kitchen and walked with my head bowed to shower and re dress.

***

I stood outside with a ack ward stand. Akim has been looking at me for some weird reasons and Nergis was hugging Talat a good bye.

"We all will go in different cars, wow, you should have leave your car behind lovely, four wheels would have been less," said Volkan, Akim Storm off and I saw inspector Reid laugh out.

"You are ridiculous Volkan, she is jealous, can't you see that?"

"We will follow you behind," Talat said, as he walked up to us.

İnspector Reid stood with arms fold across her body; in a white blouse and yellow flowy pants with black heels. She looks gorgeous. It made me aware of my causal Dark outfit; black pullover in this hot sun, shades and black pants with high boots.

Volkan on the other hand dresses as if he is from the gang area. A open white shirt, blue shorts and bare feet. What the actual fuck is his life?

"Are you seriously going like that?"

He looks down at his feet and at his body.

Inspector Reid stifle a laugh.

"Yes, my car, my peace of mind," oh, well, he is a little bit grumpy.

"Yes, let's do this, are you driving with me?" Talat asked.

"Do you want me to drive with you?" I asked him, looking up and wrapping a hand around me. Hugging myself. I feel as if am soft around him, as if am near tears. Why do I feel like this? Am so emotional.

"It's up to you, I'll be waiting on your decisions in the car."

I watch them got in to their cars and I sigh, obviously knowing that am going with him.

Inspector Reid, sped away ahead and Volkan hunk his horn.

"Fine," I said and went into his moving car. The smell hit me and I sigh and even my heart feels heavy. I buckle the seat belt around me and turn my knees to the door. I removed my shades and stuck it in my pullover Pockets.

"Volkan is coming behind us."

"Mhm."

"Are you going to remain like this with me? Come on, talk to me."

I remain silent, not looking at him.

I felt his Palm on my thighs and I stiffen.

"I bought something for you."

I remained quite still.

"Your vanity can't help."

I heard him sigh.

"It's just something I thought you'd like , it's okay if you don't want it," he mumbled and my heart melt. Why do I feel like this?

I glanced at him and saw him grip the steering wheel. I turn my head away again and pout.

"Are you really not talking to me?" I felt the car stopped and I finally looked at him, long and hard.

"It's just that, I don't know, it's all good."

It hit me like a cold shower, why I feel like this.

I'm hurting

I'm hurting because of the way he treated me earlier

"Come here," he stretch out his arm at me and I Willing unlock myself from my seat belt. I climbed over to his seat like a baby offered candy. I allowed him to set my feet properly and he adjust his seat.

His arm held me around my waist and head. He envelope me in a tender hug and I felt my heart melting. He cradles me against him in a tender way. I supposed all my troubles would go away like this.

His scent intoxicates my nostrils and for once it also helps to calm me, instead of erecting a sexual feeling in me.
I'm starting to think it's not even the cologne, it's him.

"Am sorry, If I was a little extreme on you earlier."

My body stiffen and I leaned away from him, I made a attempt to get away but he eventually got hold of my two hands.

"Don't worry, am not gonna cry Infront of you; over you, any day that happened I must be at my weakest. Rule number one; never cry Infront of a man over that same man."

I pushed my mouth out in a pout but I got a quick peck on it instead.

A peck from his lips that sent shivers down my spine

"You look so adorable like this, maybe you should stay mad at me for a while."

I sigh and relax in his hold. There is no use being upset at him for too long if it makes my heart feels like this; especially for something so simple, well not really simple but all the horrible truths and opinions and his treats behind it. I have met my match indeed.

"What did you bought me?" I finally focus my gaze on his face, on how soft it looks now, unguarded. Something like a vulnerability.

"Oh, so you want to know now. It's just a replacement Camera, something I -"

"What?"

If this is the way he says sorry then, wow, he bought me a camera.

"I ordered Volkan to buy it for me since he was already on the road, I got it because well- I thought about you."

"You thought about me?" I watch him squirm a little and I couldn't help the pull I felt on my lips as a tiny smile break out.

"Yes, I did."

"Where is it? Did you bought it after our little mishap?"

"It's in the back seat and yes I did. I'm sorry for being too harsh on you am not sorry for what I said, I should have been more gentle and that is why am sorry."

"I like when you are rough."

I don't know where that came from but it did came from somewhere. I'm staring into his eyes and boom, just those words from his lips got me thinking vidly how roughly he slammed me down on his dick.

"Holy fuck," he said after a moment of silence.

"Mhmm."

"Caroline," he growls my name.

"Yes?"

His fingers grips me on my hip and a slight moan escape my lips, am already wet for him.

"Please get off my lap, I got Volkan waiting for a long while, he is going to make a fun of me."

"Oh, I forgot about him," I got off his lap and intentionally turn my ass to his view. A big dramatic turn out just to sit back in my seat. I clicked my seat belt as if nothing happens.

I turned to look at him. He had been watching me.

"Aren't you driving?"

"Yes, I am."

I dramatically look down at his feet and look outside.

"Am not feeling the car moving and the place outside is still, did you unlock a new way of driving?"

He growls at me, starts the engine and I laughed at him. Oh, how it felt good to laugh, I forgot we were having a serious conversation.

I laughed away the uneasy feeling in my chest, and grab the unopened box from the back seat. I flash him a smile and on a impulse, I quickly peck him on the cheek. He was slightly taken a back, I saw it but I hope he knows how thankful I am. Please tell me I don't need to say it.

I opened the camera, and checked it out. High quality? Check. Video? Check. Neck band ? Check. Zoom ? Check. Night vision? Check. This is perfect.

I snap a picture of him as I caught him staring at me. Check.

I leaned out the window and made a few copies of our passing sorroundings, including Volkan's car. Everything looks so perfect on this.

"I know where you would get a chance to take more pictures!" His voice reaches out to me in the wind.

I sat back and look at him.

"Am Inviting you to Istanbul, would you like to come with?"

My eyes popped from my head in surprise. I've never left America since my mom died. Am now getting invited to somewhere I've never been.

"If it's too soon-"

"Yes! Yes! I would love to, Talat. I would get to see so much. I would capture everything."

"I will show you the best of everything. I'll travel the world with you, just for you to take your pictures if you want."

"Oh no, no, no, hell no, you are not doing that for me."

Hell no

"You won't tell me not to do the best thing."

"You are working. You are a detective. This is your job, your case."

I saw his jaw tensed as he starts to focus on the road.

"Was my job, as soon as the case is over with Pauline, am out. I'm done working for my- for the boss."

I guess I was right when I say there is more to this man. Why would he sounds so re-sent full towards his dad?
I gets that he cheats but that's his father.

"Are you sure that's what you want?"

"Yes, I have other skills."

"This is something I Know you are good at."

"I'll join another company or quit completely, the future will tell. We are here."

He parked the car in front of the yard and I look around and realized; we have reached our destination. I look up at a three floor house and sigh. Somewhere in this building is the devil's daughter.

I got my camera hanging around my neck and I stepped out. Volkan was quick to follow up behind.

I walked off in a daze, leaving them behind. This is where my anxiety grows; it's either I get a grip on my life or I don't.

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